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09/14/2007 22:14 #41105

letter to an e-strip buisness owner
Category: scumbags
yeah, so i missed my shift and quit my job after working for you for 3 weeks..... this is what i get for calling to apologize and ask for a second chance???? I was warned that you were a fucking pervert...yet she said "don't worry, you're not his type" well J, looks like he has no type.
"id like to discuss this with you in person,get to know you a little better..... why don't you call me.... I'll pick you up and bring you back to my place.....I'd like to see what you'd be willing to do to get your job back...... i'd just like to know that whatever we work out doesn't get back to the other girls......"

It makes me fucking sick! Old fat mid-life crisis scumbags see a young single mother like me and think we must be hard up for means of survival. And what makes it even worse is that some women are actually willing to succumb to these pathetic antics and thats why sick bastards like you continue to get away with these behaviors.
Look at me..... I'm a pretty girl. If I were the type of girl to suck a dick to keep a job it certainly wouldn't be yours you ugly fuck. Not for a worthless $7 an hour job doing what i did for you!!! No, you wannabe Big Shot. And I feel terribly sorry for any girl who really thinks that little of themselves. I almost feel obligated to expose you to the people of our city and let them know who's pockets they're choosing to put their $$$ in, knowing that I may also be saving the next poor girl who may not have the intelligence and self esteem that I have.
But you sir, are in luck. this is as far as I will go because in my heart i know that my daughter and whatever she needs come 1st.... my pride and my ego will have to take this hit for the team. But I would suggest that you stop being so quick to underestimate those you consider disadvantaged. Dont worry, I wont tell the other girls what happened between you and I.... judging from how casually that shit came out of your mouth I'm sure there are many out there who already know all about you.




IN THE TIMES OF MY DEEPEST TROUBLES, THOSE TIMES THAT i MAY FORGET WHO I AM AND WHAT I AM CAPABLE OF- WHEN CIRCUMSTANCES SEEM TO LEAVE ME ALMOST DESPERATE.....i WILL REMEMBER THAT GOD IS MY PROVIDER, AND MY EXPERIENCE HAS SHOWN ME TIME AND TIME AGAIN THAT IF I KEEP MY HEART OPEN I WILL BE ABLE TO RECEIVE THE GIFTS THAT COME MY WAY. I NEVER GO WITHOUT ANYTHING I NEED, OR SINCERELY ASK FOR. I HAVE BEEN HOMELESS, YET NEVER UNSHELTERED OR UNPROTECTED. I HAVE BEEN BROKE, YET HAVE NEVER GONE HUNGRY OR UNCLOTHED. I HAVE BEEN EVEN MORE THAN I HAVE MENTIONED-AND YET I HAVE MORE THAN I NEED TO BE HAPPY. ANYTHING I NEED FINDS ITS WAY TO ME, $$$ IN MY POCKET OR NOT. SO THIS HERE OBSTACLE.... THIS TOO IS NOTHING THAT A LITTLE FAITH AND PATIENCE CAN'T HANDLE. ( A LITTLE REALLY DOES GO A LONG WAY WHEN YOU LET IT!!! )
LOVE IS THE LAND THAT I STAND ON.THE WIND MAY BE BLOWING SHARP OBJECTS IN ALL DIFFERENT DIRECTIONS- AND I MAY BE CUT UP AND BLEEDING DUE TO THIS STORM BUT YOU BEST BELIEVE THAT AFTER THE ELEMENTS HAVE SUBSIDED I WILL STILL BE STILL BE STANDING HERE!!!! AND SO IT IS!!!!!!
joshua - 09/17/07 13:17
Whoa.

