the site is getting so crazy and big. paul has done an amzaing job. i just feel like i enjopyed it more when it was smaller. i felt like i could read everyones blog and get to know them. i even got to meet some people in person that i didn't know. now, its getting so big, and i feel not so connected. i like small groups, call me crazy, but i do. how do i get unlost in this big crazy growing site of estrippers?

p.s. sometimes when i say estrippers, well actually everytime i say it, i think about strippers. i am highly opposed to paying to see trashy naked people. if i want to see a naked person i will just look at myself. if i want to see a naked boy, i think i have someone in mind. does anybody else think strip clubs are just dumb? and how do they get that area so smooth and hairfree? wtf mate? must be a lot of work.

mommy's left for az. she's got a long drive ahead of her.

ny was fun. sisters are fun. jersey city is fun. i heart ny. i will live there in a couple years. maybe one and a half.

i miss my room, i miss my house. i want to go home. i wish this to be al over with. miving is absolutely the worst thing ever.

being an adult is no fun either. i hate work. poo poo.

i will write again when im in a better mood.


p.s. who are all of these strange new people? this site is too big for me now.

slept in this room for 16 years.
this is our last night together.
once filled with many many many things.
now houses only a bed, some clothes and me.
my childhood is over.

goodbye house.

paul, this site s getting crazy. crazy good. im so proud of you pookie. i will bring you home special nyc treat. you wll be of in computer land, and i will be outside seeing and interacting with people. i miss you and your crazy computer ways. lets do lunch, next week sometime maybe?

rachel, i just read ur journal about getting up for work at 8pm. i must say, i was quite amused, and the thought still brings a smile to my face. i think everyone has done that once or twice!

i had a dream last night that my grandma died, and i wasnt so nice to her the last time i saw her. i hate these dreams. i keep having dreams that just seem so real, and i wake up all comfused and disturbed. maybe that is why i felt so sick to my stomach this morning. be gone with you horrible dreams and poopy stomach.

i must not put off until tomorrow what i can do today. hopefully i can do a lot! have a splendiferous day fellow epeeps.

last two days of packing...

• i love plastic bins

• i love nyc. i love sister in nyc. i will see her soooooon.

• matthew, sorry i havent come by. maybe tonight? i make no promises.

• my mom is just the best. she is no longer crazy lady, she is loving mommy.

• i have a place to live, and a pool to swim in. ilove places to live and pools and hottubs.

• i love summer and prospects of a bright future.

• someday i will be your maid hodown, you know it. i was born a little brown skinned for a reason.