Ugh...today was a stressful day. I think I am just not in the best of places lately. It all started when the other day on the way to the Taste of Buffalo we passed the Business First offices and me and (e:maureen) remember how we were in it at one time. We were like fabulous highschool seniors with a great future. (e:maureen) now owns a condo in Boston and is working on her phD from Harvard. I live with my parents and have the same job I have had since I was 16. I make less than pretty much anyone, even people like starting at like a fast food joint. I used to think I loved my job but I don't and yet I still am doing nothing about it because I am lazy and afraid of failure. I talk about going back to school or doing something but I never do.
On the social front I have parents who tell me they get afraid I am an alcoholic and people who tell me I party too much and never can just stay in while then at the same time other people complain that I am not party enough. Noone is really ever happy. What am I to do?
It just is a lot of things are bothering me lately and then today's situation didn't help. None of this is all that serious but I guess just while watching Shakespeare it gave me time to think about all this and be upset about it.
Its weird cuz just a few days ago I felt like everything was going soo good for once. It's not like I'm mad at anyone, just myself. And now my vacation is over and it is back to work tomorrow...
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07/09/2006 23:44 #29012
Down and Out07/08/2006 11:05 #29011
Black is the new blackSo after reading cosmo on the beach the other day I found out green is no longer the new black but now black is the new black. So of course I ran home and raided my closet to get rid of all the green and burn in it and then rub myself in the black ashes it created.
After that I also decided to just go through my clothes and get rid of some. I think I got rid of like 7 tshirts, 2 pairs of pants and a pair of shorts. I even parted with 2 black tshirts (even though black is the new black) because I realized I had like i don't know, 6 or so just plain black tshirts. Its because I didn't have a black tshirt i liked for a while so then I bought everyone I saw that I liked. I know, I tihnk I need help. Anyway,that means I got rid of like 10 things, I don't remember the last time I was able to part with a double digits amount of clothing. I really have a problem. I know they say if you haven't hought aobut a piece of clothing in like 3 months you should get rid of it, but then I try it on and realize I love it all over again. But really my room is out of control with just piles of clothes that don't fit in my drawers or closet anywhere. So if anyone wants some too tight old navy jeans or way to wide cordurouy pants let me know before they are shipped off to amvets.
After that I also decided to just go through my clothes and get rid of some. I think I got rid of like 7 tshirts, 2 pairs of pants and a pair of shorts. I even parted with 2 black tshirts (even though black is the new black) because I realized I had like i don't know, 6 or so just plain black tshirts. Its because I didn't have a black tshirt i liked for a while so then I bought everyone I saw that I liked. I know, I tihnk I need help. Anyway,that means I got rid of like 10 things, I don't remember the last time I was able to part with a double digits amount of clothing. I really have a problem. I know they say if you haven't hought aobut a piece of clothing in like 3 months you should get rid of it, but then I try it on and realize I love it all over again. But really my room is out of control with just piles of clothes that don't fit in my drawers or closet anywhere. So if anyone wants some too tight old navy jeans or way to wide cordurouy pants let me know before they are shipped off to amvets.
southernyankee - 07/13/06 19:02
Mike, you seriously had me reconsider wearing green the other day-Oh the power u have over me! You will be my new fashion guru - I King Thee!!!
Mike, you seriously had me reconsider wearing green the other day-Oh the power u have over me! You will be my new fashion guru - I King Thee!!!
leetee - 07/10/06 00:36
OMG... i thought orange was the new pink.
OMG... i thought orange was the new pink.
07/06/2006 00:37 #29010
Amanda's B-dayHAPPY BIRTHDAY (E:AMANDA) (though now it is officially a day after your birthday by a few minutes). Hope you had a great day.
Everyone should come out to the Square tomorrow night and celebrate (e:amanda)'s 23rd bday and enjoy some sweet songs provided by india.arie with a definte after party to follow!
Everyone should come out to the Square tomorrow night and celebrate (e:amanda)'s 23rd bday and enjoy some sweet songs provided by india.arie with a definte after party to follow!
07/04/2006 17:12 #29009
today
HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY EVERYONE
07/03/2006 00:28 #29008
Slingo Fling, AOL StyleDo any of you remember the aol game slingo? It is like bingo but kinda differnet and you play against other people. Anyway, when I was younger I used to love it and otnight i rediscovered it but it has changed.
OMG it is like a dirty whorehouse dating fiesta in the slingo chat. I can't even summarize, I just have to post this convo these two people are having. I'm trying to innocently play slingo and they are foreplay. I feel like i am seeing osmething i shouldn't be. Like I am peeking in their window. I cut out the unimportant parts of the convo.