My money is on Pano!
metalpeter - 09/15/07 18:05
First of all to (e:ajay) Recording the conversation would be illegal with out letting the person know. I don't know what caused the missing of a shift and then quiting but I'm sure you had your reasons. Most places once you quit won't let you back. I don't know if this person was sleeping with other girls who worked there or what the sexual dynamic of the place is but that can sometimes be a factor in how people think. I'm not saying what he said was right but there may have been other girls who worked for him who used sex to get keep there jobs or get it back, and they may have been willing and even liked it. The point I'm getting to is it might not be that you are a single mother it might just be cause your a hot lady. I say you are right in not saying his name and the place that he runs or owns. The reason is that if he has a different version of what happened and has someone who can back up his version he could sue you for either liabale or Defermation of character. Besides it is better to leave it behind you. If you go public with it then another employer could go oh it was that girl who talked about a work problem on line and you could kinda get black listed. Besides not saying who it is shows more class anyways.
jbeatty - 09/15/07 14:41
what a cock!
lauren - 09/15/07 13:23
I am sorry that you had to go through this kind of bullshit. It is an unfortunate reality for many women and you are obviously not alone. There is a part of me that wants to know at least what business this is so I can not go there, but I respect you choice to keep it to yourself. There are questions of safety, reputation, etc. that are on the line when it comes to speaking the truth, and this is one more tool that is used to keep women silent. You do not have to put yourself or your daughter at risk, but remember, silence only perpetuates this kind of abuse and there may be women out there who are not as strong as you are.
ajay - 09/15/07 12:52
Record the conversation and expose the prick.

But I do understand your hesitation, Buffalo's such a small town that you could get blackballed....
paul - 09/15/07 12:21
I agree, who the fuck was it. That is so wrong. Where did you work at?
imk2 - 09/15/07 09:42
you should totally expose him.

07/12/2007 15:03 #40081

Dear Sir....
Category: running ppl over
Dear sir,
I know that you will probably never read this, as i realized at the last minute that you are a blind man... but i wanted to apologize for almost running you down on my bike yesterday. i was 100% sober as i was cruising the strip, on my way to start my new job. I yelled "excuse me", and kept cruising... i saw your wife move out of the way and so i thought that you would too. What I should have done was break right then and there instead of assuming that you would be the one to move for me to pass . But I didn't, and by the time i put on my breaks it was too late, my front wheel was between your legs and your butt was up against my handlebars. Had I still been going you surely would've been knocked to the ground. ( I was reminded of the time i was a child, just learning to ride a bike, and i really did run over my friends grandmother. Maybe thats why this is still on my conscience) When you turned around I saw your walking stick and felt like a total asshole. (Even if you hadn't been blind I still would've felt terrible, but this just put the icing on the cake...) I put my hand on your shoulder and I must have apologized 10 times, and you had a smile on your face as you told me, "don't worry, it's ok." I appreciate that smile, because you could've been a huge jerk to me, But it's not ok, and I really am sorry for my lack of consideration.
From this moment on I promise to be more cautious and considerate while riding my bike.
bridgette - 11/18/07 08:36
it was really cool, a few days after I posted this journal I was walking on the sidewalk and a girl passed by me on a bike. She said "excuse me" while she was a ways behind me and i moved over to the side, and as she passed she said with a nice smile on her face "i think we can share". I smiled big too as I said "thank you" with glee.... I couldn't help but wonder if she, too, had read my journal entry. I really liked the idea that my sharing a personally embarrassing moment may have made a difference. Thanks all!!!!
fellyconnelly - 07/12/07 16:36
oh geez, i probably would have cried on his shoes. but then i'm generally quite guilt ridden by nature.

07/10/2007 14:01 #40037

new thoughts on last entry
Category: death row
of course, if this were going to become a reality, the blueprint for this plan would have to be much more thought out than whatever i just came up with a 3 am this morning. The whole DNA testing thing, it completely devastates me when i think about innocent people being put to death (or spending any length of time in jail for that matter). I stand firm on the fact that i don't think we have the right to kill anyone...even if they murdered 100 people. i didn't take the DNA testing into consideration- which makes me feel even stronger about keeping them alive to serve a better purpose. What good is that evidence if theyre already dead??? Using them for testing wouldnt be killing them....but anyway
to (e:Drew)- you may have missed my question about the fear of the death penalty not stopping these people from comitting these acts... or going to jail for life, For many of these people jail is considered a safe haven... whatever. Im just wondering if another alternative might make them think twice about their own life and how theyd like to live it.
Our constitution is constantly being amended to reflect modern times... I think cruel and unusual punishment might make a difference.
Also, the psychological effects: I think it would make people more humanized, compared to the "animal" in the cage.... look at the people who run our systems... you mean to tell me that theyre not already de-SENSITIZED? Have you ever been to jail?I think because we're treating these people so kindly, the people running everything despise them for their acts and no longer see them as human anyway. I could be terribly wrong here, but i think any human with emotion seeing another in a cage like that would actually bring out sympathy.. and compassion maybe even... which is what i think these people need. To just Kill killers and wipe them off the face of the planet..what is that teaching anyone?? I think the families would accept this as the persons punishment, punishment they ASKED FOR by committing horrible crimes that would have left them to be killed ... and would rather have their family members alive than dead because of their terrible mistakes. I don't know exactly what we'd do with these people after their testing period was over, but I havent gotten that far into this here...whatever you want to call it. Theory, hypothesis..whatever.
I think that medical testing on people who have comitted horrendous acts of violence would not only set a precedent in our country,and set an example to many, but it may even give the criminals a newfound respect for their own lives, and their own humanity. Kind of like the SAW movies... in a sick twisted way....people who have taken the miracle of life for granted.. when faced with death what would they willing to give to have their lives back....
it may or may not work, but its something to ponder.
metalpeter - 07/10/07 19:37
That is good in theory but there are some flaws with it. It sounds like something they would do in china or maybe even did do in china at some point. That is what happend in the holocost. Nazi scientists got a lot of good scince results from seeing what happens to the body at extreme cold and hot tempatures. There has been some debate on if what was learned from that tourture should be used or not. Moraly or philospicly speaking it is be a preaty good debate.

