i thank you all for the support and cute messages, but it just makes me want to move home even more....like all i have to do is get on a plane, and walk into roswell and be happy forever.
I am kinda on the fence about it...i mean, if i moved home and got a job, i would be making about $15,000 less than if I stayed here for one more year....and i would walk away with a masters.
but on the flip side, i am so sad and depressed here. i hate it here. i am not happy. i want to be home so badly....and it makes it worse knowing that i could have a great job there.
well. i applied. i sent my resume in. i guess if it is meant for me to work with breast cancer patients, then i will at least get an interview. but if not, than maybe its just not meant to be.....maybe that means then, then i am supposed to stay here and carry out my shitty life here in las vegas. depressing thought, but huge possibility.
i mean, what is another year?
well, either way, i have to stay here till my lawsuit is finalized. that could be a few months anyway. we will see.....
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03/16/2007 15:43 #38489
thanks...03/16/2007 00:11 #38479
I.....I miss home. i miss my family. i miss my neighborhood. i miss normalcy. i miss frizb's. i miss my friends. i miss ny in general.
i hate school. i hate las vegas. i hate my life here. i hate my program. i hate that i am wasting so much fucking time in this shitty fucking city. fuck.
i bought 3 shirts today. one of which is this cute hello kitty shirt that is pink and super cute and girly. usually i don't wear hello kitty gear... despite how i am a huge hello kitty fan, but i saw the shirt and it was saying "jess, you can do this one....it's cute!" so i bought it.
my sister is here this week. i feel bad because i am just so under the weather....and the weather here is insane may i add. it's only supposed to be around 70, and it is 90. too hot for me. fuck this shit.
i hate heat.
70 is perfect....springtime like. i think that is the general consesus. comfortable weather is key...
....but back to my sister. i am just kinda bummed about where i am in life right now, and i feel bad because she is here and wants to do all the vegas shit, but i just want to puke every time i see a casino or flashing lights or whores walking down the street. for real.
i hate to complain, i am just really home sick. i miss home. not that home is anything special or great; its just home. it's where ma famille is. j'adore ma famille. i am sick of being so far away from the life where i want to be. it's going on 5 years away from home, and i am just sick of having to make so much hoopla to get there....more so now that i am 3000 miles away than when i was only 400.
i need to find a job as close to home as possible. that is what i need to do. anyone hiring a project coordinator for a public health position? anyone need a epidemiologist? anyone need an environmental health specialist? anything! i will take anything....
actually, there is this job that i really want at roswell park. i hate to tease myself, but it would be a great job for me. i hate looking at that site and seeing jobs that i am qualified for. ugh!!!!!!!!!!
maybe i will just fuck school and fly home and get a job and be happy. yay!
i hate school. i hate las vegas. i hate my life here. i hate my program. i hate that i am wasting so much fucking time in this shitty fucking city. fuck.
i bought 3 shirts today. one of which is this cute hello kitty shirt that is pink and super cute and girly. usually i don't wear hello kitty gear... despite how i am a huge hello kitty fan, but i saw the shirt and it was saying "jess, you can do this one....it's cute!" so i bought it.
my sister is here this week. i feel bad because i am just so under the weather....and the weather here is insane may i add. it's only supposed to be around 70, and it is 90. too hot for me. fuck this shit.
i hate heat.
70 is perfect....springtime like. i think that is the general consesus. comfortable weather is key...
....but back to my sister. i am just kinda bummed about where i am in life right now, and i feel bad because she is here and wants to do all the vegas shit, but i just want to puke every time i see a casino or flashing lights or whores walking down the street. for real.
i hate to complain, i am just really home sick. i miss home. not that home is anything special or great; its just home. it's where ma famille is. j'adore ma famille. i am sick of being so far away from the life where i want to be. it's going on 5 years away from home, and i am just sick of having to make so much hoopla to get there....more so now that i am 3000 miles away than when i was only 400.
i need to find a job as close to home as possible. that is what i need to do. anyone hiring a project coordinator for a public health position? anyone need a epidemiologist? anyone need an environmental health specialist? anything! i will take anything....
actually, there is this job that i really want at roswell park. i hate to tease myself, but it would be a great job for me. i hate looking at that site and seeing jobs that i am qualified for. ugh!!!!!!!!!!
maybe i will just fuck school and fly home and get a job and be happy. yay!
enknot - 03/17/07 17:21
Yeah, we need new gossipers! Our old "the devil" is getting stale... (Yvonne, you know I'm kidding... Telly loves ya baby).
But I have to say, sticking it out in a crumby situation for something that's bigger and better is usually worth it. Still it's not like you don't have options.
If you could get a sweet job here, hang out with us peeps, be close to home, viva con la familia, meet someone nice, start a band, raise a puppy, have a candy apple, win a game of keno...er scrabble, have a fat pile of chicken wings, and finish your degree in any of the the fine educational institutions in western New York all at once why wouldn't you?
I'm not saying you should move. I'm just saying..
Yeah, we need new gossipers! Our old "the devil" is getting stale... (Yvonne, you know I'm kidding... Telly loves ya baby).
But I have to say, sticking it out in a crumby situation for something that's bigger and better is usually worth it. Still it's not like you don't have options.
If you could get a sweet job here, hang out with us peeps, be close to home, viva con la familia, meet someone nice, start a band, raise a puppy, have a candy apple, win a game of keno...er scrabble, have a fat pile of chicken wings, and finish your degree in any of the the fine educational institutions in western New York all at once why wouldn't you?
I'm not saying you should move. I'm just saying..
paul - 03/16/07 09:55
You could join the gossip table for lunch, lol.
