So in october i learned the jose cuervo tequila was not, in fact, my best friend.
I also learned a few things about andy's kissing ability and the look on nicks face right before he faints.

History repeats itself if we do not learn from it.

It started with me beign very aggraqvated with my very drunk 16 year old friend.
Then they left, and i was right.
Mixing eccentric artsy theatre folk with my redneck hick friends was just plain bad.

So they left, and there was jaime, ready with Steve's cigarettes and a shot glass. We smoked one and talked in the driveway while kevin went off at kara about dan or soemthing, and then went down to bob's bar, where i did 5 shots of cuervo citrus, a shot of soco, 5 shots of straight cuervo, a shot of chivas regal and 4 shots of peach snappes.

For all intensive purposes, i should be dead right now.

Next thing i know im on the trampoline trying to make two stars top spinning around and become one star, like i know it should be, and then suddenly roger is kissing me.

and this is where im stopping cuz everythign past this part is too much information for anyone.

I need ibuprofen.

this was totally a "I never want to drink again" kind of night

Colloquial Theatre Presents

Richard O'Briens
The Rocky Horror Show

July 2, 3, 9, 10
7:30 pm

Flickenger Preforming Arts Center
(at the Nichols School)

10$ Students and Seniors
15$ General Admission

Prop packet included with ticket price.
Audience participation encouraged.

Directed by:
Victoria Chatfeild

Starring:
Andy Drachenburg, Ashley Ladowski, Bill Griffin, Katy Duval, Jessica Knoerl, Matt Jasinski, Katie Meier-Davis, Rick Coe, Justin Schaber, Katy Schuster, Lexie Sutherland, Anna Small, Katie Gibas, Wendy Biddlecombe, Kate Parazini, and Erica Hohn

Tonight I am making the potentially fatal mistake of taking Vivie, Rick, Katy, and Justin over to Todd's house for our usual Tuesday Night Revel. This should be interesting, to say the least...provided everyone makes it out alive...

So sunday was my birthday, and it was actually pretty decent, for the first time in a while.
I went to the Allentown art festival with Andrea, and we went over to Chameleon West to see Nick play with the Voodoo Dollies. They were pretty good. Then we went back to my house and I got dressed and Jaime, Molly, and Christina showed up, and we met the boys at Zebb's for dinner. Mike was there, so I was ecstatically happy, and so was Sahar, so I was even more happy then. My own one man show and the stage manager of my life. Perfect. (altho beth and her bf were an hour late)
After dinner we went to my house and i tried to find Kevin who was throwing a fit about going out on my b-day, so jaime got on the phone and basically said "Be at todds in an hour. if youre not, i will find you, and i will beat the hell from you."
So we took andy home so he could get his car, i said adieu to my under 21 friends, and then me, steve, james, kev, andi and andy went to club miami to do karaoke. I would like to take this oppertunity to say that i cannot, absolutely cannot, sing. At all.
Yet, there I was, belting out "I will survive" with jaime and andi as backup singers.
Even kev did karaoke, which was awesome.

It was the first really good birthday in a while.

Yesterday I had rehearsal, and then today molly and i went shopping. nothing incredibly exciting...tho i am sure there will be some sort of raucous story by the end of tonight for me to share...

I have a penchant for always having a thouroghly annoying, or downright awful, birthday. It started when I was 15, and Dennis decided that he was going to break up with Christina, and told me this, not her. Meanwhile, she was listening in on the other extension and flipped out. (This situation turned out mush worse than it seems.)
On my 16th birthday, my mother accidently blabbed about a surprise party Christina was throwing me, and the lovely nicholas showed up 2 housrs late becuase appparently, (as is now and probably forever...) getting a piece of ass was more important than my party.
When I was 17, Sr. Genevieve dies on my birthday. She was a friend of my aunts, and like family to us.
When I was 18, everyone forgot. I mean everyone. Even nick and christina, my best friends at the time. Christina even saw me in the hall at school and just looked up, nodded, and kept walking.
(She told me later that when she wrot the date on her exam that morning, she wrote thtat it was the ninth. When the procter came by and siad it was the 13th, she replied : "That's not possible because if it were the 13th it would be Brigid's birthday and I---oh, shit.")
When I was 19, I had the flu. Very very very bad flu. Courtesty of Nick, actually. He always was good at picking out gifts...
For my 20th birthday, I was forced into attending one of Nick's gigs.

hmm, look...im going to be late for Nick's gig.
and it looks like it's gonna rain.
and duff and kev can't coem to dinner.
and dougs out of town so i dunno what were gonna do tonight.
and i hate my birthday.

all i want is for nobody to die, everyone to remember, and nick to behave himself.
one day out of the year, i don't think thats too much to ask.

Read that.
Because you may think you kno, but you probably don't.


Duff and I went to a family party today but he got yelled at because his mom had soemthing she needed him to do and he took off with out calling her.
I got a new toad today.
I named him Bob Dylan.
He's much bigger than horace (my last one) was.

