I was in this place last night until 3am and I pretty much felt as if I was sleepwalking. When I was driving home I was shocked awake when two whitetailed deer were running across River Rd as I was driving home. In being my almost sleepwalking state I had someone else check my car to see if I actually did hit something or not. Apparently I did not, thankfully. It's just that in that state of mind I just wasn't sure if it was real or not.

On a ligher not of being off mentally, I'm humming/singing "Stars are Blind" as we scan the Fox News Channel at the moment with Paris being the only topic @ the moment.

What blew my mind away is they have Ann Coulter on discussing Paris? Let's have an attractive, skinny blonde with an attitude give her $.02 on the current attractive, skinny blonde with even more Money, but not as much iintelligence that is in trouble. I just think it's a bit out of the ordinary, unless Paris is somehow related to the Democratic Party.

I must say I did enjoy the sitting on the porch on a perfect night to do so. Being dry for the time being did give me an interesting perspective on how (e:strip) parties take off in certian directions.

This culminated in my friend Billy-B getting thrown into a frantic state from (e:lilho) !!! Basically this ended up in me taking us out by the Airport if you know what I mean :wink, wink:

So in all, what I can say is (e:lilho) you looked hot and really made a powerful impression on my friend for his first (e:strip) party!!!


So now I just sit here at work getting ready to start. Not that I really care anymore since my days are numbered. It is just that after being in Vegas and seeing how the lower end operators on the strip function and then coming back to this Shithole there just is no comparison. F this place.

I have been out here a week and to be honest I wish I could stay out here longer. This is the first time where I may have to leave something to stay here, Ha Ha.

The best part is I had to stay sober for the entire time out here and I still had a blast. The highlight of the trip was hanging out with my friend Chad from LJ. You just love the way the internet brings people together in very strange ways.

Now I have to pack and try to squeeze some fun in the next few hours before I head back to B-lo.

Oh, the mystery "guest" that sent me the message when I was leaving the Palms after a not so good session brought me a smile.

I saw this when I was running into my local Rite Aide to pick up a script.




The funny part is that the hitching Post in the middle of the pic is an actual hitching post! I asked my Dad when I was a kid what and why there were there. Now I actually saw it being used not for a stupid decoration, but for a practical purpose for not just one but two horses.

On another note I can't believe that in 30 some hours I'll be out of here. The thing that is ghoing to really stink is that due to the meds I'm taking I can't drink for most of the time I'm going to be on vac. I guess I should take it as a sign of synchronicistic good luck and roll with it. It will be the first time that I have been in that town since the age of 17 and not lit up a marb red or drank something. I just need to hurry up and try to pack, ARGGG!

I've been away for a while and to be honest I don't know how I would get 30,000+ views on here when I wasn't posting.

It's just that I have been sorting out what to do with my life lately. The topics of dicision range from 1. Shoud I quit my Job ? Mind you without having a place to land immediately afterward. Given this is almost suicidal since I've known people in this area that have done that and were sitting out in the cold for 6 month until they found another place to work. Then again that just could be a sign of WNY. I really don't want to whine and cry about the particulars but I just can't stand to work with the people any longer. Yes, a lot is going to change but I just can't stomach the individuals any longer and that is basically it.

In another thought I am starting to think I may be Fucked when it comes to "dating." I have to give kudos to (e:Carolinian) to his recent sucess. You still have the desire to go out there and try and make a go of it. For me I'm just like "Um..Ehh???" Basically when it comes down to it the way I'm wired sets me up for failure. If I elaborated it would be a long post and would basically frighten off any female that would read it. All I can say is that I know for a fact now that the people that drive me to show an effort in the end just are not what I want deep down inside. The people that fit my ideal just end up never getting anywhere near me by design or circumstance.

I've justified it to findout other qualities in a person and such, but in the end there are just certian laws of attraction that need to be there with relationshps and if they're not meet then you're just kidding yourself.

I'm going on a trip this week with an Ex. Basically I said you can come along if you just buy your own airfare and I'll take care of the rest. She took me up and her Mom is driving us to the airport. All I know is that deep down inside I'm taking her along as a nice thing to do since she has had a real tough time of thing lately.

When I get back I don't know what I"m going to do with my life. The thought of being free for the summer is quite appealing. Going down to D.C. and hanging out there or tagging along with my Mom to Poland sounds like even a better idea.

For the pics, I ended up going out Friday Night to Broadway Joes to see my boys play. What I noticed was someone reopened the old Mickey Rats. I suppose enough years has passed for a bar to open again on that premisis. It still has that scary feel to it as I walked by with the ghosts of White Baseball cap wearing dude past sizing me up. Missing was the trashy underage girls.