'alo peeps i have been on hiatus. actually just moved and my comp is not cooperating with my roomates modem. so i am using her comp. it 's a really personal thing, a computer. no it is. anyways. i now live a block from the ocean and it is grand. thank you for the bday wishes LC and Jenks. I always look forward to a random text from ladycroft. it can make an evening. well hopefuly soon i will have my machine up and running and then i will again participate in this awesome community. i hope all is well with everyone. and what is this job you got LC? gnite all

hi ya'll. i heard its kinda lousy up there. its cold here too, but no snow. last weekend was the polar bear swim on superbowl sunday. let me tell you, that was one sight to behold. i was going to do it, but the 4 degree windchill changed my mind. AND my camera went dead so i don't have any pictures. well i hope everyone stays warm and safe. im off to bed...in my flannel sheets. yeah nice...sexy time. haha. not really..its by myself. take care all

because you're you,
she said standing there, shivering in the cold
arms around him.
such a mess, such a mess
everything they spoke of, discussed,
hashed out, hammered out
thrown away.
because you're you, i can't help it she says.
why can't she?
he walks the other way, painfully, slowly,
still believing, yet still walking.
they wake in the morning, cold air leaking
through the window sills, chilling a foot,
a shoulder left uncovered by the blankets
one eye, then the other opened, looking back at him.
this is what he is holding out for,
the forever in this.
laughing, they stroke each others skin,
soft, pale from winters darknesss.
her back, alabaster, with golden brown flecks , worthy
of cathedrals, beautiful,
they talk about nothing, plans for the day, going
to the ocean, laying wrapped round each other
for fear of falling into the abyss.
his face burried in her shoulder,
hands clutching in the warmth of her legs,
the smell of skin and sleep.
the day begs to begin, yet they fight the pullings
of friends, and parties to attend.
standing, backed into him, looking back for a kiss.
and then on their seperate ways.

went to see the movie the painted veil tonite with edward norton and naomi watts. loved it. it was a great movie. story was a good one, kind of predicatble, but the shots were beautiful. there is this small theatre in malverne, two towns over, and it was funny because it was an older crowd that was at the theatre. i was actually on a date, kind of second one, and we were the only two in the theatre for our movie. it was kind of funny. for those who don't know anything about the movie, its about a dr. and his wife and how they take care of a village during a cholera epidimc in 1925 china, and how t affects their relationship. great great movie. go see it. 2 hours, but they fly by. so yeah the date was cool. first date was drinks and watching a band and then hangin with her cousin and his friends. all very nice people. one is actually a producer for spike tv. very interesting fellow. collects the japanese rabbits that smoke. odd, but really smart. he actually one a cable ace award while working at mtv. pretty cool. plus his house is interesting, what he has in it and how it is decorated. well the girl is 32, ooooh an older woman. ha. a nurse, who can prescribe meds peeps. haha. really though. shes nice, and we had a good time. im not sure that i am really up for anything extremely serious right now. really just finalized all that stuff with kerri. we had a long discussion, and she said there is no option for us working. it hurt, and i don't believe that she does not have feelings for me, but i am tired of her games. fuck it. so now i just move forward. i have to concentrate on work because of the new position, and having fun. i am also moving a few towns over, in with my buddy's brother. i will be in a nice big house, and be able to put money away. a win win situation. then hopefully after a year i will be able to move back down to LB. i mean i will only be 10 min away, instead of the 5, but that really is a big difference after 6 years. yeah so fun, and work, work and fun. and i would like to seriously start applying myself to my writing. a lot of things have become clearer over the past 5-6 months. really. but then again a lot is still cloudy, eh such is life. well thats it right now. not a lot to report, well really yes. im just tired and going to bed.

i obviously made some kind of mistake uploading these photos. any suggestions??