I am frustrated because aparently people do not grasp the fact that I need to know EXACTLY how many of them are going to dinner tomorrow so i can make reservations.
I am also frstrated that Beth's phone is busy, and I don't like calling after 11 in case I wake Dolores.
I am supposed to go to the art festival tomorrow with Andrea and then see Nick's other band, the VooDoo Dollies, play there at 3.
Then we're going to dinner.
Then I don't know what the hell is going on because supposedly Doug was going to have a party, but I don't kno if he's even in town, and i can't think of a whole hell of a lot else to do.
I am not in a good mood and I need to get my meds ASAP. I havent had a good nights sleep in days and would kill for my sleeping pills right now, or my Xanax so at least I could relax. But noooo...I need health insurance for that.
So instead here I sit, a possible threat to society who can't just GO TO SLEEP.

Damned drug culture.

Here's a big survey cuz i can't sleep and am horribly bored...

1)Name?: Brigid
2)Date of birth?: june 13
3)Sex?: Female
4)Height?: 5'8"ish
5)Eye color?: hazel
6)Nicknames?: Brig, Briggy, B, Beij, Birg, BK, Grumpy, Bitch, Babe, Queen, Queens, Queenie, Lady L, Sahrpshooter, Doll, Sweets, Crazy.
7)What is the name of the school you go to?: don't go
8)Hometown?: buffalo
9)Where were you born?: buffalo. hence the hometown.
10)Have you ever failed a grade?: almost.
11)If you have, what grade did you fail?: junior year of hs.
12)Do you have crush on someone?: yeah
13)Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: i have a boy who is a friend.
14)What is your crush's/boyfriend/girlfriend's name?: nicholas
15)How long have you and your crush/boyfriend/girlfriend been going out/been crushing on them (these are getting too politically correct)?: probably since I was 5. tho i only realized this 3 years and one week ago.
16)What is you and your crush's/boyfriend/girlfriend's song(s)?: the world aint slowing down-ellis paul, one week-bnl
17)Would you have sex before marriage? Yes
18)Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?: yes
19)Do you do drugs?: i have. not really my thing tho.
20)Do you smoke?: like a bad factory
21)Do you drink?: me??? never.....
22)Are you ghetto?: i can be
23)Are you a player?: i can be
24)What is your favorite color(s)?: red, black, purple
25)What is your favorite animal(s)?: cheetah, reindeer
26)What is your favorite song(s)?: too many...rolling stone-bob dylan, free bird-lynard skynard, napoleon, hour follows hour, & dilate-ani difranco head the list
27)What is your favorite movie(s)?: angels in america, heavenly creatures, empire records,
28)Who is your best friend(s)?: jaime, nick, beth, katy, kevin, sahar, molly
29)Who do you talk to most online?: duffy, sahar, katy
30)Who do you talk to most on the phone?: jaime, kevin, todd, beth, molly
31)Are you a bum?: sometimes
32)Do you get online a lot?: yes
33)Are you shy/outgoing?: outgoing
34)Do you shower?: course.
35)Do you hate school?: when I went there I did
36)Do you have a social life?: too much of one at times
37)Do you trust people easily?: nope
38)Have you ever lied to your best friend(s)?: Yes. but most likely with good reason.
39)Are you a daredevil?: i have my moments.
40)Would you ever sky dive?: in a heartbeat
41)Do you like to dance?: yes
68)Have you ever been out of state?: Yes
69)Do you like to t
ra
vel?: Yes
70)Whats your favorite state(s)?: New York. Always New York.
71)Do you think your hometown sucks?: Kenmore sucks. but i don't consider it my hometown
71)Do you want to get out of your hometown?: I could take it or leave it
72)What design/logo is on your mousepad?: um, a blue stripe and the name of my dads company.
73)What color is your mousepad?: white and blue
74)Which do you perfer..listening to the radio or listening to cd's?: mp3s
75)Have you ever gotten high?: yup
76)Whats your favorite drink?: water, tea, chocolate milk
77)Do you like snapple?: yes
78)Do you drink a lot of water?: yes
79)What toothpaste do you use?: Colgate whitening with tartar control.
80)Do you have a cell phone/pager?: nope
81)Do you collect beany babies?: I have some. i don't collect them tho.
82)Which do you prefer Mickey/Goofy?: goofy
83)Do you like amusment parks?: hell yes
84)Have you ever been to 6 flags?: Yeah
85)What name brand do you wear the most?: hardly any...old navy i guess
86)Do you like Tupac?: used to.
87)Do you like Eminem?: yes
88)Do you like Dre?: used to.
89)Do you like taking picture's?: Yes
90)Do you like getting your picture taken?: eh
91)Do you have a tan?: yes...and i probably have cancer, too. that'll teach me to fall asleep on the beach.
92)Do you get annoyed easily?: yes
93)What are you hobbies?: acting, writing
94)Do you have your own phone/phone line?: phone, yes.
95)Do you have your own pool?: the pool fell down. now we have a mud wrestling pit.
