I am so jealous of Josephine. Looking at the baby made me want a baby. Maybe ten years from now though. They look so happy.



I also started writing my thesis finally. I have made it about 10 pages long today only 50 more to go. Tomorrow I am taking the plunge and buying Verizon Business DSL service to host the site at home. If it doesn't work I am going to cry. If anyone feels like donating to help defray the cost you can click ont he donate button at the top of the page. Or maybe someone knows of somewhere with some dark fibre I can use for free. That would be even better.

It is about $99/month but having it at home might mean that I have more free time n my life and can also offer better services. The only thing is that I hope 768k up is going to be enough.

If programming and designing the site and developing the community was like eating a large delicious meal, then writing the thesis feels like the disgusting burp that leads to a little vomit after you eat too much. There is too much to talk about and not enough interest on my part about talking about it. I might need some of you to fill out a survey so that I have some more background information on why you use the site, etc.

I can't wait till this process is over. I have another 40 days to make it happen. I just have nothing to offer over what the sociologists have already said three million times. Maybe I will have some sort of inspiration. What really kills me is that I spent $70,000 to feel this crappy.

Haul2k5: yo
paulSideKick: hello
Haul2k5: you seen krust?
paulSideKick: who is krust?
Haul2k5: jason park
paulSideKick: I don't know him, I don't think
paulSideKick: do I
paulSideKick: ?
Haul2k5: are you korean?
paulSideKick: no I'm AMerican
Haul2k5: guess i got the wrong person then
paulSideKick: are you?
paulSideKick: weird
Haul2k5: yeah
paulSideKick: how did you get my IM
Haul2k5: i think i forgot an s
paulSideKick: crazy
paulSideKick: are you in korea
paulSideKick: ?
Haul2k5: no, new york
paulSideKick: me too
paulSideKick: in buffalo
paulSideKick: well, good luck finding your friend
Haul2k5: haha
Haul2k5: thakns

So after being really angry and hating everything that is Buffalo for a little bit, I now have landed five jobs for the fall. It seems a little ridiculous to have to have five jobs but I guess it will make things interesting. I will be a multimedia specialist at Canisius (the same life sucking dead end job I had for the last four years), teaching advanced web programming at Canisius (sounds fun), teaching 3D modeling at Medaille, being a Landlord, and being the research assistant/3D modeler for Josephine Anstey's The Trial the Trail. Altogther, I will make a little bit more than $30,000 and have no health insurance.

Before all that starts I need to finish writing my thesis and build GF! for (e:shawnr) .
Really all I ever want to do is work on (e:strip) . It is the only true passion I have, but it is totally anti-reality in terms of making me have health insurance and a nice house. I wish I could have a grant. I guess that would require writing for a grant and I am not capable of getting that started at this point, argh. (e:matthew) and I also have this really amazing business plan but putting into action will require more effort than we have ever put into anything.

The sidekick II is fried now. It got put in the driveway in the sun and I think the insides melted. So in one way it is good that the bugs are dead. In another way it is bad because I am phoneless and it is making me crazy. I have a feeling it is making (e:twisted) crazy too.

We are having a sausage, gumbo and chicken dinner party. (e:lilho) and (e:terry) are cooking it from scratch. I spent the entire afternoon at Nonna's cleaning out. I can't believe how much stuff we ended up taking. I am glad that (e:mike) wanted everything because otherwise we would have ended up with even more. I am still hunting for the popcorn maker!

Today is the last day of break for me. Then I have to start writing the thesis. There are very few days left.