There has also been an idea that inmates could be shiped off to war. I don't know if I want my army full of criminals or not but it would count as time served and when their tour of duty was over then if they are still alive then they can go free.

The problem with both those plans is that they have to be voulentery. We have these thing called rights in this country. Being forced to fight in a war or being a lab rat would be cruel and unusal punishment.

If this where to be inacted you would have to have so much oversite. I can see now how abused this system would could be. Lets say someone was in a case where the death penaltiy was voted yes on. I can see lawlers making a deal like this "Johny" "My name isn't John it is Jaun" "Oh ok Jaun I'm sorry if you get convicted you will be killed with an injection but the prosecuter has said that if you pled guilty you will only have to go through 2 years of medical testing" "Can you get me off" "no there is to much evidance, I can try to appeal but You will be exacuted and this will drag on for years" "ok sign me up". I can smell the coruption. I can see the medical industry getting envovled. That is why if this where to take place there would have to be a lot of oversite and people watching to make sure that peoples rights wheren't taken away.

One of the problems is that most people who get the death penalty and the same ones who wind up in jail, minorties and the poor. I'm not saying that criminals don't commit crimes. But if you are a minority or poor or worst yet poor the system is stacked and you don't have much of a chance. That is one of the reasons I'm not for the death penality. But those same circumstances would be a part of this new system. Yes we do have a better justice system then a lot of countries. But I don't think that we can have a system like what you are suggesting until it is a fair and balanced system.

I don't believe in the death Penality for one other reason. And that reason makes me to want this idea of yours to work and if it was done right it could work. If one belives that killing is wrong then killing a killer is just as wrong. Moraly if I killed your brother then you have the right to kill me, or someone else in my family? No and if you did then that would mean that in retalltion for my death then my family would have the right to kill someone in your family and it would never end. So if killing someone is a crime then when someone is hung then all those guys in masks should be hung then the people who hung the hangers should be hung, since killing is punishable by death.
jenks - 07/10/07 19:10
1: I absolutely think people who are executed or die in jail should be organ donors. There are not nearly enough. Frankly, I think you should BY DEFAULT be an organ donor, unless you go through the effort of filling out a form at the DMV NOT to be- rather than the other way around. If not, I think you should be FORCED to fill out an organ donor card (i mean think about it and fill it out, whether you decide yes or no- not just 'take it home to think about it') when you get your driver's license, AND you should be forced to do a living will/ health care proxy. Everyone says "but young healthy people don't need living wills"- WRONG- they are exactly the people that do. Because god forbid they can't make their own decisions- we need to know what they want done.

2: I'm with you that jail/punishment is not severe enough. I'm sick of hearing people bitch about the 'poor living conditions' in jail. Ummm- it's JAIL. You're not supposed to ENJOY it. People murder each other, and get sentenced to live, but end up serving like 6 months in a minimum security place. I say let the pot-smokers out, and keep the 'real' bad guys in longer.
imk2 - 07/10/07 17:44
seriously mike?? that is so f-ing cool! why didnt you ever tell us that before????? that is perfect party mingling convo.
mrmike - 07/10/07 17:06
Yeah, it was interesting. When he took on more clients, Tom Brokaw called my apartment looking for him.
bridgette - 07/10/07 15:11
HELL YES!!!! HOW AWESOME IS THAT!?!?!?! Screw you guys...DR. Kevorkian would agree with me!!! (lol j/k bout the screw you guys thing.... but that got me pumped!)
mrmike - 07/10/07 14:33
I worked on a book with Dr. Kevorkian a bunch of years ago. He was advocating that very policy, he wanted a formal program of organ donation for death row immates.

