I'm back to Buffalo. I made it for 15 hours. If I didn't get lost around Chicago again, I could make home for 14 hours.. It's better than 21 hours driving. A lot improved..? Isn't it..? Yeah, I went to Michigan for some reason.. I don't know how it could happen.. I was happy to see my friend Alan back home. He was awake and came out to carry my stuff.. Oh, I love Alan and I miss Robin right now.
Oh well, I need to work right now.. I know that I'm crazy..
But, I need to work for my presentation tomorrow.. I will be okay.
It's good to be home, and it was good to drive.. I thought a lot.. really a lot.

And, thank you for helping me out to find out the direction.
You know who I'm talking about..? ;)

I'm driving back to Buffalo in a couple hours. We had a fun day. My friend showed me his school where he teaches, and little bit about downtown of St.Cloud.
Then, went to Thai restaurant for a dinner and went to shopping mall to check his winter jarket.. Yeah, from what I have heard, it's much colder than Buffalo.
I bet.. Then went to see a movie.. "Ray".. It was good.

I took pictures of this house and him... I'm actually sad right now..
Here is the image that I will remember.

It's the last day of being in Cold Spring. I'm little scared of driving back to Buffalo for a day again. I hope I won't have any problem with my car on the way back. I lost the gas cap when I drove up here, but I got one in an automobile store yesterday. My friend said, "aren't you glad that I remember the gas cap for you?" Yeah, I completely forgot about it at the moment, so it was good that he remembered it while doing errands in St. Cloud.

Since I got here, I've been getting up early. The first day, I got up early, but went back to sleep after my friend left for school. I should take some pictures of landscape around this house. This house is located in front of lake, and there are a lot of vacation empty trailers. My friend said, from early April to September, people come and stay in their trailers for the weekend. But, now everybody is gone. So, he is only one left around this place.

I already went out for a walk with dogs that seems like my new life in Cold Spring. I still don't get what they need or want if they come and lick me. But he knows what they need exactly. But, I'm surprised by myself that I can get along with dogs very well. That's why Dogs' hairs are all over my clothes right now. The white dog's name is Ronin and now he is laying down on my leg and looking at my computer together. It looks like we are in a relationship somehow. ;) I wish my friend took a picture of us right now, but he is still in the bed.

I'm collecting images into my head to remember later. I won't come to visit here anymore. Being in this house will disappear from my sight soon, also he plans on staying this house for one year. I don't think I will visit him in a year again. I think that's why I wanted to come.

Somebody told me that my journals are very whining, so I'm trying not to write my emotion too much here. Hum,, but this is my journals, sometimes I just want to write.. well I know people read everybody's journals, but it doesn't really matter... Right..? I do care, but I don't know what to say.. but you know what I meant..?

Finally, I watched the Sacrifice tonight. Well, I get always feeling melancholy or peculiar emotions, which is hard to explain or describe with right words, after watching Adrei Tarkovsky's film. Also, even I feel like to ask myself; "Hum.. Did I fully get it..?" Or it doesn't really matter to the Directer, probably he wants the audience to feel the complicated human emotions. I don't know.

One more of his film I want to watch that is "Nostalgia" I'm not quite sure that my work is about the nostalgia.. but Tony indicated that I'm probably looking for the feeling nostalgia.. the memory that I was attached or touched... unforgettable, or hold inside forever.. but, I'm not sure what it is yet.

Remembering of things past.. Swann's way.. I'm trying to read this book...
How he remembers his childhood or.. even he remembers the taste of particular food he liked.. Yeah, long way to go figuring my work out.

It's already been 3 days here in Cold Spring. My friend doesn't have a class to teach for today, (yeah, he is an art professor, well, nobody quite understands art people, so I don't understand either me and him) so, we had little time to hang out together. We went to St. Cloud to do some errands. There is a little fancy grocery market, yeah it was just little fancy, which is carpeted on the floor in the grocery market .. well, they have kimchee.. We bought it for Kimchee Kimbob for the dinner. It was good.

Still... sad..