oh boy. paul is a lucky one. he gets to go to ny and visit the greatest sister ever. she will cook for him, give him special treats, and if he is sad or homesick, she will cheer him up with a cup full of whipped cream. i want to go, however, this ho has obligations this weekend. i must consol a heartbroken one coming from toronto, house one who waits to go home to long island, and entertain the aunty, and spend special quality family times.

i have come to the conclusion that extanded family can just get annoying, especially when you see at least five a month and they stay at your house, and possibly in your room. there is something about people sleeping in my bed that i just don't like. i guess i never really learned how to share.

i do love my granny, and she is not doing so well. her heart is pumping like is used to, and she doesn't know. i need to be a better grandaughter.

i just read emily's journal, and what she said about what you wrtie having to do with who you are. i don't know how accurate of a reflection my journal can be of me. i think it is hard to say when you cannot see someone or hear their voice, but the journal thing is fun, does anyone ever read this?

people i miss:

• jessica kim ho, i miss that girl like crazy. most of the time i just womder how much fun my life would be with her in it. she could be possibly the greatest person of my life that i never see or talk to anymore. jess, i shall visit soon ,or loose my mind trying.

• friends away at school, such as jpo, nikki, amy, julie(even though she has forgotten me), i miss you all, and i miss rusty and spending crazy times with him and maria

• i miss some realtives, the ones who aren't crazy, that only leaves a few

• i miss those crazy elmwood folk, matt, paul, terry and the like that i seem to not see as much lately

• i miss the boy that i love, who is great, who i have never met

why i don't write ever:
i fear i have nothing to say that would hold your interest, or anything that really matters in the big scheme of things. apparently, my life lacks substance. i need to just see my sister and get this horrible period over with

p.s. a shout out to all the dirty bastards of the world, i would like to order a dirty martini and throw it in your face. have a nice day!

if i didn't make this clear, i will go to great lengths to get to ny to see that crazy grand puba, maybe even become a stripper, as i was told this morning, it is where the money is. go figure. fuck college, just call me "candy ann ho".

sometimes paragraphs are just too much trouble so i shall list:

last week:

• drank a lot of vodka and beer...fun for me!
  
• still didn't get school stuff done, now i am soooo behind
  
• finally met the dreadlocked polock(a dream come true)
  
• ate a lot of yummy food
  
• realized that the constant ringing in my ear needs to stop, does anyone have this? if you do, we should talk
  
• plaster=fun. i made these cool little fishie guys, which i didn't nk would turn out, but apparently, plaste i not that hard to do, in fact it is kinda fun
  
• made the decision to live in the dorms next sem!
  
• made the decision to really start doing well in school
  
• decided that i miss my sister way too much, and i shall visit ASAP

this week:

• not sure how i feel about boys, or dating, or even bothering wit them at all
  
• kinda sad, about lots of things
  
• really happy that i have an awesome friend here, really happy
  
• excited about camping
  
• badgers,badgers,badgers, mushrooooooms, snake!
  
• being sick and having your head feel like it is going to explode is no fun
  
• new haircuts are cool

i guess i have nothing of interest to say, well except for oe very important thing. treats others as you would like to be treated. i sounds very cliche but it will come back around to you. be honest, kind, and generous when you can, you will feel better about you, and other people will be better too. *i didn't rhyme on purpose*

p.s. getting valentine's day cards in the mail, with cd's is so fucking rad.

i want to be the leader of the journal entry, read my journal...gross pictures and all. i must win. why is this a competition. the two greatest things of my week have been my child(vodka) and a new special friend(who i will not name, but they(he) has made my day), and finding nemo. that movie rocks, really it is great.
best quote from the movie:
dori: "i shall call you squishy, and you shall be mine!"

check it out, garunteed to make you hate bush even more!http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&u=/nm/20040211/pl_nm/bush_marriage_dc_4