I got a power out again. I don't remember how many times I've gotten it for this year. At least 5 times.. Yeah, the electronic situation in my house is so terrible.
Only one fuse for this house although I got the biggest house in this apartment.

Fortunately, my power book is working, so I can use the Internet in my living room depending on someones wireless network. So, I'm sitting in my arm chair and writing journal plus I'm listening to music as well. Hope, my battery can run for a couple hours.

I'm waiting for my landlord to fix the fuse thingie for my house. I just realized that I need to get some candles. Yeah, I don't have any candles left. So, I'm completely in the dark room only depending on my power book light. I wanted to take a bath. Well, I was just ready to jump into water.., oh well.
Strangely, I'm not really upset about this situation. I guess it is because I can use the Internet and listen to music.

I'm thinking if I were with someone in this situation, what I would do the most..
Hum..? Kiss..?

My childhood in Korea, we had black out sometimes to train emergency, which implied the situation if North Korea invades South Korea. I'm not Korean war generation, so I'm not really aware of how terrible the Korean war was although I have learnt it from School and Media. Anyway, my younger sisters and my peer friends in my childhood were excited of the black out training. Even we didn't know that was for the emergency training. We had no idea. We just went around our neighborhood.. giggling... making friends scared, screaming, finding out which house turned on the light and yelling them to turn off the light. Also, it was so much fun to run into other friends in the dark. Well, I don't think that we have that kind of training anymore. Even I don't remember when it disappeared. Maybe middle 80...

Oh, my landlord came home.. Good. I think it is enough to remember my childhood for today. hu.. ;)

This was the second time to go to Anna's parents house for Thanksgiving day.
I was happy to see Zoe (Anna's little sister) and all people they invited.
Tony Conrad, Steven Eastwood and his little sister from London, Robin and Andy,
Zoe's boyfriend, we had a great thanksgiving dinner all together.

Very relaxing, and fun converstation, drinking wine, making fire, all delicious foods.
So good.. Even I can't describe exactly how wonderful it was.

Polly and Mark, (Anna's parents), Anna, Zoe
Thank you for everything. It was so great.
Thank you so much.

And when I see you, I really see you upside down
But my brain knows better, it picks you up and turns you around
Turns you around, turns you around

If you feel discouraged when there's a lack of color here
Please don't worry lover, it's really bursting at the seams
from absorbing everything the spectrum's A to Z.
(ahh... ahhh...)

This is fact not fiction for the first time in years
All the girls in every girlie magazine can't make me feel any less alone,
I'm reaching for the phone to call at 7:03 and on your machine,
I slur a plea for you to come home.
But I know it's too late, and I should have given you a reason to stay
Given you a reason to stay; given you a reason to stay;
given you a reason to stay

This is fact not fiction for the first time in years...

A Song by Death Cab for Cutie


(A View from My Old Room in Amherst, 2001, SJ)

I usually put my desk near the window where I can look at outside easily.
At home, I'm always in front of my computer, so I need to get feeling refresh looking over from the view of a moment of outside sometimes.
But, here in my current room, my desk is far from the window.
Perhaps, this is the reason I get depressed a lot here.

This song is giving me the bittersweet feelings. Just as how it rings for you.[bgcolor]#ffffff[/bgcolor]

I'm organizing pictures I took in Cold Spring right now and I found out Ronin's picture. He has so much love to show. I can't believe that I miss Ronin.
While I was driving to school for my evening class today, I saw a dog that looks like Ronin on the street. I was almost calling the dog like "Ronin", but it's impossible that he is here in Buffalo. Of course I miss Woosha as well. They gave me so much love while I got cold feelings. So sad, I will be so mad if they can't recognize me someday.



Here, Drchlorine, please, correct your word.. depressing and whining is a different meaning of context.. Don't even talk down people's feelings. If you aren't like that, then... just walk away.. got my point..?

I'm back to Buffalo. I made it for 15 hours. If I didn't get lost around Chicago again, I could make home for 14 hours.. It's better than 21 hours driving. A lot improved..? Isn't it..? Yeah, I went to Michigan for some reason.. I don't know how it could happen.. I was happy to see my friend Alan back home. He was awake and came out to carry my stuff.. Oh, I love Alan and I miss Robin right now.
Oh well, I need to work right now.. I know that I'm crazy..
But, I need to work for my presentation tomorrow.. I will be okay.
It's good to be home, and it was good to drive.. I thought a lot.. really a lot.

And, thank you for helping me out to find out the direction.
You know who I'm talking about..? ;)