I had like one good day just before the party. It was weird. I felt a lot better and then it all just went downhill. This mornign was the worst as I had these horrible waves of nausea mxied with about 10 visits to the bathroom throughout the night.
So next Wednesday I have a colonscopy that requires me to go on a 24 hour liquid and laxative diet. That should be fun, adding to the constant intestinal pain and cramping I have been having for over a month now. It is worst when my stomach is empty so i imagine this is going to be beyond painful.
I have this horrible feeling I am going to die soon. Maybe I can just die beforehand.
It still seems unreasonable to me that up to this point, almost two month after the initial bad symptoms started I still haven't had a since blood test to check anything or a single stool sample. Only one xray. I keep reading all the literature from the different organizations for intestinal medicine and they all talk about blood tests to check white blood cell count and iron levels for anemia and stool smaples to check for infections and parasites as a first step.
I freakin' cannot wait till my doctors appointment with the gastroenterologist on the 24th. I would pay like 10 fold the amount to hve it tomorrow.
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01/04/2008 20:28 #42752
God Damned IntestinesCategory: health
01/02/2008 23:08 #42732
Talking about BuffaloCategory: buffalo
I saw this buffalo Rising cover 
in my mother's bathroom. I just can't believe how full of themselves they are.
I am excited to see what happens with the new Elmwood Taco and Subs.
Is Elmwood becoming a ghetto or what? I am glad I left for Linwood before all the businesses closed. Why is everything shutting down? Seriously, it seems like more things are empty now than I ever remember. Are the rent prices just too high. If you drive from one end to the other so many places are closed down. This house is at the corner of West Delevan and Elmwood - notice the smashed out upstairs window.
I was debating buying hertelvillage.com or not, lol.
in my mother's bathroom. I just can't believe how full of themselves they are.
I am excited to see what happens with the new Elmwood Taco and Subs.
Is Elmwood becoming a ghetto or what? I am glad I left for Linwood before all the businesses closed. Why is everything shutting down? Seriously, it seems like more things are empty now than I ever remember. Are the rent prices just too high. If you drive from one end to the other so many places are closed down. This house is at the corner of West Delevan and Elmwood - notice the smashed out upstairs window.
I was debating buying hertelvillage.com or not, lol.
carolinian - 01/04/08 23:58
It's the predictable cycle of
1. Place with cheap rent gets cool bohemian stores
2. Rich folks attracted to bohemian lifestyle move into bohemian place because they want to be hip
3. The low rent that attracted the bohemians stops being low
4. Bohemians move to a new place with cheap rents.
Elmwood Village is in stage 3.
It's the predictable cycle of
1. Place with cheap rent gets cool bohemian stores
2. Rich folks attracted to bohemian lifestyle move into bohemian place because they want to be hip
3. The low rent that attracted the bohemians stops being low
4. Bohemians move to a new place with cheap rents.
Elmwood Village is in stage 3.
drew - 01/04/08 23:45
Wow. We didn't pay NEAR that much.
I'm not so worried about Elmwood, but I haven't been here long enough to know what I'm talking about.
Wow. We didn't pay NEAR that much.
I'm not so worried about Elmwood, but I haven't been here long enough to know what I'm talking about.
empireoflight - 01/04/08 23:17
Any major city downtown costs 5x what you get in buffalo, at least. It's a landlord's dream, "city living" at affordable prices, but what you get is 90% riff raff that can't afford to spend any money at the shops and richies from the burbs that get turned off by said riff raff and won't touch downtown commerce with a stick.
Any major city downtown costs 5x what you get in buffalo, at least. It's a landlord's dream, "city living" at affordable prices, but what you get is 90% riff raff that can't afford to spend any money at the shops and richies from the burbs that get turned off by said riff raff and won't touch downtown commerce with a stick.
paul - 01/03/08 18:17
Really, I thought they were too expensive, that is why I moved away from elmwood. We though about buying a house in the village but I wasn't willing to pay over $200,000 for an average size house near the strip.
Here is a perfect example at :::link::: going for $215,000 in the elmwood village. Here is another at $229,000 :::link:::
I can't believe the prices actually now. I paid the same thing as this little allentown house :::link:::
And really is someone going to pay $229,000 for 372 Prospect :::link:::
Really, I thought they were too expensive, that is why I moved away from elmwood. We though about buying a house in the village but I wasn't willing to pay over $200,000 for an average size house near the strip.
