Ugh.
I just got home from work. At 2am. Went in at 7am this morning.
Have to be back at 7am tomorrow- until noon on saturday.
They are killing me.
And taking a sick day/personal day/etc is not an option.
the thing is, one of the guys there until 2 with me had been there since 7am the day before: i.e. about 43 hours, and he has to be back at 7 tomorrow too. And the "boss" that had been in operating from 5am til 2am: well it was his 20th wedding anniversary, and he didn't see his wife for one minute of it.
So it's not just me that's getting screwed, but it's really wearing me down.
I know i know i chose this and there's no one to blame but me, but god it sucks. I love what I do, but not being abused like this.
the other thing is that it's totally illegal. And at $25,000 per violation, you'd think they'd be a little more careful to at least TRY. Like the other hospitals know we stay too late, but they yell at us about it. They know we're not supposed to be there. But tonight there was no apology, no thank you, no nothing.
Ok that's not true. I got half a hot dog from louie's.
Ok, considering my 30hr day starts in about 4hr I guess I should go to bed.
6wk down, 12 to go...
oh yeah- and maybe i'm just overtired and cranky, but i just got an email that someone left me a comment on myspace, and i checked it out- andrew wrote "go back to friendster, bitch!" Now, i'm all for friendly ribbing and stuff, but there's nothing to that to even hint that's it's a joke. I assume it is, but I don't really see the point. I think he probably just wants to see if i reject the comment or not. stupid.
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01/13/2006 02:28 #23760
rantrantrantCategory: abuse
01/10/2006 06:53 #23759
secretsCategory: quickie
Going to be late for work; but-
For the record, I am not a fan of high-schoolish drama and secrets either. However I did have my reasons for remaining partially hidden that I can't/won't go into here.
Just in case anyone was wondering.
Have a great day peeps!
For the record, I am not a fan of high-schoolish drama and secrets either. However I did have my reasons for remaining partially hidden that I can't/won't go into here.
Just in case anyone was wondering.
Have a great day peeps!
01/08/2006 13:35 #23758
random thoughtshaha. Wow. Maybe I have ADD. Or maybe it's alzheimer's, ha. I had thought of a few things I wanted to say. And now I can't remember a single one. Isn't that great.
Hmm. i was probably going to complain about work. Or boys. Or both.
So maybe you're better off for my brain fart.
No motivation to do anything. I should probably take my tree down. I really should study.
Instead I think I will make coffee, watch tv, and listen to music. After all, it's sunday afternoon... I need a little veg time once in a while. Work was a mess last night.
Oh I remembered some of my thoughts. (phew, I was was nervous for a minute.)
There is not much I hate in people more than closed-mindedness/intolerance, in any of its forms- particularly homophobia and religious-right-ism.
I went and saw Brokeback Mountain the other night with (e:theecarey) and (e:ladycroft). It's a touching/tragic love story. So it's about two guys. So what? Big deal. It's still love. When I got home I ran into my landlord/downstairs neighbor's new husband. I'd always thought he was a really cool guy. Always nice and really helpful, fixes stuff around the house, offers to help with groceries etc. I thought he was a real stand-up guy. So I ran into him, he asked how things were going, etc, I said I'd been to the movies, when he asked what we saw, I told him, and he goes "oh, yeah... isn't that the gay cowboy movie?" then elbows his friend and goes 'yeah, dan was the star of that one!" and they howl with laughter. Oh.... yeah.... I forgot, the 'call your friend gay' jokes are SO funny. Ick.
It's amazing to me how one stupid comment can completely change my opinion of someone.
I guess I will leave you with this picture of me... it was taken this summer, and the chick that took it just figured out how to download her pix and sent it to me, so I've never seen it til now. I think it's a little funny since it's not the typical smiley-face picture I usually let people take. I swear I look exactly the same in every single "smile for the camera" pic I have; kind of amusing. Looks very intense. ha. Don't mean to sound vain; I just think the pic is kind of funny. (and, I usually don't like pix of myself.) It's also a very rare picture of me and the ex; there are only about 3 in existence.
Hmm. i was probably going to complain about work. Or boys. Or both.
