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07/24/2007 15:09 #40237

always tired
Ok why am I ALWAYS tired.

I just put my head down on my desk for about a minute and dozed off. What? It's 2:30!

Oy. My shoes are too big. I'm not sure what to do about this. I know there are inserts you can get to make them fit more snugly but I'm not sure where to get them. I used to use them when on wardrobe crew at the park, but they were always provided for us.

I've been typing the same document for almost 2 hours. Looong explanation short: Once in awhile we get a document that requests that we admit certain things about certain documents, and we have to respond. We have to retype each request for admission which is 1 long sentance, and then leave a space for a response. There are 270 requests in this document. I started yesterday off and on, and have been doing a couple here and there all day, I'm only up to 206.

So I went to school and got my degree in Theatre. Now I'm a legal secretary...yes the correlation is apparent to me as well...? I feel like I should be disappointed or like saddened by the fact that I'm not working in my chosen area of study; but the truth is i'm not at all. I'm totally fine with it. I have no interest in or desire to be out there stage managing. Like absolutely none at all. I still love theatre and I love seeing plays and reading them but I just don't want to stage manage right now. It's too much stress and pressure and even though I'm good at it I have no desire to do it. Probably in a couple of years I'll be interested...probably. There's always the possibility of grad school in the distant future... eh, maybe.

whooopeeee!!
lizabeth - 07/24/07 16:10
You know, you're not the only theatre person I know who is doing something completely different and not regretting it. A friend of mine got her theatre degree, did stage managing for a few years, got really sick of it, and now does event planning and managing for a catering company. She still loves theatre, too, but she's perfectly happy doing something else for a job.
mk - 07/24/07 15:52
there's nothing like the classic fall asleep at your desk in the early afternoon. you just ate some lunch (maybe delicious kettle corn), it's probably a nice temperature in your office, you're probably in a cushy chair...oh yeah. it's nap time. feel no shame.

07/22/2007 00:13 #40202

agknarn harry potter
if you're one of those LAME-Os who don't read harry potter...i feel bad for you.

thats all i'm gonna say cuz i can't give anything away or at least (e:mk) will kill me.

book 7. 14 hours straight (almost).
imk2 - 07/23/07 07:36
what's the difference between the british and american version?
jenks - 07/22/07 17:33
that was my thought at first too lilho "ah, they're just stupid magic kid books" until a my-age friend of mine said 'i dunno, they're pretty good' and I tried the first one- and I was hooked. just picked up #7 (I know I know, 24hr late!) and am looking forward to spending the afternoon in the hammock reading. But first I need a refresher since I already forgot what happened in #6.
lilho - 07/22/07 11:51
wow. thanx. i guess im super lame. i never got into that wizard shit, and i doubt i ever will. you will be offended probably, but it just kind of bores me.
ladycroft - 07/22/07 05:42
haha! at first i thought you said 'if you're one of those lamos that reads harry potter'...i was gonna pull my wand on you ;) it was released here in doha as well, but i want the US edition so i'm waiting for a care package. they only have the British version here.

07/17/2007 07:56 #40143

workload
effective yesterday at work (my 6th day there btw) we were reassigned to different attorneys.

the attorney i used to work for is a really nice guy who has a very heavy case load. he works a lot with another attorney who also has a very heavy caseload. Mary, another secretary now has both of them. I have an attorney who is also a really nice guy who works for LFP, Inc. aka Larry Flynt's company. he gets Hustler sent to him every month, awesome. he reviews a lot of other people's work and doesn't generate a whole lot of his own.

anyway, yesterday Bill, the new attorney, gave me 1 thing to do that took, no lie, 2 minutes to do. i spent the rest of the day cleaning and helping Mary who was running around like a chicken with her head cut off. eventually i get a new attorney they haven't hired yet, but i have no idea when that will be. so work shouldn't be too stressful for at least the next few days.

woohooo.



metalpeter - 07/17/07 17:35
I admit I haven't seen one of that brands mags in a few years, it used to be very good. But I do have a question if you know it. There is a brand of Snowboards and clothing called Hustler is that owned by the Magazine or is it a different company?
mike - 07/17/07 08:16
awesome! do you think you will get to go to fancy hollywood parties with Larry Flynt?