Here is a perfect example at :::link::: going for $215,000 in the elmwood village. Here is another at $229,000 :::link:::
I can't believe the prices actually now. I paid the same thing as this little allentown house :::link:::
And really is someone going to pay $229,000 for 372 Prospect :::link:::
empireoflight - 01/03/08 17:41
The problem is property values are far too low to support loaded clientelle needed to fuel a true "hopping" neighborhood. Maybe if property values skyrocketed somehow, deadbeat landlords would sell and rentals would become single-families.
The problem is property values are far too low to support loaded clientelle needed to fuel a true "hopping" neighborhood. Maybe if property values skyrocketed somehow, deadbeat landlords would sell and rentals would become single-families.
joshua - 01/03/08 09:54
That is why I thought the whole thing about Elmwood Village being one of the top 10 'hoods in the nation was completely bogus and manufactured. In my 7 years of living here I've never seen so many empty commercial properties between Forest and North, not to mention several other properties that have always been revolving doors and jinxed real estate, now occupied presently or formerly by Sahara Grill, Falafel Bar, Brodo (anybody remember Flour Power?), whatever Elmwood Panhandler is now, whatever Elmwood Bagel Shoppe will be, the former New World Records - I could go on and on. We do have some serious success stories in the neighborhood, and I am not glossing over them, but the idea of Elmwood being a stable community is an illusion.
What makes me angrier is that people and orgs like... well... Buffalo Rising are complicit in this overt dramatization because its good for their member businesses and advertising revenue. The "strip" is still the place to be in this area as far as I'm concerned though, and I'd never live outside of a block or two from where I am now if I could help it... I do like Ashland, Lancaster and many of the side streets. It would be a radical lifestyle change for me if I actually had to get in my car or take long ass walks in the snow every time I needed a gallon of milk. I have to be honest - if I couldn't stumble out the front door every time I wanted coffee I'd be devastated!
That is why I thought the whole thing about Elmwood Village being one of the top 10 'hoods in the nation was completely bogus and manufactured. In my 7 years of living here I've never seen so many empty commercial properties between Forest and North, not to mention several other properties that have always been revolving doors and jinxed real estate, now occupied presently or formerly by Sahara Grill, Falafel Bar, Brodo (anybody remember Flour Power?), whatever Elmwood Panhandler is now, whatever Elmwood Bagel Shoppe will be, the former New World Records - I could go on and on. We do have some serious success stories in the neighborhood, and I am not glossing over them, but the idea of Elmwood being a stable community is an illusion.
What makes me angrier is that people and orgs like... well... Buffalo Rising are complicit in this overt dramatization because its good for their member businesses and advertising revenue. The "strip" is still the place to be in this area as far as I'm concerned though, and I'd never live outside of a block or two from where I am now if I could help it... I do like Ashland, Lancaster and many of the side streets. It would be a radical lifestyle change for me if I actually had to get in my car or take long ass walks in the snow every time I needed a gallon of milk. I have to be honest - if I couldn't stumble out the front door every time I wanted coffee I'd be devastated!
james - 01/03/08 00:46
shit's fucked in Buffalo? Get out of town!
I am willing to bet a few landlords need to die before all the sore spots are fixed. And friend, I just might be willing to do the deadly deed.
shit's fucked in Buffalo? Get out of town!
I am willing to bet a few landlords need to die before all the sore spots are fixed. And friend, I just might be willing to do the deadly deed.
01/02/2008 22:58 #42731
New Year's Eve 2008Category: holiday
On New Years Eve we went to my mother's for dinner before the estrip party. I found these yummy sugar eyes in my mother's cabinet.
New Year's eve we ate lots of sea food.
Smelt are kind of like little fried gold fish that taste like potato chips.
I bought crab legs. I just bought the normal Kind crab legs.
Wegmans also had collosal crab legs or about $25 each. They were as big as my wrist. The small ones in these pics are the normal kind crab legs I bought.
Afterwards, we had the party at our house (e:jim,42704) (e:metalpeter,42717)
We dropped the ball down the stairwell again.
