I found an old friend and sent him a message telling him
dear Scott,
> I am working on becoming obesity, i will get there eventually
> but in the mean time i feel comfortable taking about it, What
> do you wanna know?

he just wrote back and sent this link



So now I'm thinking, how nice. I have some video footage of Scott in a death/skeleton costume somewhere.(this is how I know he's real) His mask was good because the jaw moved on it. I think, Andy has some footage of me in Scott's mask with a pink wig on saying "you guys all want to do me now"
which could prove that I like to be an outsider because I say y'all here in the north. The situation could have been gendered, perhaps I was the only woman in the room so saying you guys made sense.
back to Scott, I was just looking for a jpg of my favorite painting. I found it
but then looking at his other stills I noticed that my taste in painting is... I noticed that my favorite wasn't the most popular. I like that, yeah.
I like his map from memory(it seems popular). I remember at that opening, my friend Luba was giving him a hard time because he forgot her native country, Bulgaria.
the wolf is just silly, I have to like that.

I have to think of a response message to Scott. I think I'll tell him that extreme obesity is a fantasy for me because then I would not be able to mess up the place so much if I didn't ever get off the couch. That seems logical.

sweet iced tea, I'm on a kick. I've been making it everyday despite the sink full of dishes. I fucked up my sleeping schedule this week so I have to fix it someday. I'm still trying to figure out this Germany stuff. I have two papers to write but I'd rather make a video. I was up this morning looking up books at the UB library but I slept instead of actually going to the library. I'll make it there tomorrow perhaps.
Lewis Hine is one of my current interest. He used to take pictures of the child labor going on in the textile mills in the early 1900's. My own granny was working in one of those places when she was a young'un so that's where my interest stems from.

I remember I was nervous waiting to go out into the big public bathtub. I was in a women's bathroom with wood paneling. There were other women/girls in there waiting. I don't think my mom was in there. I may have brought a change of clothes with me maybe in a plastic bag. We were in the fellowship hall behind the church. I stepped out of a little side door to go in front of an audience of church members and the preacher said some stuff then he ducked me under water. It was a little scary.. He could have drowned me right there in front of everyone. Well, maybe somebody would have stopped him. My shirt stuck to my skin afterward and my mom may have said "maybe you shouldn't have worn a white shirt". I don't know, I was a little kid. Why does my mom buy into it?

Maybe I should baptize some people. What could I say to the spectators before I did it? How about "This person is going to let me duck then under water without my having to chase them around or anything, therefore I deem them cool." If you want to be baptized by me let me know and I'll gather some spectators.

I just got back from school. I went to the Kurtz symposium and learned about the patriot act but I had to bail out early so I could give Jake a ride to Kinko's. I showed the video I've been working on in Eastwood's class today. I was hoping for praise and congratulations but instead I got the usual kind of comments "Where is this going? This should be two videos..." and so on. I guess if I want praise and congratulations I should have a baby but then I'd probably get the "are you sure you're ready for a life long commitment, a child is a lot of responsibility , Robin, your brand of diaper rash ointment is inferior this is the better choice, you're breast feeding and smoking that's wrong" comments. Ah, I'll never be content.

Ajay it's funny to hear about your trip to Atlanta because I lived there for years. I don't think I've ever even heard anyone say they had a good time at the underground. That place is a total tourist trap. I've never been to Stone Mountain, all I know about that place is they have a Pink Floyd laser light show and it's the KKK headquarters.
I always make that same drive when I visit my family. It's exciting to get to Tennessee. That's how I know I'm close to home. That and the warm humid air.