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11/18/2008 10:09 #46736

meta (update with pics!)
tation?

i know that's not how you spell it.

i met with my professor on Saturday at spot coffee. it was weird... it was one of the things that screams, i am a graduate student, no longer an undergrad. we talked for an hour about a paper i am writing right now about a haunted plantation in Louisiana and, gasp, my thesis. I think I actually have a topic and theory for the thesis, which is crazy exciting and crazy nerve wrecking all at once. this professor is amazing. she gives me just enough praise to keep my feeling capable and good but not too much so that i don't stop questioning myself and my ideas. she still intimidates that shit outta me but i know its not because i am scared of her, but because she has taught me so much and i know i still can learn so much from her.

felly got a new blackberry. right now i have her old phone but soon i am getting an (orange!) boulder!! its a super chunky heavy duty phone cause i don't really aesthetically like the super thin streamlined ones...they make me nervous.

in other news...there is snow on the ground! this is like...real snow. last time it snowed, by the time i had ralphie outside it was mostly watery crystals that didn't cover the ground. i can't wait to see what he thinks this time.



Ralphie's newest sweater

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Ralphie's first real snow!
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fellyconnelly - 11/19/08 07:13
ralphapotamus is aDOReable!
lauren - 11/18/08 19:16
It is called The Myrtles Plantation in St. Francisville LA. It is supposedly "America's Most Haunted Plantation".

And yes, its actually called the boulder. i spose its meant for outdorsy folks...i just met a construction worker the other day who had one... i just thought it was perty.
jenks - 11/18/08 18:20
what plantation?? I toured a few...

And do you mean perhaps the "PEBL" phone? or is there really one called boulder? haha. I had a blue pebl. Loved it.
james - 11/18/08 10:49
I like your spelling much better.
paul - 11/18/08 10:20
I wish basra could play in the snow

11/13/2008 18:55 #46678

Vent
Category: school
I am having one of those breakdown moments.
It's the end of the semester...like, really.

I just got home and checked my student email and was overloaded with all this shit.

Deadlines about when to register for next semester.
I don't even know what the hell I am doing next semester. Do I sign up for thesis guidance? How many credits do I take? Do I get financial aid? Who is going to be my second adviser?

THEN
I got an email from the library telling me that two of the books I am using for one of my research papers were RECALLED. What a bunch of bullshit. Someone else needs the books so they get them?? What the fuck. They missed out. I have them because I need them...I don't just take out shit tons of books for the fun of it. Why is it that because they, the late bird, want the book I have to return it early? You'd think that maybe at least my option to renew would be taken away. I might be able to handle that, but no, I gotta give them back on Monday...three weeks before my paper is due. Maybe once I return them I can recall them and get them back.

AND THEN
another email from the library...I supposedly have a book that was due today. But I swear to whoever that I returned that shit. I take books very seriously. I respect them and keep track of them and godamit I returned that shit. And, I have no proof. They don't give receipts or anything that says you returned your books. You put them on the desk and walk out. So I have no proof and therefore will either have to pay for the damn book that is floating around somewhere in that giant library or have my library privileges revoked, which ultimately is out of the question.

For those students out there...you surely understand. It seems like everything that can go wrong usually does when you have 4, 20 page research papers to write. Like I don't have enough shit on my plate right now I have to worry about all this other shit. Ug. I am sooooo mad.
museumchick - 11/16/08 22:03
I detest library recalls. I have no good advice, but I definitely can relate!
heidi - 11/15/08 01:30
Aw, that sucks, Lauren! (e:tinypliny), that is sooo funny.



jason - 11/14/08 14:03
Can't you just ignore the recall?
tinypliny - 11/14/08 13:51
I HATE library recalls. The exact same thing happened to me in my first year. I searched for a book from the dungeons of library book wells for a whole hour. When I found it, it was dusty and it hadn't been cracked open since it was bought for the library. And then within a week of my checking out the book, some idiot recalled it. And the library wanted it the very same day. I hadn't even got through 4 chapters. It was so maddening. I gave it up and recalled it the next day just to give that idiot some dose of the same medicine. I think s/he caught on to my game and we did the tit-for-tat recalls for a whole of 4 recalls each. Then I gave up, because I didn't really need the book anymore and I got tired of dealing with such a vindictive loon.
joshua - 11/14/08 13:44
What the hell? I didn't even know that you could recall a book once it was taken out. I'd call them and say, too bad, so sad, I need them and if some ass dragger wants them, tough luck. That is so annoying!!
johnallen - 11/13/08 22:50
Be strong. I hated that part of school and only went for an Associates, So I can't imagine the stress and pressure you are under. Just don't fall behind.

10/25/2008 10:33 #46318

Tonight!!!
Battle @ Buffalo
910 Main St.
7:30pm
$5
Family Friendly!




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gardenmama - 10/25/08 15:34
I think my sister, niece, daughter and I are going to this tonight. It looks very cool.

10/22/2008 18:23 #46253

It's That Time Again!
Hey Kids

THIS SATURDAY
OCT. 25
Battle @ Buffalo
$5 (they upped it a dollar those bastards!)
910 Main St (between Hyatt's Art Store doors)
7:30ish to 11:00ish



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Please note me & (e:heidi) in the background :)
fellyconnelly - 10/23/08 11:07
i'm sure everything is spelled wrong. How very wrong.
tinypliny - 10/22/08 18:41
Hahah... at the little girl sleeping. :)

10/18/2008 12:13 #46176

OMG
I am currently reading an article called "'How Do I Rent a Negro?': Racialized Subjectivity and Digital Performance Art" by Brandi Wilkins Catanese (Theatre Journal)

and she talks about this website:
Rent-A-Negro.Com

I think it is a really fascinating look at race relations today...I should be reading instead of posting, but I thought I would share. Take a look around at all the different tabs, it's worth it!