Made an awful lot of sense

07/10/2007 04:16 #40032

the things that inspire us at 3am
Category: death row
Why are we wasting valuble bodies of people on death row when we could be donating them to science and using them as test subjects instead of rats and other animals??? Aside from the animal rights point of views... i hold those, too, don't get me wrong.. but seriously...we spend all this $$$ housing people in jails until they're put to death, all the while knowing that we're just going to kill them. Just like we spend all this $$$ on testing animals that have resemblances to the human make up, and re testing and testing some more... why do that when we could just test actual human beings? If the idea of being put to death does nothing to stop a person from comitting a serious crime, would the idea of being treated like an animal? A real animal... not in a jail where criminals get to sleep on beds and eat real food and change their underwear... I mean throw them naked into a cage full of that rat bedding shit and feed them dogfood... yeah it might sound inhumane but theyre serious criminals...who would have otherwise been put to death. Their lives would be spared (minus whatever effects the tests have), stop the "eye for an eye" mentality and the controversy surrounding that notion...(we don't have a right to put someone to death even though they killed someone else) .... and use their already wasted lives to eventually save thousands of others who may actually do something positive for this planet. Let them die with some kind of real dignity while saving taxpayers a little bit of cash, or putting that $$ to better use. People make their own choices, and if you choose to live like an animal despite your humanity then thats obviously what you want so why the hell not?? Im sure that there are people out there that have already thought this through, but i've never heard this theory so I think im an absolute genious because it just sounds so damn practical!!! Too practical for people in power to come up with on their own. To whomever thought about this shit first... IM WITH YA ALL THE WAY!!!!! SAVE ANIMALS, SAVE LIVES, SAVE $$$$. seriously... its a win win situation!!!!

joshua - 07/10/07 13:49
Uh - no. (e:paul) that sort of language is fear mongering meant to cause paranoia in people that are otherwise completely law abiding citizens. Its irresponsible to suggest to somebody that they could be put on a death row list arbitrarily, or that the rules are arbitrarily set. That is like saying that all laws and societal norms are arbitrarily set, which would also be untrue. You don't like the death penalty - I think it can be left simply at that.

Where I do agree with you is that the law enforcement system is not perfect. If a state enacts a death penalty law, I think its fair to ask for a very high standard to ensure that innocent people aren't killed. 30 years ago this was impossible, which is why I support organizations and individuals that work to use DNA evidence to clear death row inmates, or other inmates that are proved to have been innocent using modern day technology. I don't think there ever is or ever will be a "perfect" legal system, but at least some of us are working towards helping those people wrongly accused of crimes to become free. I think thats one of the noblest endeavors a lawyer can pursue.

Anyway, all of this is not related to the question Bridgette is asking. Constitutionally this would be impossible, let alone the moral arguments that come from such an idea.
paul - 07/10/07 10:08
Wow, there are a lot of moral problems with this but there are some practical one to.

First of all, the rules by which we determine people are to be murdered on death row are arbitrary. Meaning that at any point they could change, meaning that you could be on that list. I mean it is on a state by state, case by case basis.

And more importantly, and as (e:drew) already mentioned, the justice system is far from perfect, they make many mistakes. It is not unheard of for people on death row to be found not guilty, even after they are put to death.
drew - 07/10/07 09:19
Sure it works, EXCEPT:

1. DNA testing has shown a lot of people on death row to be innocent. Not most of them, mind you, but do we really want to do this to a person that might, in fact, be innocent?

2. Our constitution forbids cruel and unusual punishment.

3. This would mess psychologically with EVERYONE involved--not just the one who is going to die. His or her family, the testers, the guards, even the people that benefit from this "research," will be de-humanized in the project.

I'm sorry. This is a really bad plan.
zobar - 07/10/07 08:28
Damn that Nuremberg Code, for hindering medical progress!

- Z

07/05/2007 22:32 #39933

spongebong hemppants
Category: stoner cartoons
hey all... this is pretty silly......