07/10/2007 21:50 #40043

howdy
Two days down at the new job. So far so good. The attorney I work for is really nice and really patient. He's really understanding about the fact that I'm a little lost and overwhelmed, and he's very willing to help me out when I don't understand something. Let's see how long this lasts, haha. I actually work for 2 attorneys but one of them is leaving the firm on Friday...was it something I said?

yep. thats about all that's new. Europe was awesome. Milan is kind of gross and covered in graffiti but it was neat to go, I don't plan to go back. Madrid I would definitely go back to, it was cool. We didn't get to go out at all, so sometime I want to go with friends so we can go out on the town on a saturday night or something. It would be a great city to go to as a couple.


i love the show Whose Wedding is it Anyway. It makes me want to get married. Not that I didn't want to get married before, but it makes me want to plan a wedding and try on wedding dresses and pick out flowers and stuff. It looks like fun even though I'm sure it would be wicked stressful if you were actually the one getting married.

i can't get over how much this bride's dress and veil do not go together. i can't describe it, but its a hot mess.


06/25/2007 07:46 #39802

this is kind of a "down on myself" entry
So i have to work 7am-3pm every day this week. except friday, when (hopefully) I'll be on a European adventure with my mom and (e:mk).

this leads to a problem for me.

Wednesday night I want to go out...there's this guy I'm interested in and I know where he'll be on Wednesday night, and its in a place that it would be totally normal for me to be there as well. Therefore, I of course plan to be there. Problem: It's like 10 miles away. I have to be up by like 6:30 the next morning. ouch.

The whole process/bullshit of being interested in someone sucks. I have no reason to think he might be interested in me. He's a really nice guy, he's cute, now granted he's a republican (I'm not and yes this does bother me a little because he's super politically conservative) and he's not a guy that I went to college with.

Wouldn't the world be a better place if there was no bullshit? You could just say "Hey! You're cute, funny, smart, single and straight. Hey! I'm all those things too. Let's see where this goes" and if they weren't interested they would say so, no one's feelings would be hurt, and we'd all move on with our lives.

Alas, this is not how we function as a society. Therefore I will be forced to conveniently show up a few places, find random (and few) reasons to send him a message on facebook or post on his wall, occasionally bring up his name in conversations with people who know him better than I do, and basically suffer through that irritating feeling I get in my stomach when I like someone but know nothing will come of it. Becuase, let's face it, it never does.

I have his phone number but only because of facebook events he's invited me to. I don't know if he has mine, we've never officially exchanged them. This is annoying. What I need is more confidence.

Therefore, I constantly psych myself out and convince myself that there's no way any guy could or would like me, especially this guy. I don't think any ever has, other than the couple that I've dated. I just don't think I'm the kind of girl that guys like. What does that mean I think guys like? Couldn't really tell ya, but basically not me. Then what's even worse, if a guy does like me, I'm afraid that once they get to know me better they'll be like "oh man I can do better than this" or that they only like me because they're desperate and have lowered their standards.

If I read these words written by a friend of mine, I'd punch them in the face. But please don't punch me in the face, I've felt this way about myself for....my entire life.

In like every other aspect of my life I'm probably too confident, so I dump all my insecurity in this part of my world.
museumchick - 06/26/07 02:09
I definitely understand about self-doubt and feeling insecure about dating; and like you, I would probably get upset at my friends for feeling that way about themselves. But it would seem to me that many guys would like you and find you appealing. I guess many men often have a lack of confidence; which can be percieved by a girl as being disinterest.
vycious - 06/25/07 22:34
confidence is a must, and i might add- check your insecurities at the door if things start to develop. if there is anything i have learned in the past month, its that love is not for the cowardly or anxietal.
metalpeter - 06/25/07 18:51
What you are saying about how you feal about your self, I admit I often feel that way to and a lot of people have self doubt. I beleive it was Groucho Marks who said "I don't want to be in any club that will have me". Basicly he was saying that he wasn't good enough to be in a special group so any place that had low enough standerds for him to be in wasn't good enough for him"

I say you can maybe solve both your problems. I know it is hard but suck it up and go right up to him and say basicly what you said here about it is to bad that as a society as men and women we have to play those games and do the dance. Now if you get a response that says anything about it being bs or anything. Then you make your move and say something like here is what I wanted to say to you and say what you said. The reason the games work is because both sides decide to play them and do them even thought they don't like them. Hey who knows maybe if you play your cards right you won't have to wake up early cause you will still be up. Ah what ever happens I wish you the best of luck.
jason - 06/25/07 08:59
Anne, the good news is that you're not alone. Most of us think like that at some point.
mk - 06/25/07 08:40
don't worry, i'm going to punch you in the face when you get home. :)

i'm not going to give you some deep meaningful advice because i talk to you like 9 hours a day and that would be stupid. but i'm telling you, our signal at bars is clearly the way to go. clears up a lot of questions and is straight to the point. don't forget to stick out your lips too. that's clearly the sexiest pose ever.