i have found out the secret to boringness... just work a million hours. all you will want to do is sleep, or work more. working makes me feel good though. especially at one of my jobs. those kids really need us. i question what kind of care is being given at home. kids come in unbathed, without lunches, no breakfast, dirty clothes, bruises, cuts, scratches. but we have a good old time and spoil them and love them and we're just there for them. what a great job. i get paid too. as for my other job, i just get paid.

i miss sister, mother, and even brother now too. aunt is in hospital. i don't see granny enough. sunday is my day for catching up.

one boy i work with; he was not born disabled. his mother's boyfriend was driving drunk, and he was asleep in the back seat. he will never live a mornal life, but he is so happy and such a hard worker. his name is chris. he was 8 at the time of the accident.

life for me is good; great.

paul, matthew, terry, return safe from your trip! hopefully i will see/hear from you soon!

jill, good to see you. we always welcome you at premier! :O)

im a crybaby. and im not that interesting. i need to take interest in something rather than me.

I've started drawing againich feels nice. after all those figure drawing classes, it seems i only want to draw naked people. go figure-no pun intended.

my sister is the greatest. she is going to go to az to surprise our mommy. oh grand puba. one day i will live in the same big city, and we will have fun excursions all the time.

when we there be an estrip party? if we all co-fund it can work right? if i had a house, we could have it there. i don't.

aint it funny that we live in a city that rains 6 outa 10 days. i will learn to love rain. but i really wanna get a tan; in the rain.

i want to fly
and never come down
and live my life
and have friends around.
good day mate!

im a crybaby. and im not that interesting. i need to take interest in something rather than me.

I've started drawing againich feels nice. after all those figure drawing classes, it seems i only want to draw naked people. go figure-no pun intended.

my sister is the greatest. she is going to go to az to surprise our mommy. oh grand puba. one day i will live in the same big city, and we will have fun excursions all the time.

when we there be an estrip party? if we all co-fund it can work right? if i had a house, we could have it there. i don't.

aint it funny that we live in a city that rains 6 outa 10 days. i will learn to love rain. but i really wanna get a tan; in the rain.

i want to fly
and never come down
and live my life
and have friends around.
good day mate!

im a crybaby. and im not that interesting. i need to take interest in something rather than me.

I've started drawing againich feels nice. after all those figure drawing classes, it seems i only want to draw naked people. go figure-no pun intended.

my sister is the greatest. she is going to go to az to surprise our mommy. oh grand puba. one day i will live in the same big city, and we will have fun excursions all the time.

when we there be an estrip party? if we all co-fund it can work right? if i had a house, we could have it there. i don't.

aint it funny that we live in a city that rains 6 outa 10 days. i will learn to love rain. but i really wanna get a tan; in the rain.

i want to fly
and never come down
and live my life
and have friends around.
good day mate!

i am going to call my mom tonight. i miss her. probably because i know i can't see her anytime soon. it will be me calling and then crying. thats what i do when i am sad and i talk to mommy.

things i want to do:

go home, sleep in my bed, cook food in my house, sleep on my couch. just be home.

not work 65 hours a week.

live in a place that does not rain 6 out of ten days.

more on this later...