You could join the gossip table for lunch, lol.
imk2 - 03/16/07 09:05
actually, we are looking for a project coordinator at roswell.
take a look. :::link:::
actually, we are looking for a project coordinator at roswell.
take a look. :::link:::
chico - 03/16/07 01:00
Hey why not apply for that job at RPCI? From what I hear it's a great place to work. If you can picture yourself working there and being happy, what's the harm in sending in your resume?
Hey why not apply for that job at RPCI? From what I hear it's a great place to work. If you can picture yourself working there and being happy, what's the harm in sending in your resume?
carolinian - 03/16/07 01:00
I can relate. I'm living here in Buffalo for a job, but I miss everyone in North Carolina. I see jobs that I'm technically qualified that sound wonderful, but I know that I'm better off economically here because HR people down there would let me get my foot in the door.
I've heard people native to Buffalo say "People move away from Buffalo to build a career but find they want to move back when they have families." As my life up here is the twisted inverse of the lives of Buffalonians, I'm sure I'll end up doing the exact same thing eventually, just in reverse.
I can relate. I'm living here in Buffalo for a job, but I miss everyone in North Carolina. I see jobs that I'm technically qualified that sound wonderful, but I know that I'm better off economically here because HR people down there would let me get my foot in the door.
I've heard people native to Buffalo say "People move away from Buffalo to build a career but find they want to move back when they have families." As my life up here is the twisted inverse of the lives of Buffalonians, I'm sure I'll end up doing the exact same thing eventually, just in reverse.
03/12/2007 13:32 #38431
all the fun stuff....this weekend was my trip to reno/carson city for the women's grassroots lobby days weekend. it sucked so bad for various reasons, so i left early. i am probably going to get a lot of shit for it, but im sorry, i thought it was going to be informative and insightful....well, i guess it was insightful for the sheer fact that I know realize why this state (Nevada) is so fucked up. I met the women that have power and mold education and healthcare here....they are all old, mean, rich and crabby ladies that are just straight up bitches. Its sickening to me....but everything now makes perfect sense.
i got a personal injury attorney and am now going to PT 3 times a week. It's insane....and scary at the same time. All of this legal stuff really scares me.
My sister comes in tomorrow. i am SO excited!
I love my dogs. really. they are awesome.
i got a personal injury attorney and am now going to PT 3 times a week. It's insane....and scary at the same time. All of this legal stuff really scares me.
My sister comes in tomorrow. i am SO excited!
I love my dogs. really. they are awesome.
03/04/2007 20:32 #38356
back to the ER...well, i went back to the ER today. My hives are out of control. come to find out, I AM ALLERGIC TO THE TATTOO INK. wtf? yea, like 1% of people who get tattoos end up being allergic to the ink used. awesome. but i have finally been prescribed some drugs that should fix it. we will see about this one.
but i get another day of excused work....wonderful drugs that make people way too sleepy to drive or operate anything. i guess i can't complain about that.
this week it's supposed to get up to 80 degrees! i am sooooooooo excited! but it's one more reason to give whores an excuse to wear hoochie skirts and tubtop belly shirts with stripper heals. I guess you take the bad with the good....
i don't know what else to write. i am too drugged to care at the moment. please forgive....
but i get another day of excused work....wonderful drugs that make people way too sleepy to drive or operate anything. i guess i can't complain about that.
this week it's supposed to get up to 80 degrees! i am sooooooooo excited! but it's one more reason to give whores an excuse to wear hoochie skirts and tubtop belly shirts with stripper heals. I guess you take the bad with the good....
i don't know what else to write. i am too drugged to care at the moment. please forgive....
joshua - 03/05/07 17:16
Wow - that is sort of an odd allergy to have. For something like that, do you need to take that medicine forever?
Wow - that is sort of an odd allergy to have. For something like that, do you need to take that medicine forever?
03/01/2007 20:15 #38323
there is no snow in las vegas, but....I still got in a car accident today anyway. Some dude rearended me on my comute to work this morning. I have damage to my car again.... car accident #2 sicne I have moved here. insane.
so i went to work. my head started pounding....then i thought about it, and yes, my head hit the steering wheel when the accident happened. i decided to go to the hospital, and after 5 hours of waiting, find out I have a concussion and whiplash, along with a severe allergic reaction (my hives), a throat infection, and a sinus infection (all of which are unrelated to the accident except for the concussion and whiplash). Man o man. So now my mom is like, "lets sue that fucker!" we will see about that mom....
bad things always happen in three's. this is my third this time around. I had my last "bad things" session when I first moved here: sophia's ear infection and surgery, my first car accident, and my grandmother dying).....This time it's hives, the phone, and car accident #2. how many htings can one person handle without becoming insane?
so i went to work. my head started pounding....then i thought about it, and yes, my head hit the steering wheel when the accident happened. i decided to go to the hospital, and after 5 hours of waiting, find out I have a concussion and whiplash, along with a severe allergic reaction (my hives), a throat infection, and a sinus infection (all of which are unrelated to the accident except for the concussion and whiplash). Man o man. So now my mom is like, "lets sue that fucker!" we will see about that mom....
bad things always happen in three's. this is my third this time around. I had my last "bad things" session when I first moved here: sophia's ear infection and surgery, my first car accident, and my grandmother dying).....This time it's hives, the phone, and car accident #2. how many htings can one person handle without becoming insane?
Sorry you arn't happy in Vegas. I admit this post has me a little bit confussed. I thought that you had plans to get merried and that you finacee lives and works out there. Am I missing something? Reason being is that i would think that, that would be enough to keep you happy. Again if I'm missing something sorry about that.
OHHHH, looks like I'll be interviewing you!!!!!