I think we wore (e:mike) out - the last people left around 6am. I had a really good time at the party. I spent most of the night hanging out with (e:kookcity2000)
New Year's eve we ate lots of sea food.
Smelt are kind of like little fried gold fish that taste like potato chips.
I bought crab legs. I just bought the normal Kind crab legs.
Wegmans also had collosal crab legs or about $25 each. They were as big as my wrist. The small ones in these pics are the normal kind crab legs I bought.
Afterwards, we had the party at our house (e:jim,42704) (e:metalpeter,42717)
We dropped the ball down the stairwell again.
I think we wore (e:mike) out - the last people left around 6am. I had a really good time at the party. I spent most of the night hanging out with (e:kookcity2000)
12/31/2007 14:35 #42695
Ulcer Me ThisCategory: work
I am having the most stressful nerve wracking day ever. It started out getting my tooth drilled and filled and went right into a high stress work day without even getting a chance to eat. I seriously hate my job right now.
Then I sit here babysitting the new application while everyone else is gone until I have to go to a dinner party at my mothers followed by a party at our house. I hope it was the kind of party where someone brings me valium, please serenity now.
So "they" decided to launch the new version of the system I was working on today. A live system that lots of people are using, with high priorty, and serious security risk if it fails and. We switched in the middle of the day , while people were using it, just before a holiday. It is about a 60% re-write based on new technology and data sources we have available. I am going to go out on a limb and say it seems FUCKING RETARDED to launch something like this right before a holiday. We even have some sort of policy against it I think.
Normally, we don't do this but apparently someone higher up was promised it would be ready for the New Year and here we are launching it today. The person that promised them was supposed to test it and barely did, which left me doing all the development and testing - most of the testing I can't even do because I don't know enough about the data in the application to know if it is right or not. I don't even have any test cases to work with.
Now if there is a problem it will be super compounded by the time I get back. Hopefully, we can bank on my skills and it will just work.
Then I sit here babysitting the new application while everyone else is gone until I have to go to a dinner party at my mothers followed by a party at our house. I hope it was the kind of party where someone brings me valium, please serenity now.
So "they" decided to launch the new version of the system I was working on today. A live system that lots of people are using, with high priorty, and serious security risk if it fails and. We switched in the middle of the day , while people were using it, just before a holiday. It is about a 60% re-write based on new technology and data sources we have available. I am going to go out on a limb and say it seems FUCKING RETARDED to launch something like this right before a holiday. We even have some sort of policy against it I think.
Normally, we don't do this but apparently someone higher up was promised it would be ready for the New Year and here we are launching it today. The person that promised them was supposed to test it and barely did, which left me doing all the development and testing - most of the testing I can't even do because I don't know enough about the data in the application to know if it is right or not. I don't even have any test cases to work with.
Now if there is a problem it will be super compounded by the time I get back. Hopefully, we can bank on my skills and it will just work.
pyrcedgrrl - 01/04/08 23:36
Okay, I'm going to try to remember all of this b/c it was about 3 years ago. When I was having my tummy pain my first attack had be doubled over. I went to the ER and it subsided--the doctor glanced at me and said, 'I don't even need to do any tests. You have gastritis" and gave me Nexium, which my insurance refused to cover. 3 days later- had a sonogram which showed nothing. another week later- another attack, could barely move, slept on a heating pad b/c the pain went through to my back. Went to the ER 3 times in 3 days and was sent home each time b/c the first Dr. had told me NOT to take painkillers, so as soon as they gave me painkillers I felt better. :)
Finally, Christmas day after working a midnight while unable to hold even water down, I went to the ER again. They did a CT scan which showed "a small bile duct stone" which they deemed able to stay in until my doctors office opened 2 days later. Gave me a prescription--pharmacy was closed. :) FINALLY called my surgeon that had performed my gastric bypass years earlier from the empty parking lot of Rite Aid, bawling my eyes out. He told me to go to Sister's Hospital. (which is where I had the surgery performed)
Went to Sister's a couple hours later. The Triage nurse took one look at me and told me I was being admitted. I had jaundice. (apparently yellow skin and eyes was not enough indication that I needed help for St. Mary's Hosp.) I had bright orange urine, which was fun. :)
A small partially-sedated procedure 2 days later and i was perfect...except for the itchy jaundicy skin which lasted for 2 mos. YUCK.