So maybe you're better off for my brain fart.
No motivation to do anything. I should probably take my tree down. I really should study.
Instead I think I will make coffee, watch tv, and listen to music. After all, it's sunday afternoon... I need a little veg time once in a while. Work was a mess last night.
Oh I remembered some of my thoughts. (phew, I was was nervous for a minute.)
There is not much I hate in people more than closed-mindedness/intolerance, in any of its forms- particularly homophobia and religious-right-ism.
I went and saw Brokeback Mountain the other night with (e:theecarey) and (e:ladycroft). It's a touching/tragic love story. So it's about two guys. So what? Big deal. It's still love. When I got home I ran into my landlord/downstairs neighbor's new husband. I'd always thought he was a really cool guy. Always nice and really helpful, fixes stuff around the house, offers to help with groceries etc. I thought he was a real stand-up guy. So I ran into him, he asked how things were going, etc, I said I'd been to the movies, when he asked what we saw, I told him, and he goes "oh, yeah... isn't that the gay cowboy movie?" then elbows his friend and goes 'yeah, dan was the star of that one!" and they howl with laughter. Oh.... yeah.... I forgot, the 'call your friend gay' jokes are SO funny. Ick.
It's amazing to me how one stupid comment can completely change my opinion of someone.
I guess I will leave you with this picture of me... it was taken this summer, and the chick that took it just figured out how to download her pix and sent it to me, so I've never seen it til now. I think it's a little funny since it's not the typical smiley-face picture I usually let people take. I swear I look exactly the same in every single "smile for the camera" pic I have; kind of amusing. Looks very intense. ha. Don't mean to sound vain; I just think the pic is kind of funny. (and, I usually don't like pix of myself.) It's also a very rare picture of me and the ex; there are only about 3 in existence.
mike - 05/26/07 22:04
and that is totally like the highest honor I can bestow on someone!
and that is totally like the highest honor I can bestow on someone!
mike - 05/26/07 22:03
wow i've been going back and reading old journals. this picture looks so tv -esque. It seems like a shot from a riveting show. Seriuosly you look very tv actress like here.
wow i've been going back and reading old journals. this picture looks so tv -esque. It seems like a shot from a riveting show. Seriuosly you look very tv actress like here.
jenks - 01/10/06 06:50
wow, thanks for the analysis everyone. No Ajay, it was months more before we broke up. And he broke up with me; I didn't want to. And I don't think I was pissed at him that night; then again there were often little things pissing me off, so maybe i was...
wow, thanks for the analysis everyone. No Ajay, it was months more before we broke up. And he broke up with me; I didn't want to. And I don't think I was pissed at him that night; then again there were often little things pissing me off, so maybe i was...
ajay - 01/10/06 00:49
OK, I'll chime in too. This is all to be taken with a grain of salt, of course.
I see conflict in the picture. Like you're attracted to him, and yet at the same time pissed off at him. He's bending down (a little) to look into your eyes; as if he's trying to reach out to you. Your right shoulder is turned away from him; like you're preparing to leave. Did you break up (or decide to break up) soon after this picture was taken?
OK, I'll chime in too. This is all to be taken with a grain of salt, of course.
I see conflict in the picture. Like you're attracted to him, and yet at the same time pissed off at him. He's bending down (a little) to look into your eyes; as if he's trying to reach out to you. Your right shoulder is turned away from him; like you're preparing to leave. Did you break up (or decide to break up) soon after this picture was taken?
metalpeter - 01/09/06 19:54
My sister (who is stright) went to see that movie with her gay friends, she said it was good. I have no interest in seeing a love story about cowboys. Now if it where a western shoot em up movie and As one of the guys as he slowly dies from a gun shot or Rattle Snake bit admits his love to a member of his gang as a last favor he admits his true love back then blows him then after the BJ he dies in his arms. Then he has to seak revenge then fine. If it was graffic it wouldn't bother me. But a love story about Cowboys isn't my thing. I have learned over the years that someone can be a stand up person and be prejudiced at the same time. It is my beleif that 99.9% of the people in the world are in some form. You have Religion (muslums, jews, and christians think the others are going to hell), sexual orintation, gender, skin color, country of origin/desendants and cultrual differances. It is how you feal about people it is how you treat them. The real question is what would the guy do if you where with a gay guy and other people started harrasing you. I'm guessing he would step up and protect you.
