I just set my post its to go to my phone. how exciting... i feel as though somewhere along the line i have jumped into the age of technology.

So I am presently working a ten hour day in one of my stores. It is a slow store, so i usually spend the day bored/playing online. today i watched a movie online - Another Gay Movie which is a spoof on all the gay movies that are out there.

Wow there is a lot of gay sex in that movie.

So the funny thing is that here I am, watching gay sex movies at work.... and if my boss was here , he probably would just laugh at me.

The funny thing is that the owner of this company has another business. he runs this website: www.shevibe.com with his wife. so when i work in the poughkeepsie location, there is constantly shipments being delivered for his website.... and so when the owner (thor) calls me back and says 'hey your order is in' and then he waves a giant black dildo at me, i think to myself... wow... this is the greatest job ever...

if i were just reading this, i would probably be completely skeeved out by the idea of a boss waving a giant rubber dildo at their employees... but somehow here it just is hilariously the way it is...

anyway... i just thought there should be some type of indication of the fun environment in which i work..

I'm not used to working Mondays. One of my employees quit this weekend, bringing my hours up but totally screwing my schedule. Wednesday I work a ten hour shift and now Thursday will be at least 11.5 hours.

We have managed to schedule a date for our next visit to Buffalo. June 18th-20th. Basically will involve waking up at the ass crack of dawn and driving for 6 hours, then Job Hunting/Apartment hunting for both the rest of Monday, as well as all day Tuesday. We will be camping too.

Yesterday I also managed to schedule in the following events.
June 1 - Art Show in Utica
June 9 - Nick's Body Building competition in Poughkeepsie
June 18-20 - Buffalo
June 22 - Concert in NYC
June 28/29 - move out (TO WHERE???)
June 30-July 1 - Campout going away party @ Kim & Jean's
July 7-8 - "the Felly & Lauren are gone!" party @ 66 south
July 22-25 - Family 'get together' @ Bear Mountain State Park.


I also got completely overwhelmed by all that is to happen and how the hell to do it all.

I realized that we have no place to store our crap for the entire month of July (if we don't get an apartment right away July 1)

I realized that I may not be able to work in July if I have already given then a July 1 leaving date.

All this and Mel decided to spend a good hour asking me why I am wasting my time selling cell phones when I am such a talented videographer. All the reasons that I managed to give to her all ended up being a steaming pile of bullshit. What it all comes down to is basically a lack of confidence. Sometimes I know i'm an awesome videographer. I can't even watch a movie without picking it apart. Then when it comes down to actually trying to prove that, I just get afraid of putting myself out there. And then I say.... All I need is ten G's and i'd be fine... I would start my own business!
blah blah blah its all bullshit.

Really though. Lauren is going to be gone for the evening so I'll spend the night painting some delicious works of art for Jess. And avoid the thought of taking control of my life yet again!

We bought a tent.

which basically means that no matter what happens, we will never be completly homeless...

maybe that is a rather bleak way of looking at the future. But seriously, it will work out wonderfully in our travels to Buf to check out apartments. We can just camp there and make it a fun little getaway. But the screwed up part is that I have a crapload of relatives in the youngstown/lockport/wilson/ransomville area up north of Buffalo. Brothers, grandparents and aunts and uncles. But really the only place that we could really stay would be my grandparents house due to circumstance.

I love my grandparents. Really I do, but with my grandpap's recent decline and the stagnant emptiness/loneliness of that house when nobody else is there... well i just don't like staying there.

And I count myself so lucky, because my gripe with not wanting to stay there has nothing to do with the fact that I am in a lesbian relationship and would be bringing my girlfriend with me. The last time we were there, they absolutely loved lauren. I am so very lucky for such a wonderful and loving family.

Alas. I love tenting. And so it shall be.

okay so i'm trying to upload photos and it is telling me that adobe flash player is having a script error or something that is causing my computer to run slowly. then the photos that i upload have little x's on them of the red variety and so theydo not upload. are the two related?

my original post spoke of bubble tea.... here is the post without photos.

[box]I first heard of Bubble tea on here, but I was new to the estrip community so I did not voice my confusion. (what the hell is bubble tea? Bubble gum flavored tea?)
Then yesterday Wazina invited me to the City with her and Steve to have Bubble tea and do some shopping. (actually they didn't tell me they were shopping, they said 'walking around')

2 story morals here.
1. bubble tea is weird but good.
2. never shop with wazina and steven.[/box]

also saw 28 weeks later last night... not all that great...

it was as if the cameraperson was having an epilectic fit. i mean, the first one had just the right amount of fast camera pan/tilt/zoom/etcs to give you glimpses of what was going on... but this one - it was just too much... i felt cheated i guess... but then that is my videography training perhaps... i often feel cheated when watching movies...

also saw shrek 3 online.. (hehehe) and though the quality was poor, i enjoyed it immensely!
okay time for groceries.

Today I took a look at this schedule that Jeff, the other manager, made up. somehow my hours have dropped down to 30 hours and his has risen to 40. this is all, of course, due to the fact that Anthony recently tried to quit for a better cell phone company with more hours/pay/etc... he was kept and given a full 40 hour work schedule and raise and whatnot. well this is bullshit because now i'm getting hosed out of a good ten hours.
my girlfriend told me that i have to calm down. i'm calm.

anyway, it just sucks and it really makes me consider this job and these people who i work for to be a lot less grand than it used to be. not that it was ever 'grand' but now i see them as a hell of a lot more shady.

good thing i have tomorrow off. Nelson asked me to work for him tomorrow and i told him ihad things to do.

i'm sad that i'm missing yard sales. i need stuff. cheap stuff, apparently, since i'm losing money.

also - i was just doing some family genealogy research and just found my grandfather in a 1920 census. he was a fireman. he lists his parents as being born in 'england'.

England?? what happened to Ireland?? I THought I was IRISH! somehow i definetely just switched heritages... how odd. not that i embraced the irish part of me much more than drinking heavily.

i need to make a visit to buffalo soon and do some job hunting.