Jenks's Journal

01/08/2006 13:35 #23758

random thoughts

haha. Wow. Maybe I have ADD. Or maybe it's alzheimer's, ha. I had thought of a few things I wanted to say. And now I can't remember a single one. Isn't that great.

Hmm. i was probably going to complain about work. Or boys. Or both.

So maybe you're better off for my brain fart.

No motivation to do anything. I should probably take my tree down. I really should study.

Instead I think I will make coffee, watch tv, and listen to music. After all, it's sunday afternoon... I need a little veg time once in a while. Work was a mess last night.

Oh I remembered some of my thoughts. (phew, I was was nervous for a minute.)

There is not much I hate in people more than closed-mindedness/intolerance, in any of its forms- particularly homophobia and religious-right-ism.
I went and saw Brokeback Mountain the other night with (e:theecarey) and (e:ladycroft). It's a touching/tragic love story. So it's about two guys. So what? Big deal. It's still love. When I got home I ran into my landlord/downstairs neighbor's new husband. I'd always thought he was a really cool guy. Always nice and really helpful, fixes stuff around the house, offers to help with groceries etc. I thought he was a real stand-up guy. So I ran into him, he asked how things were going, etc, I said I'd been to the movies, when he asked what we saw, I told him, and he goes "oh, yeah... isn't that the gay cowboy movie?" then elbows his friend and goes 'yeah, dan was the star of that one!" and they howl with laughter. Oh.... yeah.... I forgot, the 'call your friend gay' jokes are SO funny. Ick.
It's amazing to me how one stupid comment can completely change my opinion of someone.

I guess I will leave you with this picture of me... it was taken this summer, and the chick that took it just figured out how to download her pix and sent it to me, so I've never seen it til now. I think it's a little funny since it's not the typical smiley-face picture I usually let people take. I swear I look exactly the same in every single "smile for the camera" pic I have; kind of amusing. Looks very intense. ha. Don't mean to sound vain; I just think the pic is kind of funny. (and, I usually don't like pix of myself.) It's also a very rare picture of me and the ex; there are only about 3 in existence.

mike - 05/26/07 22:04
and that is totally like the highest honor I can bestow on someone!

mike - 05/26/07 22:03
wow i've been going back and reading old journals. this picture looks so tv -esque. It seems like a shot from a riveting show. Seriuosly you look very tv actress like here.

jenks - 01/10/06 06:50
wow, thanks for the analysis everyone. No Ajay, it was months more before we broke up. And he broke up with me; I didn't want to. And I don't think I was pissed at him that night; then again there were often little things pissing me off, so maybe i was...

ajay - 01/10/06 00:49
OK, I'll chime in too. This is all to be taken with a grain of salt, of course.

I see conflict in the picture. Like you're attracted to him, and yet at the same time pissed off at him. He's bending down (a little) to look into your eyes; as if he's trying to reach out to you. Your right shoulder is turned away from him; like you're preparing to leave. Did you break up (or decide to break up) soon after this picture was taken?

metalpeter - 01/09/06 19:54
My sister (who is stright) went to see that movie with her gay friends, she said it was good. I have no interest in seeing a love story about cowboys. Now if it where a western shoot em up movie and As one of the guys as he slowly dies from a gun shot or Rattle Snake bit admits his love to a member of his gang as a last favor he admits his true love back then blows him then after the BJ he dies in his arms. Then he has to seak revenge then fine. If it was graffic it wouldn't bother me. But a love story about Cowboys isn't my thing. I have learned over the years that someone can be a stand up person and be prejudiced at the same time. It is my beleif that 99.9% of the people in the world are in some form. You have Religion (muslums, jews, and christians think the others are going to hell), sexual orintation, gender, skin color, country of origin/desendants and cultrual differances. It is how you feal about people it is how you treat them. The real question is what would the guy do if you where with a gay guy and other people started harrasing you. I'm guessing he would step up and protect you.

jenks - 01/08/06 16:05
I remember the night; not the particular convo. It was one of the few times we were out "in public" together. I can't tell if I look pissed, or like I'm about to kiss him, ha. I like the light in my hair though.

theecarey - 01/08/06 15:59
It is an intriguing picture. With it being randomly shot there is so much information coming through that a regular, "say cheese" picture wouldn't capture. The picture quality is very clear as well, like that of a still movie frame, enhancing its authenticity. A moment in conversation, the personal exchange of thoughts between two people are suspended forever. Thats wild. Do you remember this conversation?

ladycroft - 01/08/06 15:47
candids are always the best if you can capture them.

01/06/2006 22:55 #23757

noooooo

I had just written a big post and it got lost b/c "mysql server is down" or something.
Boo! And since I don't have the energy to retype it all- here's an outline.

I: I wish I could quit you!
A. i feel that way about someone
B. saw brokeback mtn tonight. it was/did
1. good
2. well done
3. sad
4. not have as many hot sex scenes as I was hoping for

II: I'm on a roll!
A: met another peep tonight- (e:theecarey).
1. yay
B: makes me wonder:
1. who's next?
a. any takers?