My sister (who is stright) went to see that movie with her gay friends, she said it was good. I have no interest in seeing a love story about cowboys. Now if it where a western shoot em up movie and As one of the guys as he slowly dies from a gun shot or Rattle Snake bit admits his love to a member of his gang as a last favor he admits his true love back then blows him then after the BJ he dies in his arms. Then he has to seak revenge then fine. If it was graffic it wouldn't bother me. But a love story about Cowboys isn't my thing. I have learned over the years that someone can be a stand up person and be prejudiced at the same time. It is my beleif that 99.9% of the people in the world are in some form. You have Religion (muslums, jews, and christians think the others are going to hell), sexual orintation, gender, skin color, country of origin/desendants and cultrual differances. It is how you feal about people it is how you treat them. The real question is what would the guy do if you where with a gay guy and other people started harrasing you. I'm guessing he would step up and protect you.
jenks - 01/08/06 16:05
I remember the night; not the particular convo. It was one of the few times we were out "in public" together. I can't tell if I look pissed, or like I'm about to kiss him, ha. I like the light in my hair though.
I remember the night; not the particular convo. It was one of the few times we were out "in public" together. I can't tell if I look pissed, or like I'm about to kiss him, ha. I like the light in my hair though.
theecarey - 01/08/06 15:59
It is an intriguing picture. With it being randomly shot there is so much information coming through that a regular, "say cheese" picture wouldn't capture. The picture quality is very clear as well, like that of a still movie frame, enhancing its authenticity. A moment in conversation, the personal exchange of thoughts between two people are suspended forever. Thats wild. Do you remember this conversation?
It is an intriguing picture. With it being randomly shot there is so much information coming through that a regular, "say cheese" picture wouldn't capture. The picture quality is very clear as well, like that of a still movie frame, enhancing its authenticity. A moment in conversation, the personal exchange of thoughts between two people are suspended forever. Thats wild. Do you remember this conversation?
ladycroft - 01/08/06 15:47
candids are always the best if you can capture them.
candids are always the best if you can capture them.
01/06/2006 22:55 #23757
nooooooI had just written a big post and it got lost b/c "mysql server is down" or something.
Boo! And since I don't have the energy to retype it all- here's an outline.
I: I wish I could quit you!
A. i feel that way about someone
B. saw brokeback mtn tonight. it was/did
1. good
2. well done
3. sad
4. not have as many hot sex scenes as I was hoping for
II: I'm on a roll!
A: met another peep tonight- (e:theecarey).
1. yay
B: makes me wonder:
1. who's next?
a. any takers?
III: Permission denied!
A: was reading craigslist today.
1. Very funny (sometimes), i recommend it. see link --->
B: the topic was raised that you need
1. a license
2. to reach a minimum age
3. to take a test
4. to pass a course
5. to pay money
C: to do so many things in life. Like:
1. drink
2. drive
3. vote
4. get married
5. run the fryolator at mcdonalds.
D: but- having kids is totally unregulated.
1. obviously a huge ethical can of worms.
2. but deserves some thought.
a. seeing the babies born 3m early to a 14yr old is terrible.
b. we have driver's ed, why not (mandatory) parenting 101?
Boo! And since I don't have the energy to retype it all- here's an outline.
I: I wish I could quit you!
A. i feel that way about someone
B. saw brokeback mtn tonight. it was/did
1. good
2. well done
3. sad
4. not have as many hot sex scenes as I was hoping for
II: I'm on a roll!
A: met another peep tonight- (e:theecarey).
1. yay
B: makes me wonder:
1. who's next?
a. any takers?
III: Permission denied!
A: was reading craigslist today.
1. Very funny (sometimes), i recommend it. see link --->
B: the topic was raised that you need
1. a license
2. to reach a minimum age
3. to take a test
4. to pass a course
5. to pay money
C: to do so many things in life. Like:
1. drink
2. drive
3. vote
4. get married
5. run the fryolator at mcdonalds.
