No my title does not refer to Joan Rivers. I was driving home from church and drove by Mang Park (the local like park in Kenmore). The first thing I noticed was that the wood exercise ara is gone. It was like balance beams and bars and stuff. It had pictures with how to do all these different exercises. Why would tihs part be taken down? Well I guess in actuality it was rather dangerous as it was just really high bars that kids tried to swing and hang upside down on. Plus it was all made of wood and full of splinters.

Anywho what I am really wondering is how did the tube slide survive. It is this orange completley closed in tube slide. So like if you get in you cannot see the bottom. This leads to numerous people being at the bottom of the slide when someone flies out and smacks right into them. Or people climbing up the inside and then someone goes down and they all fall. In this age of everything has to be safe and impossible to get injured on I have no idea how this made it. They have removed everything else from the playground that was there in my day, how did this survive? Remember the rolling pin slide where your fingers and sticky skin alwyas got caught in between the roles? That's gone but someone this thing survived. It sticks out like a sore thumb with the new plasticy safe looking equipment cuz it is made of metal and rusty looking.

here is a picture of a similar slide






and here is a kid about to be plowed down by the person coming down the slide without realizing

So my name has traveled way down the Read the Latest list. Probably the farthest down it has ever been. It is mainly because my dad got a new casino game and is on the computer all the time and I am too tired to wait up til he is done. Life is pretty good lately. I saw the Strangers with Candy Movie. Me and (e:jill) loved it. It was really funny. If you liked the show you will definetely like it. I definetely think though that it is one of those things that you either hate or love. I think it would be hard to be like "eh , its ok" about it.

Me and (e:jill) are hopefully going to look at some apartments this weekend. I really realized I need to move out now because my dad is giving up OTB. That is where he goes all day Friday. I have off on Fridays and so that is my day to myself usually. Even though I usually go out and am not home, its just nice to know I can just sit around and not have anyone bothering me or being like "why aren't you dressed, its 4 o'clock". But now he will be home....i need to move out...asap!

Hmm what else...? I guess not much else has happened lately. I just wanted to be back on "the list"!

just when it seems like it is getting a little better....things have to get worse

So if you read my other post about green no longer being the new black but now black is the new black this is a little addendum. Like two weeks ago when we went out to like Brick Bar I believe, everyone was wearing green and I remember at least two situations where we went out and realized like me, paul, terry were all wearing green. Then like a few days ago we went to Brick Bar and I noticed everyone was wearing black. Its crazy....like people don't even realize how much Cosmo and fashion magazines control their life....

So I was getting fed up with Eckerd, readying myself to find a new job ...... and now they gave me back the training thing I wanted. My district manager called and said he heard that I really wanted to do it, and he really was just trying to prevent me from having to do all that extra work but if I want it the job is mine. So I took it. So I tihnk I am excited. But now I am just recommited to Eckerd which really provides me with no future. But at least I think this training thing will be good on a resume.

I am so angry all the time the last few days. Like constantly all day I am tense and angry but not at anyone in particular, just situations and it is driving me crazy. I can't sleep well, I am miserable at work and I just can't enjoy things cuz its so weighing on my mind. I wish it was something where I could just be mad at someone, like yell at them ,or not even that but just be mad at them and then get over it. I get over things really easily usually after I get really mad usually wihtout the other person even having to know I was mad. But without anyone to get mad at , I am just in this constant angry stage I can't get over....grr....