III: Permission denied!
A: was reading craigslist today.
1. Very funny (sometimes), i recommend it. see link --->
B: the topic was raised that you need
1. a license
2. to reach a minimum age
3. to take a test
4. to pass a course
5. to pay money
C: to do so many things in life. Like:
1. drink
2. drive
3. vote
4. get married
5. run the fryolator at mcdonalds.
D: but- having kids is totally unregulated.
1. obviously a huge ethical can of worms.
2. but deserves some thought.
a. seeing the babies born 3m early to a 14yr old is terrible.
b. we have driver's ed, why not (mandatory) parenting 101?

i haven't written an outline since high school. My apologies to anyone who might actually notice/care if I did it all wrong.

doh, all my indents didn't come through and my html is too rusty to try to fix it. (and i don't even know if that's how I WOULD fix it here.) It was much funnier in real cascading-indent outline format.

ladycroft - 01/07/06 21:30
yah, i'd have voted a few more love scenes in myself, but they were hot nonetheless!

jenks - 01/07/06 18:06
Yeah, I usually do hit cmd-c before clicking publish, but of course this time I didn't. Ah well.

joshua - 01/07/06 14:59
I'm not home much and when I am, I usually act like a hermit for a few days. I'm visible around the 'hood. There should be a peep get-together soon. :)

theecarey - 01/07/06 01:41
I have lost big posts.. I have lost small witty ones.. I try to remember to plug it into Word first. Trying to redo what was written, with the same passion or humor, is flattened, the second time around.
But I like the outline. Haven't used one, really, since sixth grade, so I am not sure of the correct format.
I might adopt it for times when I have oodles on my brain, but no real direction or time in which to think or write.
Hopefully you will get to filling in the details..

paul - 01/06/06 23:56
I would say in the future to be safe always copy any really long text before posting to the internet. Because the connection is open, close ,open ,close, you never know what is next when you hit submit. There is never a guarantee teh web site site will even be there when you hit submit.

It happens a lot with my webmail because the session times out befoer I finsih writing and then I hit submit and it takes me back to the login page.

01/06/2006 17:23 #23756

(for ladycroft)
Category: freudian

not the best pic, but the only one i've got.

ajay - 01/06/06 22:03
All I can say is: RRRRrrrrrrr! ;-)

paul - 01/06/06 19:43
This is so funny, I was looking through your pics on your mac site and I was liek, oh, that girl is friends with alex. I wonder if she is why alex quit, but then you are alex? Or am I crazy? Check my journal, maybe you can give me some advice on the toe?

ladycroft - 01/06/06 17:28
Well done, haha! Always a favorite in the grad psych program :)

01/05/2006 15:44 #23755

Outed!
Category: e:cherry

Ok (e:peeps). I did it. Met a real live estripper in the flesh. woohoo. (thanks for lunch, (e:ladycroft)). So that's it, my cover is blown. I guess now I can stop playing the semi-anonymous game I was trying to play. Hence the full-face pic (I know the suspense was killing you.)
So to introduce myself- my name is Alex(is). (Jenks is my middle name).
I filled out my profile a little less generically if anyone is interested.
Not sure what else to say, but Hi!
Bring it on peeps, I ain't scared of ya!

-A

edit: ok, well I TRIED to update my profile, but for some reason it won't stick. Ok, now it does. All fixed.

edit 2: and just to come clean (like it matters)- I had another short-lived account here, under Alex. One and the same. Phew, now all my secrets are out. ;)

metalpeter - 01/05/06 19:00
First of all alex thanks for putting up the pic. I have to admit seeing just your eye then just the smile I did wonder what you looked like. I thought what if I was walking down elmwood and checked her out and didn't know it was her. I was anyomous for a verry long time my self and had the default face up for a long time. Glad you met you first (e:peep).

ladycroft - 01/05/06 18:03
pleasure! that place was great, i loved the soup! great to finally meet you :)

joshua - 01/05/06 18:01
Ajay refers to himself! Hehe, jk e-brother.

Jenks is very smart and she knows how to wield sharp objects with precision. Don't mess with her, and if she demands free donuts that were going to be thrown out anyway my advice is to just GIVE THEM UP! Don't gamble your life away when hungry surgery residents are involved.

Anyway, seeing your new avatar pic makes me want to get a new one ready.

ajay - 01/05/06 16:54
There's nothing to be scared of here! We're one big happy family (and, like any big family, we have our share of troublemakers ;) ).
Welcome aboard.

01/04/2006 00:39 #23754

Rave: awesome christmas presents
Category: not-studying

(God I have a serious procrastination problem.)

After "i'm just going to check my email for 5 min" turned into hours online (much of which spent in (e:strip) chat), I finally decided it was time to study. But that book is just SOOO big and boring and daunting, and the test isn't for three weeks... So I decided it was time for a shower, then time for a cup of thera-flu (yum, medicine-y). Now it's time to post.

And since I feel that all I ever do is bitch and moan on here, I thought I'd rave about something positive. Awesome Christmas presents.

I must say that at first I was a little disappointed by the lack of techno-toys under the tree. But then I realized that 1: i am being a spoiled brat 2: I already HAVE every techno-toy they make, which makes it hard to give me more.

So as time goes by, I am realizing how great some of the other stuff is.

In no particular order:
1: my talking Kip Dynamite doll from my sister. "Napolean... don't be jealous just because i've been chatting with babes online ALL day..."
2: my super low-tech cappuccino machine (very un-me). I just think that a $3100 coffee maker (i swear, i saw it in williams-sonoma) is absurd. And I got this little one with no moving parts- a new version of those little silver stovetop italian "moka" espresso machines. It's awesome. The jury is still out on the coffee it makes, but I love the machine. ;)
3: a heated towel rack. Totally random gift. One of those utterly unnecessary luxuries. I mean NO one needs a heated towel rack. But man, is it nice.
4: a cashmere robe. In all honesty, I think this was a random TJ Maxx purchase that my mom found at the last second and didn't know who to give it to. And I thought "yeah ok great I don't wear robes" and I pushed it aside. But I must say, over the last few weeks I've become a convert... It's getting to the point that the minute i walk in my door I start stripping... leaving a trail of clothes on the floor, and put on the robe. Then after a while I think "i should probably get dressed". Then I think "nah... why get dressed. I've got cashmere."

Ok, who am I kidding. No studying is going to happen tonight. (I just thought I'd "get into bed and study." HA. That does not work.) So I guess I'll head to bed.

'Night all.

-J