my friend has been blowing up my phone all day and not leaving a message. thinking she just wanted to go out to eat, i ignored her, until i realized that she never calls more than once a day and usually leaves a message.

when i called back, she greeted me with the news that our mutual friend working here in the states from germany, was arrested for vehicular homicide. he killed a 33 year old father of 3 while driving drunk. slammed right into his car when he crossed the double yellow line. he himself has two children who live in europe.

his company posted bond at $100,000. but there is no getting around anything here. he will be doing a minimum of eight years. we are devistated. for the man who lost his life. for his children, and for the stupid choices my friend made and for his grim future. you can read the news here

so another symptom of the asperger syndrome, besides all the social and emotional stuff, is physical clumsiness. i bring this up because i received a phone call from faben's school today saying she tripped in the classroom and as she fell, she put her hand through the glass breaking the entire window.

luckily she is ok, and only has a surface cut. i asked the principal if she cried when this happened (i seriously doubted she would show any emotion) and she said she was not upset at all and was only fascinated by her bleeding hand.

we have an appointment with the psychiatrist for the asperger evaluation on june 5th.

i miss the 90's and the alternative rock/grunge music. it seems like everything was so much simpler then and i should have lived in seattle and been a hippie. but why did so many of the 90's musicians commit suicide?

Yesssssss.....Leto is coming back on the 26th of june.

I knew he'd come back for me...hee hee!!






Faben's bleeding hand.

Thank you all for your support. Quite a few people mentioned autism here. Since she is fairly high functioning, that has never really crossed my mind until just a few weeks ago. I spoke to Faben's principal, and she suggested Asperger's Syndrome. I've looked into it, and I'm beginning to think that this might be an actual possibility. Is difficult to diagnose kids with Asperger's because they usually are average to very high intelligence, and can function fairly well. They are usually are categorized as the weird, eccentric or artistic people, and some have said Asperger's children appear to have a "touch" of autism. I found a diagnostic scale developed by Dr. Simon Baron-Cohen at Cambridge University which I had my daughter complete.

The average score in the control group was 16.4. Eighty percent of those diagnosed with autism or a related disorder scored 32 or higher. Faben scored a 28.

I am surprised no professional has ever brought this up.


Faben brought home a test in English that she took last week. She purposely failed it. She refused to write a 50 point essay, that required her to write about heroes while using vocabulary words. In its place she wrote:

"I don't need heroes. I am not going to lie and say my mom is my hero, because that isn't true. I am not going to use any vocabulary words because they just don't quire cover it. I don't look up to anyone because I don't find anything acknowledgeable about anyone. why should I? I don't give a damn about anyone anyway. While all you losers have heroes I will be in hell laughing at you stupid idiots. Everyone's only human.

THERE ARE NO GODS!"


And the funny thing is, she knew she was throwing the test, yet she completed an essay for extra credit on that test. Why would you bother doing the rest of the test and the extra credit, knowing you were going to fail. She would have had a 97 on the test, but instead, because of the missing essay, got 49. See what I mean, by how stubborn she is?

Now she's decided to work on a 10 page project for extra credit for English because she's failing, but she still doesn’t regret failing the test. She said it was a stupid question and she was not going to answer stupid questions. She was also mad at me that day. Go figure.