Actually, I'm not that comfortable being here (yet?) Although this house looks familiar with me, (well because I have seen a video about the house through online before), but I'm still overwhelmed by cold atmosphere and empty feelings.

That was a crazy idea of driving for 21 hours to come up here. I thought I was gonna give up at some point, and when I felt giving up and going back, I was too far away from Buffalo.
The road seemed to be never ending, I got lost for one hour outside of Chicago, and also I had to drive though very heavy foggy highway for a couple hours. There are a lot of scary stories on my this long road trip. Actually I was almost crying and was asking myself "why I'm doing this" Only what I was hoping while driving up here that was "please, oh God, make this trip end up for me right away"

I'm finally in the place called Cold Spring in Minnesota. I came up here to chill out for myself and to see my friend, and now I'm alone with 2 dogs. Yeah, my friend went to work. I slept until 1 pm. Well, there is one hour time difference from Buffalo. Hum, maybe, I'm in jet lag right now. One hour jet lag.

I'm very hungry, so I might go out for some food by myself soon.
The dogs love me so much,. They are huge, one of them seems bigger than me,, but licking me everywhere.. and they are sleeping on my legs and I'm depending on the dogs' body to write my journal right now... funny.

I just got here about 30 min ago.. I swear the god.. I will never do again.. ever...

I left Buffalo about 3 hours ago, which was around 7 AM in the morning.
While I was getting ready to leave Buffalo, I was thinking.. oh no.. This is the time I usually go to bed. But, I got up. I think I was very tired last night.. Couldn't get enough sleep.. and ran around to get work done all day long.

I'm in Starbucks having some bread and coffee around Cleveland. My back was so hurt while driving. I think I should take a break here for one hour.. I hadn't done road trips for a long time. So, it's been kind of okay so far. I will see how exhaust I can be later.

For this trip, I had to change all my tires yesterday. Well, one of them was good shape, but Walmart didn't put the right tire in January, so they gave me one as free. It wasn't that expensive.. Since I'm driving so long time, I had to do that.

I think I like here. It seems little urbanized than Buffalo. Yeah, I like urban style. But, it doesn't mean that I don't like Buffalo. Buffalo is okay. Too much snow, that's the problem.. but.. I like my friends in Buffalo.

I have my video camera with me.. so, I can probably take pictures on this trip.. Oh, my video camera has the function of digital camera as well, just it looks really bigger than normal digital camera. Oh well.

Okay, I gotta look at my map again.. make sure one more time.
Oh.. AAA is so cool.. they gave me a very nice map and highlighted on the map where I have to take.. That was so cool.

Robin: "I gotta take care of my new VHS, I'm not a halloween thief"


Alan: "I'm the blue man.. spooky enough?"


Anna: "I'm already tired of wearing those high-hills"


Aaron: "Matthew Barney? no way, I'm the new cremaster"


Julie and Soyeon: "what's up..? Witch?", "hey.. pinky.. look at here?"


Alan and Soyeon: "hey.. halloween is here! come on in"


Steve and SeonHyung: "see? the happiness is here, come on in"

I got really offended by someone telling me that I'm hyper..
This person must not know that I'm very sensitive as well, which means he doesn't know me enough.. Well, I know what he was just saying that was not to try to offend me, anything on purpose...... I know.. why do I care then..? I don't know..
I think I have some psychological unstableness...... I'm scared....

After Paul, Terry, Matthew left, we had crazy moments for a while..
I got crazy to make everybody's hairstyle with Julie's punky hair stuff..
I made Paul Vanouse, Steve Kurtz and Tony Conrad's hair style like party ladies..
All of us got crazy.. dance.. loud music.. birthday tunnel,,, taping all those crazy moments.. I really had fun.... but soon... I got feeling meaningless again..

Nothingness... meaninglessness.... what is all about..? it doesn't' make me feel full enough.... Rather it gave me bitter smile... hollow feelings..

So, I had to take off there soon...