The beach is a boring vacation destination and i feel like it's what i need right now. I'm sick of reading all this god damn bullshit on a deadline. I want to take my books to the beach where I'd have nothing else to do but fry myself and read.
I've also gotta work at being as asshole teacher.
This morning I watched the teens going to high school while I sat on my loveseat clipping my toenails. How well trained those teens are. Up and at it at 8 in the morning with the frost on the ground and everything. I remember tracking through the grass on the way to my 6th grade class in the trailer, feeling tired and doclie. I wonder why I can't be content to just go through the motions anymore? What do I want from me?

I no longer have internet in my house so writing this journal has become a difficulty. I'm also in gogogogo work mode up here at school. I'm shooting a video this weekend and hopefully it will rock super hard. I love y'all.

I'm at Soyeon's house. She is making my favorite soup. I'm so greatful to have Soy's friendship. It's cold in my apartment becasue the heat still isn't on. I don't have an internet connection yet either. Last night was another late night. I have to chill out with the running around town at odd hours. I've had fun though.

I wonder if Orgasms are bad for conserving energy. They say that women get energy when they have orgasms but I get sleepy. If one were to go without sex or masturbation they would get energy for sublimation or whatever but is that true?
Andy told me that when we have sex and I don''t have orgasms (which is pretty much whenever we have) he feels like I'm just draining his energy. Then he told me about some old dude who lives on a mountain with a bunch of good-looking young wives and he always gives them orgasms and never has one himself so the only reason he's able to be alive (being as old as he is and everything) is to take this orgasm energy from his wives.
I don't know but I think it's time to pack up my vibrator so it stops distracting me, it is a little embarrassing when Soyeon comes over and sees it. I'm thinking my freedom of masturbation is a good reason for deciding against the roommate situation.

I'm in the midst of moving. Soyeon came over today and helped me move a few car loads. I have to get a truck Thursday so I can move all the way. It feels weird to have this transition over to another apartment. I'm not sure if I should be there or here. I'm afraid of what's going to happen if its just me and Soy moving the furniture. I wish I could get all my lady friends who were at the film professors cooking the other night to come over here and help me move but what do women like more, cooking or moving heavy crap down three flights of stairs? I'd rather cook and I hate cooking.
The other day I showed my students Human Tornado , a Rudy Ray Moore film and they're going to write a little response so that's cool. I want to know what they think but they're quite people. I don't know much about Blaxploitation so I'm trying to learn from their opinions. The wikipedia has a good article on Blaxploitation. I like Dolemite a lot, it kind of has the same production quality that Pink Flamingos and other early John Waters films have. There is something about cheap films from the 70's that I love.