HIGH GAME SCORE TODAY IS: 38000
First achieved by SAVERLIFE (Jul 2 15:58:15).
«Sugar91387» hi all gl fr nyc
«Slushpupy2» hi gl from brooklyn
«Sugar91387» how's things
«Goggins68» real good
«Sugar91387» am 38/fem
«Sugar91387» no one talking
«Sugar91387» ladies no talking
«Goggins68» we're all getting tired
«Sugar91387» lol
«Fidlemaker» i'm tired and got a cold
«Slushpupy2» hah seriously
«Goggins68» gl all
«Sugar91387» to u 21
«Goggins68» ty
«Sugar91387» i love the top lol
«Fidlemaker» i don't feel like being on top right now
«Sugar91387» kool
«Fidlemaker» this cold has me down
«Sugar91387» poor baby
«Fidlemaker» i have a good friend from long island
«Fidlemaker» shes a cowgirl
«Sugar91387» am on long island
«Fidlemaker» she has riden in madison square garden
«Sugar91387» just like a guy comes when u dount what him 2
«Goggins68» fat chance
«Goggins68» wtg Wal
«Fidlemaker» we just can't wait
«Goggins68» gl all
«Sugar91387» lol
«Sugar91387» your age fid
«Fidlemaker» had 5 red hats
«Fidlemaker» 77
«Sugar91387» great
«Fidlemaker» dd
«Goggins68» sry
«Sugar91387» sry
«Fidlemaker» how old did you think
«Sugar91387» u sound 30
«Fidlemaker» tonight i feel 130
«Sugar91387» want me to kiss better
«Fidlemaker» yes if you would
«Sugar91387» mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
«Sugar91387» all better
«Goggins68» wtg Wal again
«Fidlemaker» i feel good most of the time
«Fidlemaker» feel better already
«Fidlemaker» i live in florida
«Sugar91387» nice wish i wa there
«Fidlemaker» have friends everywhere
«Sugar91387» kool
«Sugar91387» looks like am on top
«Sugar91387» was
«Fidlemaker» i run a country music jam and have people from all over
«Fidlemaker» how old r u sugar
«Sugar91387» 38
«Fidlemaker» oh boy you're ready
«Sugar91387» ?
«Fidlemaker» for whatever
«Sugar91387» u name it hun
«Fidlemaker» you're a good sport
«Sugar91387» all hart
«Sugar91387» u married
«Fidlemaker» i bet you are a beautiful lady
«Sugar91387» thks sweet
«Fidlemaker» the good beauty comes from within
«Sugar91387» am 5.5 132lbs 36b
«Fidlemaker» but you are 400 pounds of purty
«Sugar91387» lite brown skin
«Sugar91387» u would lovew me on top
«Fidlemaker» yes
«Sugar91387» your name am pam
«Fidlemaker» i'm always short
«Fidlemaker» i start good then at the last i fade
«Sugar91387» u like some help
«Fidlemaker» i need a lot of help
«Sugar91387» baby love u on top
«Fidlemaker» finally got full coverage
«Fidlemaker» is our other partner a girl
«Sugar91387» i nount know
«Sugar91387» hi wal
«Sugar91387» m/f?
«Sugar91387» not talking
«Sugar91387» likes us talking
«Sugar91387» baby want to chat
«Sugar91387» mmmmmmmmmmmm
«Fidlemaker» thanks
«Sugar91387» i love to do anything 4 u sweet
«Fidlemaker» you're too nice
«Fidlemaker» 1 t g
OMG it is like a dirty whorehouse dating fiesta in the slingo chat. I can't even summarize, I just have to post this convo these two people are having. I'm trying to innocently play slingo and they are foreplay. I feel like i am seeing osmething i shouldn't be. Like I am peeking in their window. I cut out the unimportant parts of the convo.
HIGH GAME SCORE TODAY IS: 38000
First achieved by SAVERLIFE (Jul 2 15:58:15).
