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07/06/2006 21:48 #25778

A public apology
Let me apologize mrdt for my harsh language, and for assuming that you got my email when I never got confirmation that you did in fact get it. I'm sorry. That is not the normal way I handle things. It is also not the way that I want Buddhism to be betrayed. This isn't an excuse, but i believed you received my email and were deliberately trying to get under my skin. I sent you an email rather than a comment because I was trying to avoid possibly embarrassing you in public.

I feel as if I constantly have to defend myself from your comments even over the simplest things. For example, when I posted a picture of the lamb I had for Easter you say "Dude you overcooked it." This was a minor annoyance, but the thing about your comments is that all of these minor annoyances add up. You also post comments without actually reading what I have to say. For example, when I talked about when I consolidated my student loans
Your comment made it obvious that you hadn't read what I wrote at all. I had already said the rates were going up and that I consolidated, then you said if you haven't done so the rates are going up so consolidate now. Here is the thing I don't like getting constant advice when its not asked for. As for this latest thing, I think that you and (e:jason) know that I didn't have stocks in Enron. I believe people like Ken Lay do actually affect society as a whole and I think that most people realized that I wasn't referring to my lost stock. It is this constantly being petty and making me defend every thing I say to the last detail that makes me angry. I have seriously considered not even posting anymore because I hate that so much. It's exhausting and not fun.


As for the Buddhism, you do not know me. It is aggravating that this is the second time that you have implied or said that I am a bad Buddhist. I don't claim to be perfect. I have many many faults. I do actually practice and chant. Not necessarily 2x's a day, but I do as well as attend various meetings and activities over the last four years. I really don't think you have the right or the knowledge to judge me like you have. Let me just say it isn't easy to be Buddhist; it takes a lot of effort. The effort has certainly paid off in many ways in my life, and I know what I am capable of when I increase my efforts. My nasty comment to you did not come from a good place and I certainly was out of line. I'm not sure if you are a Buddhist or not. As far as I have read you haven't said you are. If you are then we are practicing two different types and that is fine. It's just that what you say about Buddhism in some ways is going to be different and I don't want people to be confused (it is confusing and I'm still learning).

Finally, I am sorry to everyone for my actions. I hope that no one has lost respect for me due to the way I have handled my anger. Mrdt, I am very sensitive and it is hard for me not to take offense to things, please in the future take care in the things that you say to me, as I will try to do the same with everyone else. I'm usually very careful with my words and I will try even harder in the future.

libertad - 07/07/06 01:56
mrdt,

thanks for clearing things up. We should all try and stay clear of the good buddhist bad buddhist labels or any labels for that matter. You are right about life being suffering, but don't forget that we also can and do experience higher life conditions as well. We are in fact responsibile for our own happiness. Overcoming suffering can become a source of happiness within itself.

You should make something that in depth about yourself your own journal entry instead of a comment. It will be easier for you to keep track of what you write and for others to follow a history of your thoughts. Feel free to add the link to my journal or send me a post it if you want me to make sure I see it.
mrdt - 07/07/06 00:57
try to realize before you read this that I am not attacking you. I merely am trying to explain myself so that you may understand my motives.

First, I never said you were a bad buddhist, you did. I merely stated that a good buddhist would never kill a spider in the house, they would capture it and set it free. Somebody told me this and I was passing it on to you.

Second you asked and I quote "...like why do they want us to consolidate now? DO they know something we don't." And my reply was about the new laws going into effect on July 1st.

I read it your journal(maybe not as carefully as I should have) but I still read it and it was a comment on a small section of your journal. I wasn't fucking with you either, just thought I was answering your questions and offering some advice.

Okay on to my spiritual background: I've studied all the major religions for many, many years. I attended Catholic grammer school, high school and college. Despite what you and most people might think The Bible was not cramed down our thought everyday word for word. It was explained to us a model of how we once lived and how we should live our lives in contemplation. We were always given a well rounded spiritual education whether Cathlic, Jewish, Hinduism or Buddhism and something sparked in me in high school that led me on a journey to explore Eastern Philosophy. While my friends were dismissing their spirituality and classifying themselves athiests, I, through contemplation, was strengthening mine.

It wasn't until college when I began to explore the Dalai Lama and Thomas Merton that I began to understand how the two religions paralleled one another (Chrisitianity and Buddhism). My curiosity to understand this part of my life better has brought on much research, soul searching and self actualization. Buddhism has brought me to places within myself that I never knew exisited. Essentialy it brought me closer to myself and God, if that makes sense, almost the same way lifting weights puts me in better touch with my body. If you want to lable my spirituality I guess you could call me a Christian-Buddhist.

