I'm feeling so shitty lately. I want to run away, somewhere where no one will ever find me. not my friends, not my family. I feel stuck. like I will never get to live out what I wanted. its time to realize that my life will never be what I had hope it would be. and I have no one to blame but my self.

finally got the house in order, not without a fight with my mom, but all nice and pretty never the less.

I wish I had scandalous things to post like other people on here but my life is boring. oh wait, I did have scandalous things but they were waaaay too scandalous to post. so I will just talk about my christmas decorations.

thanks (e:enknot) for the great party! it was loads of fun, although i don't recall you getting birthday spanks with the wooden spoon. is (e:lilho) loosing sight of her responsibilities?

and also, now you can be sure that if youre ever stranded with me in the arid desert; dehydrated, dilerious and near death, you can always rely on my repulsive mom boobs to miraculously save us from certain death.

i don't think i've ever had a man say eewwww, with a look of complete and utter disgust, while looking at my chest. thanks for giving me a complex i never knew i had.

i got a message from (e:ladycroft) asking about who she got for secret santa since the party she thought we were exchanging presents at was tomorrow.

the party at which presents will be exchanged is the party (e:pmt) is supposed to have for the holidays, sometime between xmas and new years.

since i had the unexpected trial that i had to sit though all this week, i have not been able to do quite a few things i had on my schedule. i will get to everyone's secret santa info out next week. well, actually i'm not the one who will be doing the selecting, but you will all get post-its about who got whom.

the trial has ended. the defendant was found not guilty on all 7 counts. 2 attempted murder charges, 2 unlawful possession of deadly weapon, 2 assault charges and one menacing charge. although all of the jurors thought the guy most likely did it, there wasnt enough evidence to convict him of the charges.

i could not even believe the DA even decided to bring this to trial. it was such a weak case. no weapon, no motive, no identification of the vehicle from which the shootings occurred, and only one eye witness, the plaintiff who was shot, as the only evidence. AND on top of it all, the plaintiff had pending charges against him for shooting the defendants cousin just this past month. both of them were in custody at the erie county holding center.

it was kinda neat at the end of the trial because the the supreme court judge came in to the jury room and chatted with us and answered any questions we may have had. like why was there so little evidence, and why werent we allowed to know certain things, and why were things done the way they were. he was mad cool and this way an interesting experience. we were treated like royalty. every time we entered or left the room everyone stood up. everyone stared at us (which could be good or bad) and avoided us in the hallways.

monday its back to the same ole grind. trying to catch up with everything that might have fallen apart while i was gone.

the holidays are coming up and i have no idea as to what to buy anyone for christmas. my daughter dosnt deserve anything, not because of her behavior, but because of her grades. i know she wants the new zelda game, and thankfully they make it for gamecube still. she will definitely not be getting a wii, nor will she be getting a replacement MP3 that i smashed to pieces when she pissed me the hell off. NOR will she be going to japan in the summer as promised if she got good grades. i have never met a lazier person in my entire life.

plus my mother,s birth day is coming up on the 11th. i am only buying presents for....my mother, my stepfather, my daughter, my b/f, and my secret santa. that's it, 5 people. not like the average american, that shops for like....20? what is the exact number for that? anyone know?

if i had time, i would have painted some pots for my co workers and filled them with stuff. they would have made such cute presents. i also had to turn down an order for twelve pots for xmas, because of time constraints. (e:pmt) you should consider yourself lucky that you one of the only original yvonne pots out there! (not that you care all that much, but i like to think so!)

ok, peace out peeps. i shall see you at the party tomorrow. how much money should i bring with me? how much will the drinks cost?

i got a message from (e:ladycroft) asking about who she got for secret santa since the party she thought we were exchanging presents at was tomorrow.

the party at which presents will be exchanged is the party (e:pmt) is supposed to have for the holidays, sometime between xmas and new years.

since i had the unexpected trial that i had to sit though all this week, i have not been able to do quite a few things i had on my schedule. i will get to everyone's secret santa info out next week. well, actually i'm not the one who will be doing the selecting, but you will all get post-its about who got whom.

the trial has ended. the defendant was found not guilty on all 7 counts. 2 attempted murder charges, 2 unlawful possession of deadly weapon, 2 assault charges and one menacing charge. although all of the jurors thought the guy most likely did it, there wasnt enough evidence to convict him of the charges.

i could not even believe the DA even decided to bring this to trial. it was such a weak case. no weapon, no motive, no identification of the vehicle from which the shootings occurred, and only one eye witness, the plaintiff who was shot, as the only evidence. AND on top of it all, the plaintiff had pending charges against him for shooting the defendants cousin just this past month. both of them were in custody at the erie county holding center.

it was kinda neat at the end of the trial because the the supreme court judge came in to the jury room and chatted with us and answered any questions we may have had. like why was there so little evidence, and why werent we allowed to know certain things, and why were things done the way they were. he was mad cool and this way an interesting experience. we were treated like royalty. every time we entered or left the room everyone stood up. everyone stared at us (which could be good or bad) and avoided us in the hallways.

monday its back to the same ole grind. trying to catch up with everything that might have fallen apart while i was gone.

the holidays are coming up and i have no idea as to what to buy anyone for christmas. my daughter dosnt deserve anything, not because of her behavior, but because of her grades. i know she wants the new zelda game, and thankfully they make it for gamecube still. she will definitely not be getting a wii, nor will she be getting a replacement MP3 that i smashed to pieces when she pissed me the hell off. NOR will she be going to japan in the summer as promised if she got good grades. i have never met a lazier person in my entire life.

plus my mothers birth day is coming up on the 11th. i am only buying presents for....my mother, my stepfather, my daughter, my b/f, and my secret santa. that's it, 5 people. not like the average american, that shops for like....20? what is the exact number for that? anyone know?

if i had time, i would have painted some pots for my co workers and filled them with stuff. they would have made such cute presents. i also had to turn down an order for twelve pots for xmas, because of time constraints. (e:pmt) you should consider yourself lucky that you one of the only original yvonne pots out there! (not that you care all that much, but i like to think so!)

ok, peace out peeps. i shall see you at the party tomorrow. how much money should i bring with me? how much will the drinks be costing?