«Sugar91387» hi all gl fr nyc
«Slushpupy2» hi gl from brooklyn
«Sugar91387» how's things
«Goggins68» real good
«Sugar91387» am 38/fem
«Sugar91387» no one talking
«Sugar91387» ladies no talking
«Goggins68» we're all getting tired
«Sugar91387» lol
«Fidlemaker» i'm tired and got a cold
«Slushpupy2» hah seriously
«Goggins68» gl all
«Sugar91387» to u 21
«Goggins68» ty
«Sugar91387» i love the top lol
«Fidlemaker» i don't feel like being on top right now
«Sugar91387» kool
«Fidlemaker» this cold has me down
«Sugar91387» poor baby
«Fidlemaker» i have a good friend from long island
«Fidlemaker» shes a cowgirl
«Sugar91387» am on long island
«Fidlemaker» she has riden in madison square garden
«Sugar91387» just like a guy comes when u dount what him 2
«Goggins68» fat chance
«Goggins68» wtg Wal
«Fidlemaker» we just can't wait
«Goggins68» gl all
«Sugar91387» lol
«Sugar91387» your age fid
«Fidlemaker» had 5 red hats
«Fidlemaker» 77
«Sugar91387» great
«Fidlemaker» dd
«Goggins68» sry
«Sugar91387» sry
«Fidlemaker» how old did you think
«Sugar91387» u sound 30
«Fidlemaker» tonight i feel 130
«Sugar91387» want me to kiss better
«Fidlemaker» yes if you would
«Sugar91387» mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
«Sugar91387» all better
«Goggins68» wtg Wal again
«Fidlemaker» i feel good most of the time
«Fidlemaker» feel better already
«Fidlemaker» i live in florida
«Sugar91387» nice wish i wa there
«Fidlemaker» have friends everywhere
«Sugar91387» kool
«Sugar91387» looks like am on top
«Sugar91387» was
«Fidlemaker» i run a country music jam and have people from all over
«Fidlemaker» how old r u sugar
«Sugar91387» 38
«Fidlemaker» oh boy you're ready
«Sugar91387» ?
«Fidlemaker» for whatever
«Sugar91387» u name it hun
«Fidlemaker» you're a good sport
«Sugar91387» all hart
«Sugar91387» u married
«Fidlemaker» i bet you are a beautiful lady
«Sugar91387» thks sweet
«Fidlemaker» the good beauty comes from within
«Sugar91387» am 5.5 132lbs 36b
«Fidlemaker» but you are 400 pounds of purty
«Sugar91387» lite brown skin
«Sugar91387» u would lovew me on top
«Fidlemaker» yes
«Sugar91387» your name am pam
«Fidlemaker» i'm always short
«Fidlemaker» i start good then at the last i fade
«Sugar91387» u like some help
«Fidlemaker» i need a lot of help
«Sugar91387» baby love u on top
«Fidlemaker» finally got full coverage
«Fidlemaker» is our other partner a girl
«Sugar91387» i nount know
«Sugar91387» hi wal
«Sugar91387» m/f?
«Sugar91387» not talking
«Sugar91387» likes us talking
«Sugar91387» baby want to chat
«Sugar91387» mmmmmmmmmmmm
«Fidlemaker» thanks
«Sugar91387» i love to do anything 4 u sweet
«Fidlemaker» you're too nice
«Fidlemaker» 1 t g
shawnr - 07/04/06 17:19
Wow, that's a priceless bit of chat. Who was it who said that a good poem is a "lucky piece of chat"? Sherwood Anderson? I dunno...
But, I have seen similar examples in other chat rooms for games. I used to play Word Whomp on Pogo.com and it was totally similar in some of those rooms sometimes. Wacky.
I made this new art piece I'll talk more about on (e:strip) sometime later, but you might dig checking out the mostly-finished beta: :::link:::
Wow, that's a priceless bit of chat. Who was it who said that a good poem is a "lucky piece of chat"? Sherwood Anderson? I dunno...
But, I have seen similar examples in other chat rooms for games. I used to play Word Whomp on Pogo.com and it was totally similar in some of those rooms sometimes. Wacky.
I made this new art piece I'll talk more about on (e:strip) sometime later, but you might dig checking out the mostly-finished beta: :::link:::
hodown - 07/03/06 09:03
I don't think I even understand half of that internet/slingo slang. God I'm old...
I don't think I even understand half of that internet/slingo slang. God I'm old...
libertad - 07/03/06 00:37
Slingo sluts! Maybe you should stay away from this filth. Like my grammy always says "Birds of a feather flock together!"
Slingo sluts! Maybe you should stay away from this filth. Like my grammy always says "Birds of a feather flock together!"
Mike, please, I'm begging, NEVER compare yourself to someone else! You will do right by yourself on your own terms! Keep it positive bro! Although it's been very well documented I don't follow my own advice.
i totally feel ya, i'm in the same boat.
Maybe you just feel blah 'cause you have to go back to work tomorrow? I've heard even people that like their jobs feel that way before going back... but i wouldn't know, i've never had a job i liked! How sad is that?
I heard Dr Phil once say that change comes from conflict. If there is no real need for change, sometimes we get stuck in a rut... maybe that's the way it is for you and work? You don't need to have more money 'cause you don't have the stereotypes of pressure, like a wife and kids...
I say do what makes you happy, Mike! You deserve it! :O)