I have NO idea if this will help you in any way, but you need to DEMAND some kind of a scan, first off. CT, sonogram...SOMETHING. An x-ray will not show most of what could be wrong w/ you (IE: your guts). I was told after I had my blown ACL ligament x-rayed that that is does not show soft tissue. (have no idea if this is true)
You need to KEEP CALLING THE DOCTOR. Keep on their asses. There is NO REASON why you should still be sitting there in pain with no relief after all this time!!!!!!
You need to DEMAND BLOOD WORK. This should have been one of their first priorities. It can show them so much and help with diagnosis.
You need to pretend you're an IRATE ITALIAN like me to light a fire under their asses. ;)
--I give lessons--cheap! :)
I truly hope you feel better soon, I just think it's totally moronic that they have not taken care of the basic, bottom line procedures before moving on to a colonoscopy. I think I missed what happened before..the last post of yours i read you were drinking that phospho soda crap. Did that procedure show nothing? Grr.
I hope your doctor gets his head out of his ass soon. You're in my thoughts.
~Dana
Okay, I'm going to try to remember all of this b/c it was about 3 years ago. When I was having my tummy pain my first attack had be doubled over. I went to the ER and it subsided--the doctor glanced at me and said, 'I don't even need to do any tests. You have gastritis" and gave me Nexium, which my insurance refused to cover. 3 days later- had a sonogram which showed nothing. another week later- another attack, could barely move, slept on a heating pad b/c the pain went through to my back. Went to the ER 3 times in 3 days and was sent home each time b/c the first Dr. had told me NOT to take painkillers, so as soon as they gave me painkillers I felt better. :)
Finally, Christmas day after working a midnight while unable to hold even water down, I went to the ER again. They did a CT scan which showed "a small bile duct stone" which they deemed able to stay in until my doctors office opened 2 days later. Gave me a prescription--pharmacy was closed. :) FINALLY called my surgeon that had performed my gastric bypass years earlier from the empty parking lot of Rite Aid, bawling my eyes out. He told me to go to Sister's Hospital. (which is where I had the surgery performed)
Went to Sister's a couple hours later. The Triage nurse took one look at me and told me I was being admitted. I had jaundice. (apparently yellow skin and eyes was not enough indication that I needed help for St. Mary's Hosp.) I had bright orange urine, which was fun. :)
A small partially-sedated procedure 2 days later and i was perfect...except for the itchy jaundicy skin which lasted for 2 mos. YUCK.
I have NO idea if this will help you in any way, but you need to DEMAND some kind of a scan, first off. CT, sonogram...SOMETHING. An x-ray will not show most of what could be wrong w/ you (IE: your guts). I was told after I had my blown ACL ligament x-rayed that that is does not show soft tissue. (have no idea if this is true)
You need to KEEP CALLING THE DOCTOR. Keep on their asses. There is NO REASON why you should still be sitting there in pain with no relief after all this time!!!!!!
You need to DEMAND BLOOD WORK. This should have been one of their first priorities. It can show them so much and help with diagnosis.
You need to pretend you're an IRATE ITALIAN like me to light a fire under their asses. ;)
--I give lessons--cheap! :)
I truly hope you feel better soon, I just think it's totally moronic that they have not taken care of the basic, bottom line procedures before moving on to a colonoscopy. I think I missed what happened before..the last post of yours i read you were drinking that phospho soda crap. Did that procedure show nothing? Grr.
I hope your doctor gets his head out of his ass soon. You're in my thoughts.
~Dana
mrdeadlier - 01/01/08 02:31
2007 is behind us. Better circumstances in 2008, I promise!
2007 is behind us. Better circumstances in 2008, I promise!
leetee - 12/31/07 18:49
When we were at New World Record today (just waiting for our chinese food next door, actually), i saw a bin of stuffed toys. They were germs... one was a stomach ache. Almost got it for you... but i wasn't sure what they were stuffed with and what kind of allergic reaction you might have to that. Still, i thought you would find it amusing to get a stuffed stomach ache germ with plastic eyes...