One of the greatest teachings of Buddhism is that life is suffering and life is impermanent and to be truely happy we have to accept that. Therefore I am putting this as far behind me as I can.

Once again I am truely sorry if I offended or disrespected you in any way. I believe greatly in faith, hope and love, the greatest of which is love.


mrmike - 07/06/06 22:48
Good Buddhist, Good Guy -- now this is how you be a person -- Hope the folks at home can see this.
boxerboi - 07/06/06 22:00
for the record, i am implying that you are a good buddhist. :op

07/10/2006 18:10 #25777

Rochester Gay Pride 2006
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matthew - 07/10/06 22:26
very colorful! looks like it was fun. hope you had a good time
jason - 07/10/06 21:13
Wow, that looks 1000 times more fun and festive than our pride day. Then again, I pretty much just catch the parade.

Cool pics! I guess you didn't get a picture of the breasts, but then again it would be rude wouldn't it?
metalpeter - 07/10/06 20:11
Interesting pictures thanks for sharing.

07/08/2006 12:28 #25776

Golden Showers
Shoot! I was just about to say I'm going back to the gym, but then I realized it's Saturday and they are closed. Yesterday I was at the Buddhist Community Center and I was talking to my friend Shannon who is 14. Eventually she asks me "Why do white guys have flat asses?" So of course I'm thinking about my flat ass and how I need to go back to the gym. I used to be in such good shape, but its funny I never was completely happy with my body. I'll do some push ups and sit-ups today and go to the gym on Monday.

I'm going to the gay pride parade in Rochester today. Last year some protesters said that all us gays like golden showers. I know I do.


07/08/2006 12:04 #25775

Ding dong
Someone just rang my doorbell. I didn't go and answer it because I don't like not knowing who it is. Was it the mail person? I dunno, but I hate not being able to peek and see who it is. Last time my doorbell unexpectedly rang , it was my friend Guillermo de Argentina. So I never know what I'm going to get. What if it's someone I really don't want to see? Once I'm down there I'm stuck.
jenks - 07/08/06 14:04
I'm with you... it's like i'm paranoid in my 'old age'. If I don't know who it is (at the door, or on the phone) I won't answer. Have gotten burned by too many credit card calls, jehovah's witnesses at the door. I figure if it's a friend knocking and I don't answer, they'll call.
krayner03 - 07/08/06 13:01
What if it was just a neighbor who needed an egg or something? I good cake may have gone to waste because of you...haha
ladycroft - 07/08/06 12:30
so should i toss pebbles at your window instead?
libertad - 07/08/06 12:05
Guillermo by the way was a nice suprise. We hadn't talked in almost a year.

07/05/2006 21:34 #25774

Ken Lay Conspiracy?
In response to (e:chico) and his Ken Lay post
is there anyone else who doesn't buy this heart attack crap? Is this his final way of ripping us off and committing some kind of insurance fraud? Yes I am a conspiracy theorist, and I don't even know if he has insurance, but it really would be convenient wouldn't it? Lets watch and see how much his wife collects. Could he have took some special pill or something to give himself a heart attack that would be undetectable in an autopsy? What does Dr (e:jenks) think? Scientist (e:chicoschica)? Anyone?
metalpeter - 07/06/06 19:33
Lays death is sure conviently timed and it wouldn't surprise me if others who thought he might blow them in (maybe even the with) could be behind it. All you need is the right Pain Killers (they have killed wrestlers in there sleep with accidential overdoses) and Alchol.

I can't belive I just read a Budhist fight. What ever your differances are please stop. This is something I would expect to see With differant branches of christanity. Dave I know his comments can be Rude sometimes, but don't let them bother you. All I will say is someone who is "enlightend" dosn't call someone else out as not being as enlightend as they are. especally in a religion where being fully enlightend is the goal. That is a Christian Thing (hpyocritical judgers who arn't supposed to judge, you know that whole cast the first stone thing) MRDT that is verry un Budhist of you. In terms of banning someone I don't agree with that, there still is this thing called free speach.
ladycroft - 07/06/06 18:37
for the record, libertad IS a practicing buddhist. i've been with him to a meeting and he even chanted for my baby nephew Max when he was very sick in hospital. end transmission.
jason - 07/06/06 18:17
I also thought by reading Libertad's post that he was an Enron investor, the whole "ripping us off" thing. No reason to get bent out of shape or have shit escalate over it.
hodown - 07/06/06 16:21
Word up, I second (e:) nejifer's comment. Any boy who is crazy about little mikey rocks the casbah in my book!!!
mrdt - 07/06/06 16:15
I still love you too...


