paul, i tld you not to post that picture, i look cuter in the other one. can we fix this problem?

i think it is possible that i will have arthritis at a very early age, my knees, back, feet, shoulders, ankles; they are hurt. im an old lady.

p.s. why is the world a toxic waste dump?

hmmmm, how to say this? life is a precious thing. it is happy and sad and beautiful and ugly all at the same; but in the end, i would like to think that the good stuff makes up for the bad. i try to be happy or at least content, most of the time, but, i think it is good to just let it all out. whatever you are holding inside, any doubts, fears, bad feelings; it is better to just let these go. afterwards, you will feel so much better.

some people, hold things in, with the belief that it is silly to let these emotions out. no emotion is petty or dumb, or without reason. without feeling, life becomes numb, boring and mundane. it bothers me to think that some people around me, people that i love and care about, let past experiences or bothersome emotions gether inside them. they might think i don't see that they are hiding these things, but i do. if i know you, and care about you, i want to know what is bothering you. i hate it when people are not honest with me.

it is not good to be conditioned, or condition yourself to hide emotion. it can even kill you; if not that, it can create heart problems, high blood pressure, and a whole slew of other problems. basically, all im saying is let it all out. we all go through tough times, and we should all be there for eachother. after a good cleansing, everything just seems more clear; life seems easier to tackle; and you can continue on your day with a smile onm your face.

i know i will go to bed with a smile on my face. i love my friends. i love my family. i love summer. i have a job. i have my health. the possiblites are endless...life is good.

>>Posted By: lilho

what a night. tina and i are still awake. after two nights of no sleep, i am still going strong. we went out with tk last night, and saw shrek and then headed to the pink. tina said she never stayed for last-call, so we stayed for the "superduper last call." the dude(bartender) kept asking us if we wanted drinks(tina and i), but we were at the mercy of tk's wallet. we took some sips here and there, and managed to make it through. someone took stuff from my car, tk's stuff, we think. my mask is missing too. that thing took 20 hours of grueling work to make, mind you. i will miss you mask, you are not forgotten. tina and i laughing/crying right now. that mask was not appreciated, and that thing was the bombdiggity. ub art school, someone went into my car and found that mask, and wanted it enough to take it. whoever you are, godbless you.

all of this makes no sense, unless you are me, or tina, maybe tk. go see shrek 2, but only for the puss in boots...so cute!

i really really wish he would stop taking stuff from me. who knows what he has taken in the past year. why don't you just take everything? why don't you just spit in my face? that might get your point across quicker. just because i don't see you take, doesn't mean i wont find out. lets see: my car, my pearl and diamond ring, money, any drug you can find, cds, discman, headphones, more money. hey, maybe you could take me and sell me for money.

soon, it will all be over.

so much to do, so little time. wanting to sleep. i keep not being able to sleep at night and getting tired during the day. sleepovers are fun!