Oh my gosh! Could this be the second time in a week I've agreed with Ajay 100% in a post? This calls for a celebration! Ahem....I've been doing my own "research" on the "marketing" on Elmwood recently. That type of advertising works really well on me for some reason.

Oh, and (e:Amanda) - why can't guys and girls just be friends? Because inevitably the guy wants to bone the girl. Hate to be crude but that's the way it works about 3/4 of the time. It reminds me of the time my ex girlfriend had a "friend" who ended up with his hands up her skirt at a wedding reception. Yeah, I'm trying to get over the shame and embarrassment of that still. Anyhow hope this answers your question!

Jason

Just kidding. I thought that in the spirit of celebrating death I would post something about PJP2 passing. Poor bastard. If I'm lucky I'll live as long as he did. If I drank anymore I'd pour out some liquor! Maybe I'll just buy a beer and pour it on the floor of the bar. Yeah, that would be nice.

Jason

Nope, can't sleep. There are some new life changes which will be taking effect starting Tuesday. I don't remember ever being this scared in my life. I've performed in front of 3,000 people. I've done a number of things that made me afraid but nothing like this before.

You see all of us have weaknesses and faults. I wish I could tell you guys more but it's very personal, in fact some of it is too personal to put on my blog. Well first of all, (e:Ajay) I'm sorry but I can't have beer with you. Two weeks ago we could have had some laughs over a Guinness but I can't drink alcohol or do drugs anymore. You see I've been doing too much of that over the past few months. That's a problem in and of itself, but the underlying reason for it is what really concerns me. It's about escapism and avoiding real life issues that need to be resolved. It's about trying to find happiness and satisfaction in a bottle or in a bag of weed. It's about enjoying life to the fullest without poisoning my body. Now I'm not saying we can't chill out at the bar sometime. I'd love that, but we'll have to replace my Guinness with a Shirley Temple, or hopefully some other kind of N/A creation of my own.

So starting this week I am making some life changes and doing things to help myself become a better Jason. I'm excited but also so scared I can't sleep a wink. I don't know if I have the kind of discipline and strength it is going to take to straighten me out. I don't know if I can do this. I've never had to do anything so difficult before. I know I'll come out of it on top of my game, but do I have what it takes to get there? Will I enjoy the simple things again? I understand basically all of you will most likely not interact with me in any other way but e-strip, but please please please don't let me slip. I have a feeling I'll need all the help I can find. I'll be posting very bad poetry versions of what's going on in my head from time to time until I'm Pre-2001 Jason again.

Jason

I know, I really shouldn't feel that way. You know what, I'm going to leave all that behind. The bottom line is that I'm one of the most charming mofos on the planet. And having a baby face means nobody can stay mad at me. I'm so darn cute! Basically I'm the bee's knees. The thing is, I censor myself a lot here now. The numbers are against me, and I was foolish for thinking that people would be open to any ideas from me. I have some ideas that I think would work for the vast majority of people when it comes to certain social issues.

Let's take gay marriage for instance, something I have never spoken about on this site. What if there is a solution out there that will make most religious people happy, and will guarantee all couples legal rights and protections, regardless of the kind of relationship they have? You see I don't come down on the side of the far right or the far left here, but if I don't fall directly in line with either I'll get torched. I know there are people on this site for who this issue is very personal. I want to do something that will work for just about everyone. But I won't elaborate any further because I know about 97% of the people here want nothing to do with any idea that doesn't go along with the far left.

Anyway thanks Ajay for the kind words. I don't take any ribbing too seriously. When I was young my friends were all 3-4 years older and treated me like a younger brother as well as a friend. Although I was raised to love and respect women, they made sure to let me know my ass was as good as kicked if I ever disrespected a woman. They also taught me to think a step ahead by playing games with me where if I gave a wrong answer or didn't act quick enough I got a nice bruise on my arm. Man that fucking hurt, btw. It was tough love, but they were also some of the most skilled ribbers I've ever met to date. Those guys were/are so hilarious. They would mess with me about things that are a lot more personal than political beliefs. My ex girlfriend was also one of the meanest bitches alive when she wanted to be. If I'm tough enough to make it through that, I can take pretty much take anything. I like to get my shots in too every now and then. Who doesn't?

Jason

As a result nobody here particularly cares about me, and that's fine. That kinda happens when you don't know anyone. Since that's the case I might as well get one really good rant off before the site becomes a "friends only" type of operation (by the way Paul I don't begrudge you for wanting your site to be managed however you see fit).

Actually I wonder if it's worth my time. Writing is very therapeutic for me but talking about being the fun guy women want to be with while young vs. the guy a girl settles down with is something that probably not too many people care about. Some guys are just happy to get a whiff of attention. Gay dudes couldn't care less about relationships between men and women (I imagine). Most women either don't see a problem or don't want anything changed. I'll die alone before I let myself become a walking wallet with a cock. There, that's as far as I'm willing to go with it for now.

Jason