nejifer - 07/06/06 16:13
david...don't listen to his bullshit. i think you are one of the nicest people i've ever meet. dt...u are an ignorant bastard and paul should ban you from this site. no one likes the crap that comes out of your mouth, especially since 99% of the time you have no idea what you're talking about! at first i felt bad for all the shit people were giving you. now i believe you deserve it.
mrdt - 07/06/06 15:55
well, first, let me tell you I felt bad that you lost money in the Enron scandal. But now I realize that I misread what you wrote when you stated "is this his final way of ripping us off."


Next, you never mentioned any God damn thing about the fact that me comments annoy you to me. I think you're kidding yourself a little here. Had you actually contacted me and told me that my comments were a little opinionated or annoying, I would have apologized and backed off.


Third, I don't think you know the first thing about being a good buddhist or buddhism in general. It's alot more than sitting in a circle and chatting. For someone who actually understands the philosophy in conjunction with the five pillars and utilizes it to stregthen their own spirituality it can be quite insulting when someone claims to be a buddhist while making it obvious that they don't hold their values in high regard.

Next time you're in a meditating or chanting contemplate on the way you blasted me. Are you a practicing buddhist or do you just like to tell people that? I pointed this out before... I guess it seems the truth hurts.


Talk all the shit you want buddy...it's you who will not be able to release yourself from the cycle of life. I don't really care what you or anyone else thinks about me, I have individuals around the world who love me, accept me in their homes when I travel and call me a their true friend. I don't sugarcoat shit, I talk from my heart and from what I believe in/know to be true.


If I have offended you or disrespected you in any way I am truely sorry, sometimes I can get a little carried away.


I still love you all...
joshua - 07/06/06 13:36
oh, for fuck's sake, the previous comment along with this one were authored by JASON THE ONE AND ONLY. =P
joshua - 07/06/06 13:36
Wow! Libertad's MAD! Hey man, nobody should rattle you that much.

Anyhow, re: Lay - I had the same first reaction. Then I thought of a better conspiracy. What if Cheney had Lay offed, so Lay wouldn't give up any goods on Cheney?

Honestly though, I think the guy just croaked. He did NOT escape justice as far as I'm concerned. There will be more CEO frying in the future, so I'm not so bummed that one got away.
ajay - 07/06/06 11:53
I'm sure there are ways to induce a heart-attack without leaving a trace. Heck, the guy was fairly stressed out anyways (and not because of the potential jail time; but because, like Scrooge, he was worried his precious money would be taken from him).

Is this a fake? I don't think so. Sometimes, these things happen. My only hope is that the anger that people felt will not dissipate and people will go after other such corrupt CEOs with a vengeance. Pass the pitchforks please.
chicoschica - 07/06/06 11:09
chicoschica - 07/06/06 11:01
Methinks that perhaps Lay was hanging out with Slobodan Milosevic, taking rifampicin to counteract his heart medication. (only partially kidding...)

There's at least SOME others who are going whole hog with the conspiracy theory...
:::link:::

I mean, listen, if you had a choice between croaking from a heart attack and calling some guy named "Bubba" your girlfriend - I think perhaps ol' Kenny chose the former.

As Lawrence said in Office Space -
"Watch out for yer cornhole, bud."

libertad - 07/06/06 09:02
here is a nice buddhist comment for you mrdt...shut the fuck up. (for those of you who think that is a bit harsh i all ready privately asked mrdt to stop it w/ his annoying comments. I don't think they were designed just so people could constantly leave aggravating messages in peoples journals. Mrdt you take the joy out of this site for me...thanks
mrdt - 07/06/06 02:03
wow dude, you owned stocks in Enron??? That sucks!!!!
kookcity2000 - 07/05/06 21:52
dude, I work at a juice factory, and in my professional opinion, hes in the Mediteranian somewhere
joshua - 07/05/06 21:50
Medically induced cardiac arrest - hmm. I'm no doc but I'm fairly sure its possible. I'm not a conspiracy theorist but honestly it wouldn't shock me if that nugget of goodness appeared after his autopsy.