D: but- having kids is totally unregulated.
1. obviously a huge ethical can of worms.
2. but deserves some thought.
a. seeing the babies born 3m early to a 14yr old is terrible.
b. we have driver's ed, why not (mandatory) parenting 101?
- i haven't written an outline since high school. My apologies to anyone who might actually notice/care if I did it all wrong.
- doh, all my indents didn't come through and my html is too rusty to try to fix it. (and i don't even know if that's how I WOULD fix it here.) It was much funnier in real cascading-indent outline format.
ladycroft - 01/07/06 21:30
yah, i'd have voted a few more love scenes in myself, but they were hot nonetheless!
yah, i'd have voted a few more love scenes in myself, but they were hot nonetheless!
jenks - 01/07/06 18:06
Yeah, I usually do hit cmd-c before clicking publish, but of course this time I didn't. Ah well.
Yeah, I usually do hit cmd-c before clicking publish, but of course this time I didn't. Ah well.
joshua - 01/07/06 14:59
I'm not home much and when I am, I usually act like a hermit for a few days. I'm visible around the 'hood. There should be a peep get-together soon. :)
I'm not home much and when I am, I usually act like a hermit for a few days. I'm visible around the 'hood. There should be a peep get-together soon. :)
theecarey - 01/07/06 01:41
I have lost big posts.. I have lost small witty ones.. I try to remember to plug it into Word first. Trying to redo what was written, with the same passion or humor, is flattened, the second time around.
But I like the outline. Haven't used one, really, since sixth grade, so I am not sure of the correct format.
I might adopt it for times when I have oodles on my brain, but no real direction or time in which to think or write.
Hopefully you will get to filling in the details..
I have lost big posts.. I have lost small witty ones.. I try to remember to plug it into Word first. Trying to redo what was written, with the same passion or humor, is flattened, the second time around.
But I like the outline. Haven't used one, really, since sixth grade, so I am not sure of the correct format.
I might adopt it for times when I have oodles on my brain, but no real direction or time in which to think or write.
Hopefully you will get to filling in the details..
paul - 01/06/06 23:56
I would say in the future to be safe always copy any really long text before posting to the internet. Because the connection is open, close ,open ,close, you never know what is next when you hit submit. There is never a guarantee teh web site site will even be there when you hit submit.
It happens a lot with my webmail because the session times out befoer I finsih writing and then I hit submit and it takes me back to the login page.
I would say in the future to be safe always copy any really long text before posting to the internet. Because the connection is open, close ,open ,close, you never know what is next when you hit submit. There is never a guarantee teh web site site will even be there when you hit submit.
It happens a lot with my webmail because the session times out befoer I finsih writing and then I hit submit and it takes me back to the login page.
01/06/2006 17:23 #23756
(for ladycroft)Category: freudian
not the best pic, but the only one i've got.
ajay - 01/06/06 22:03
All I can say is: RRRRrrrrrrr! ;-)
All I can say is: RRRRrrrrrrr! ;-)
paul - 01/06/06 19:43
This is so funny, I was looking through your pics on your mac site and I was liek, oh, that girl is friends with alex. I wonder if she is why alex quit, but then you are alex? Or am I crazy? Check my journal, maybe you can give me some advice on the toe?
This is so funny, I was looking through your pics on your mac site and I was liek, oh, that girl is friends with alex. I wonder if she is why alex quit, but then you are alex? Or am I crazy? Check my journal, maybe you can give me some advice on the toe?
ladycroft - 01/06/06 17:28
Well done, haha! Always a favorite in the grad psych program :)
Well done, haha! Always a favorite in the grad psych program :)
Are you talking about your schools requirement for duty hour restrictions?
yeah i think you do have to be friends to leave comments- this guy is a friend- on myspace and in real life. which is why his comment is even more weird.
That is odd. I thought that to leave a comment on someones page you had to be one of there friends. I have tried to leave comments on non friends and it didn't let me. Maybe some day I'll run into you on myspace.
I miss the late-night run for Louie's veggieburgers... :-(