Pretty much every morning when I wake up, I have no desire to go teach. Every day I hope that there will be a half day I forgot about, or an assembly, or a snow day...is this unusual or potentially bad? I mean not a lot of people like their job but seriously every day I think to myself that I would rather just not teach. Even if I think it will go well (which it usually doesn't, haha...), I know that I would much rather just go back home and do something else. I wonder if this means I chose the wrong profession...probably not. I can see that it is hard to look forward to something that you don't think you have gotten the hang of or feel totally sucessful at yet.

How many other people feel this way in the mornings???

It's been awhile folks. First of all, go Sabres!!!!! How exciting would it be if we won the Stanley Cup. I think maybe the best part of it would be that (e:Mike) and I would have an excuse to play the Ricky Martin CD a lot more - Cup of Life, of course, but we may let the CD run to hear a Spanish Hercules song or two...

As (e:Mike) already wrote about, we exercised our vast knowledge of rock music and tightness last night while munching on delicious cookies and freezing our buns off. Just remember when 'Swami' becomes the next rock and roll legend, we were responsible.

I am totally okay with not working very much this summer and being able to go visit people. I've already saved up a decent amount of money from my long-term job, so I'm okay with having a not-as-high paying job this summer. On my list of places to go (some day trips, some a bit more extensive)

- Colorado for my cousin's wedding
- Boston to see (e:Maureen)
- Letchworth to camp with a couple friends from school
- Long Island to visit a different friend from school
- Toronto for the day
- New York City...okay I probably won't go there but I haven't been there in awhile and I feel like we're due for a trip there
- The BEEEEEEEEEEEEACH

((e:Jessbob) I totally would put Albany on my list but I don't know if I'm ready to go back to Albany b/c of a certain somebody that lives there and that I would think of nonstop if I was there! I like Albany though. You should take a weekend and go hike in the Adirondacks. I do miss those mountains, if nothing else.)

Where else does anyone want to go this summer???? As I said I am way more interested in having a great time this summer going places rather than making a lot of money. Let me know!..........

i just conducted my first concert :)

happy birthday mo!!!! :)

i had a good day at school today...it must be because of your birthday...!

First of all I slept in until 9:30 today. I realize to some of you that is not late at all, but I thought about and 9:30 is FOUR HOURS after I normally get up.

I also completed my first entire week of teaching on Friday. The first two weeks were all four day weeks, but this one was complete. Believe me I felt it. The whole week I've only gotten about 5 hours of sleep per night, so I was ready to sleep in. School is getting better in some ways, but I have a long way to go before I really get the hang of it. By a long way I mean like years. Ha. I don't expect to master the art of teaching at JFK, but I can improve on many things.

Last night was Fredfest. For those that don't know, that's a festival in Fredonia with a concert/carnival thingie and a lot lot lot of drunk people. Really it's all about the drunk people. I chose not to go, mostly because I spent 4 days in Fredonia last week, and also because I really just hate being there. People invited me to go but I know if I went, that HEwould probably be there and it would just make me uncomfortable and upset, especially if I was drunk. (I almost capitalized it to say "He" but then I realized that would look like I was talking about Jesus and I don't think Jesus would be at Fredfest). I saw him WAY too much that weekend. But I'm actually kinda grateful. Because I saw him so much, I really got to take a look at who he has become, and hear what other people think of him - not just my friends who would naturally tell me mean things about him, but others. They tell me he has become a pretentious SOB who walks and talks like he is the greatest thing. In other words, he thinks he's too cool for school. Whenever we would see each other at a recital or something, I refuse to be the first to initiate conversation, which means we wouldn't talk unless we were standing right to each other, because HE doesn't walk up to you, YOU walk up to him. He's too great for you NOT to. Anyway these are the combination of my observations as well as other people's thoughts. The two of us actually ended up hanging out with a bunch of other people on Friday night, and it plain old just sucked. I actually had to get up and go for a walk because I just couldn't stand being in the same room with him any longer. I don't think he could have appeared any less interested in what I was saying or made a bigger production out of himself, telling funny stories or jokes to make it seem like he was the funniest, best thing in the world.

So even though it sucked, at least now I know that I can be around him and really see him for what he is now and not what he used to be. And I hate being around him so much that I won't even try and act like I enjoy it or would attempt to hang out ever again. I may never even see him again. While I have mixed feelings about that last statement, I know that I will be totally and completely fine. Just being away from it all this past week has really made me feel better about everything. Separating myself from the past is really the best.

All of that actually isn't the reason I started writing about Fredfest. I was just going to say that it made me a little sad that no one called me from Fredonia to even see if I was hanging out. I did get one text message during the day from a friend I haven't seen since like January. We talked about hanging out this weekend because she would FINALLY be in fredonia. But I knew it would be in my best interest to stay away from the festivities. I do wish a teeny bit that people would have called to see where I was, but oh welllllllllllllll...

And ANYWAY if I had gone to Fredonia I would have missed Stick It!!! (e:Mike) and (e:Jill) I'm sure you did your hardest tricks but I hope you controlled them. ps I actually went to a movie and DIDN'T get popcorn. I don't think this has ever happened before. Let's go to another movie very soon so I can get popcorn! WITH LOTS OF BUTTER!

Have a good weekend everyone