it looks like my wish may be granted. i am really hoping that the job with the hospital comes through. it would mean full-time with benefits, if i want, or i can stay on as pool and keep the higher pay rate. either way it's a sweet deal. i would make between 30 and 40 grand a year. not bad for a student.

i could pay for school out of pocket and start saving money and even pay off loans and credit card debt. i know it would be a lot of responsibility, and hard work, but i think i am up for the challenge!

also, i received a 100 on my presentation today! score!

if i get the job, some serious celebration will be needed soon.

this also means i must quit/cut back at other job. i will give the family through the summer to find someone else, and i think that is pretty fair.

if i work two jobs, it will be insane, like working 6 or 7 days a week, but that mad cash money. as much as i hate the thought, money really does help, and financial freedom is my goal.

i am speaking too much like a real adult, so i have to end this post.

ps. i love bacon, and that will never change.

people are being shady this week. i'm always shady, but when it comes to setting a time and date, i commit.

1.) i had a date, but he didn't pick up when i called him after work. i gave him 45 minutes, and then ditched that plan to hang with another guy. if you don't get right back to me, i make other plans.

2.) my boss wants me to call her, and she doesn't pick up or call back. wtf?

3.) i am supposed to go on a fun field trip to the giant mexican market, and i show up at the school today. it turns out, the teacher repeatedly told me the wrong day. she said, friday about 20 times, and friday is tomorrow. today is thursday. please, get your days and times straight lady. of course, no one in the office believed me, and she won't either. i never would have said i could go on thursdays, as i have class and work later, and friday is my only day off.

so, what does this teach us? don't flake out people. if you make a date, stick to it, or else i find fun elsewhere.

p.s. i am now obsessed with shopping online, and have made at least three purchases this week, including clothing, beauty products, and footwear. i need help for my addiction.

i drank last night. but only two shots and a beer. omg a beer!!!

i think it's ok though, i hiked 4 miles, four time this week. that's 16 miles.

i didn't hike this morning. i went to sleep at 6, only to wake up at 8:45, with a loud banging on my window. i quickly got dressed and answered the door. it's the tile guy and his son, and they are here to work in the bathroom.

great. i prob reek of booze and club, and i didn't wash my face, so i looked like a cheap whore who just got raped.

anyway, i pulled myself together, and made myself respectable. i played with the little boy. he loves photo booth, and gremlins, and cats, and milk. we walked up the hill to the mailbox to check the mail. he told his daddy i am "bonita". he's four. haha! he was so cute, i just wanted to hug him and kiss him.

i love kids.

anyway, the tile guy is hot, and he works at the hospital where i do. he's a nurse by day, jack of all trades by night apparently.

he is married. but he does always say how pretty i am. i would never, ever. but it is fun to think about!

that being said, i should focus more on the hiking. i got new shoes yesterday, $100. dayum, i better have some mad hiking super powers now. i can't wait to try them out tomorrow morning!!!!!!!

the fact that the little half spanish son of my co-worker called me "bonita", totally made my day. it's just so cute!!!!

i am going to nc for my cousin's wedding mid may.

i haven't been there since i was 16.


i haven't swam in the ocean since then.

i also have an excuse to buy a perty new dress!!! i am going to wait until the week before, because hopefully i will look somewhat different/more fit, and i can buy a size smaller!


maybe a miracle will happen and i will regain a part of me that was lost when i stopped seeing and feeling the ocean. i miss it so much.

a reminder that i also have six weeks to get into beach shape! oh no!

ps. i have actually gained weight, and i'm hoping it's muscle. i look better though, so i'm not too worried about numbers.

i think i've decided to cut out alcohol. oh well, that doesn't mean i can't have other things!


ocean here i come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so i am now fitness obsessed. i am wondering, what is my calorie intake supposed to be.

i read that you shouldn't go under 1200 a day. that's about where i am at, with like 3.6 miles hikes 5 times a week, and weights and all that mumbo jumbo in between.


i just don't want to be under the limit so i stop burning...



who knows???