This is one of their products from the store
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metalpeter - 10/19/08 16:47
I didn't mean to lose anyone with the sports stuff, I was just trying to show that to someone who doesn't know about sports that they might ask questions that seem weird like how someone who doesn't know about homosexuality or bisexuality might ask strange questions, I'm no expert myself and have asked a weird question before my self.

Yes I do agree with you that it is a fabrication of grouping me in with other whites I will agree with you there. I think it is also important to know that even though it is a fabrication that gives me some advantages it gives disadvatages also. I don't mean being white I mean the classes people make based on skin color. Yes I have been called a cracker, at first it was weird, but oh well. If I walk through a Nieghboor hood with drugs It is assumed that is what I'm there for. I have seen people hanging out talking on a corner they see me and all of a sudden decide to leave the corner. I was with a buddy of mine who bought stuff when he was underage and he walks in with a white boy and all of a sudden the same guy doesn't trust to sell to him any more.

I think that people naturaly group things together and that it is kinda natural. I'm not saying it is right but it has happend since the founding of our country. A polish area forms cause all the poles stick together. Even though everyone who is polish is different the things they have in common become a bond and so they don't like people who have things that are not there same beliefs (not picking on the polish pick a nationality and the result would be the same). I think this natural process has been used by people in power to keep there power and devide people and that the people in power use this to there advantage. I think it has even made it into the schools the way Color is taught. Before you are taught the science of it you are taught to keep the red things together that teaches people that the color is more important then what makes up the color (but I'm a little bit nuts so maybe this makes no sense). So then when you see some one who has skin that is different looking and different looking hair it is an easy jump to assume they are different. Again I think the powers that be use this to help keep the people below them devided and keep there power.
lauren - 10/19/08 16:25
Uh...(e:metalpeter) I will admit you lost me with the sport references...but I do want to be very clear about my ideas of whiteness and blackness. Admitting that white people have a race is baby step number one. Step number two is to acknowledge that whiteness, just like blackness, is a cultural construct that has been manipulated, scientifically, culturally, legally, throughout history. The meanings they carry are not innate. From there you have to realize that despite the fact that there really is no such thing as whiteness or blackness (at least as we are able to understand them) that those categories nonetheless have "real" material, physical, psychological, social, legal, cultural consequences. Which brings me back to baby step number one...realizing that your "whiteness" (now in quotes that questions a surface reading) brings you privileges despite its fabricated constructions.
metalpeter - 10/19/08 11:13
I thought I needed to add something but wasn't sure how to say it. The entire stupid questions men ask of Bi-Sexuals from there stand point are not stupid. They ask because they don't know. It is like when some asks how many quarters there are in a hockey game. In football there are 4 it is also a math thing since 1/4 and a quarter is the same. So what is the right answer you want to say 3 but the math isn't right so you have to say in hockey they are periods and there are 3, or if the question is asked at a College basketball game the answer would be something like there are two Halves and then how ever long each one is I think 12 minutes. Are Bisexual girls sluts no. But do some women who are with a man want a chick to join in (hey maybe she is bi maybe not) yeah some of them do.

In terms of being white. Being white is kinda weird because often Jews who look white are not considered white by people who are white (or atleast in hate groups). Where it also gets odd is that sometimes dark skined Italians get thought they are Hispanic when they are not and sometimes that goes the other way also.
paul - 10/18/08 17:10
I wonder if I am white. I mean depending on the time period I was white or not white. I prefer European American. I almost always cross out white and write that on anything that asks. I mean compared to (e:terry) I am not white.

P.S. Youtube doesn't work in comments Heidi, Maybe I will make it do that when I have a chance.
lauren - 10/18/08 14:05
haha. that video is awesome! and yeah, i totally get what you are saying...i never know how to respond to shit like that...like when i wrote about that dude who couldn't believe that i liked girls cause i was "attractive". i am thinking of


1.fuck you pay me

Reply to a dispute of debt. Common gangsta mantra. Meant to express the non-negotiability of debt.
"The place burned down? Fuck you pay me. Lightning struck? Fuck you, pay me. Slow business? Fuck you, pay me." -Ray Liotta, Goodfellas
urbandictionary
:::link:::
heidi - 10/18/08 13:51
Yeah, that's the point, isn't it? How do you put a price tag on indignities suffered every day? Would it hurt less if someone handed you $100 every time they asked you if you've ever slept with a man? I'm trying to remember the questions I get most often..."Will you have sex with me and my wife/girlfriend?" or just the assumption that being bi makes me a slut - "You're bisexual? Want to suck my cock?" It would be like slapping a fine on them, which seems kinda fun. (I hope that made sense and wasn't offensive.)

Tangentially, did you see Dan Savage's offer to be Sarah Palin's gay friend? [youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=leq3ydk5Ug4[/youtube]
lauren - 10/18/08 13:09
I totally get what you are saying (e:heidi), but I would say that these prices are deeply inappropriate, as in, how can you put on price on something like that?
heidi - 10/18/08 12:34
These prices seem perfectly appropriate:

• Touch Hair: $100 each time

• Touch Skin: $125 each touch

• Compare Your Skin Tone: $150

"Will You Tell Them I'm Not a Racist?": $1500 per vouch

"Just let it go." Overlooking racism: $1500 per incident

Thanks for sharing the site!