When we were at New World Record today (just waiting for our chinese food next door, actually), i saw a bin of stuffed toys. They were germs... one was a stomach ache. Almost got it for you... but i wasn't sure what they were stuffed with and what kind of allergic reaction you might have to that. Still, i thought you would find it amusing to get a stuffed stomach ache germ with plastic eyes...
paul - 12/31/07 17:10
I just left work. Miraculously, (okay a lot of care and time from me) it looks like it is working and people are successfully using it - at least according to my log files.
I just left work. Miraculously, (okay a lot of care and time from me) it looks like it is working and people are successfully using it - at least according to my log files.
metalpeter - 12/31/07 16:46
I wish I had those drugs you needed if I did I would bring them. In terms of the computer stuff I don't really know what it is. But I know it shouldn't be changed in the middle of the day. I could see having who ever does it come in early or at a time when what ever the program or system or what ever it is will hardly be used. Then send out a memo to everyone with an e-mail or some other kind of in house mail system so that everyone knows that if there is a problem or if something has changed who to get in contact with for help or for there issue. It sure would be nice if they could have done it on say friday and then had an entire day to test it and then the weekend also. I don't deal with much software doing my job. But every year there is a new form of UPS software and when we last got Fed Ex software it said that it wasn't compaitable with vista. When they updated some stuff in the office I was hoping that they weren't going to change my computer on me and ad vista on my day off. I have no idea what the changed on the office computers. But when ever things are changed I get a little Nervous. Part of my job if the computer doesn't work there is no way to do it by hand. I hope that at both parties you are able to have a good time. Hopefully at your place some crazy fun stuff happens and that will make you feel better. Then the next time you are having a bad day you can look at the pictures and brighten your day.
I wish I had those drugs you needed if I did I would bring them. In terms of the computer stuff I don't really know what it is. But I know it shouldn't be changed in the middle of the day. I could see having who ever does it come in early or at a time when what ever the program or system or what ever it is will hardly be used. Then send out a memo to everyone with an e-mail or some other kind of in house mail system so that everyone knows that if there is a problem or if something has changed who to get in contact with for help or for there issue. It sure would be nice if they could have done it on say friday and then had an entire day to test it and then the weekend also. I don't deal with much software doing my job. But every year there is a new form of UPS software and when we last got Fed Ex software it said that it wasn't compaitable with vista. When they updated some stuff in the office I was hoping that they weren't going to change my computer on me and ad vista on my day off. I have no idea what the changed on the office computers. But when ever things are changed I get a little Nervous. Part of my job if the computer doesn't work there is no way to do it by hand. I hope that at both parties you are able to have a good time. Hopefully at your place some crazy fun stuff happens and that will make you feel better. Then the next time you are having a bad day you can look at the pictures and brighten your day.
jason - 12/31/07 16:31
I am pretty shocked that "they" would even be willing to release the new version under those circumstances. We would never ever ever do that.
I am pretty shocked that "they" would even be willing to release the new version under those circumstances. We would never ever ever do that.
james - 12/31/07 14:44
Well, happy new year to you. Man that sucks.
Well, happy new year to you. Man that sucks.
12/31/2007 00:51 #42688
The Party And The ServerCategory: stuff
I hope to see everyone at the party tomorrow night. Come by around 10PM @ 24 Linwood for our annual New Years Even Party.
I worked on the new version of estrip a lot today. The flv video uploads now make thumbnails and I wrote a much better video player that lets you forward to any point in the video without having to play the video sequentially.
I worked on the new version of estrip a lot today. The flv video uploads now make thumbnails and I wrote a much better video player that lets you forward to any point in the video without having to play the video sequentially.
Jeff is doing it at The ghetto hospital near my house.
I really can't imagine what you are going through. That diet that you are going to have to do sounds even worse. I wish you the best of luck.
good luck paul... blood tests might add a little to the picture, but what you really need is the scope- that really should give some answers. And they say the prep is the worst part (by far), and most people say even that's more annoying than anything else... Where are you having to done, btw? Is jeff doing it?
I am with Felly. Call those mother fuckers and deliver the stool sample to the top of their desks if need be.
I'm sorry you haven't been well. I hope that someone cancels an apt. or something so you can get in sooner.
its crazy that you haven't been given blood tests... i thought that was one of the first things that they do for illness.
and as for waiting for the gastroenternoligist... i would be calling the doctor's office everyday and asking if there are any cancelled appointments!