96)Do you have any siblings?: 1
97)Do you have any posters/pinups on your bedroom walls?: no
99)Do you get good grades in school?: not in school
100)Do you get along with your parent's?: no
101)How do you vent your anger?: I yell a lot. i bitch to jaime. i smoke an entire pack of cigarettes. sometimes i throw things.
102)Are you a role model?: I've been told so.
103)Who do you look up to?: rose, probably. god, i miss her.
104)What are you favorite flower(s)?: lilacs
105)Have you ever been suspended from school?: almost
106) Have you ever been expelled from school?: almost
107)Do you have any piercings?: ears
108)Do you have any tattoos?: no
109)Whats your favorite holiday?: halloween
110)Whats your favorite memory?: being at the playground with Katy, going to NYC with Molly.
111)Whats your least favorite memory?: camping trip '02-me and nick
113)Do you dream a lot?: yes
114)Do you daydream a lot?: Yeah
115)Have you had a nightmare lately?: No..ok well i guess my dream last night was a bit nightmarish.
116)Which do u perfer boxers/briefs?: Boxers
17)Do you have any allergies?: hayfever
118)Do you have any health problems?: diabetes, displaced ankle, endometriosis, bipolar disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, trichotillamania...need i go on? im a walking disaster
119)Do you like cats?: i do, but im allergic. but i don't like nicks cats, allergies or not.
120)Do you like dogs?: yes
121)Do you have any pet(s)?: fish, and a toad
122)Do you have glasses?: Yeah
123)Do you have braces?: No
124)Do you have a job?: stage manager, exec. director of theatrre company, freelance writer.
125)Have you ever been fired from a job?: no
127)Have you ever been dumped?: no
128)Have you ever broke up wit any one?: yup
129)Have you ever been played?: prolly
130)Have you ever played any one?: ish
131)What is you zodiac sign?: gemini
132)What type of jewelery do you wear?: silver
133)Which do you wear more silver/gold?: Silver
134)Do you a time limit on aol?: Nope
135)Do you have a curfew?: hell no
136)Are you a vegeatarian?: No
137)Could you be a vegetarian?: I like chicken wings too much
138)Have you ever thought about suicide?: Yeah
139)Do you like coffee?: too much
140)Do you have a sweet tooth?: Yeap
141)What's your favorite candy?: french's chocolate taffy. i dare you to find it.
142)Do you like horror movies?: muchly
143)Do you like to spend/
save y
our money?: Spend
144)Whats your favorite type of sandwich? roast beef
145)Do you keep your room clean?: Kinda
146)Do you dress good?: i dress depending on my mood.
147)Do you eat veggies?: Yes
148)Do you like chinese food?: Yes
149)Do you like spicy food?: yes
150)Do you like mexican food?: yes
151)Are you a flirt?: so i've been told...
152)Are you good at flirting?: seems to work
153)Do you like to go to parties?: love them. i am the Queen of the party. (thats how i got my nickname)
154)Do you still go trick or treating? No
155)Are you an angel or a little devil?: depends on my mood.
156)Do you get along with people well?: if they aren't stupid. i have no tolerance for stupidity.
157)Have you ever just started dancing in the middle of the mall you go to?: probably
158)Have you ever won anything?: Yeah
159)Do you listen to country? she thinks my tractor's sexy.
160)Do you like the song last resort? eh
161)Do you have a waterbed or a regular matress bed?: i have Lumps. thats what i call the worlds worst mattress which resides in my room currently.
162)Do you get bored easily?: Yeah
163)Do you play golf?: I try
164)Do you play miniture golf?: i try
165)Do you like tennis?: Yes
166)Are you flexible?: yeah
167)Are you a sweet heart?: That's what people tell me.
168)What kind of perfume/colonge do you wear?: lavendertherapy, gap love14, bath and body works plumeria, or clinique happy
169)Whats your favorite number(s)?: 13
170)Whats your lucky number(s)?: 13
171)Whats your favorite season?: summer and winter
172)Whats your favorite month(s)?: not december...june?
173)Do you plan on getting married when you get older?: i don't plan on it. i would like to tho.
174)Do you plan on having children when you get older?: not today, not tomorrow, not ever. tho you never know how ill feel next week.
175)What names do you got picked out for your future baby girl(s)?: eloise james, rosemary elizabeth
176)What names do you got picked out for your future baby boy(s)?: vincent michael, shamus david
177)Do you have chapped lips?: No
178)Have you ever broken any one's bones before?: No
179)Have you ever broken any of your own bones before?: my ankle, repetedly
180)Have you ever had stitches before?: no
181)Have you ever hurt someone intentionally?: No
182)Have you ever broken any one's heart?: so I'm told
183)Do you believe in God or the Devil?: God.
184)Do you like shopping?: a little too much
185)How many cd's do you own?: I dunno
186)Who was/is your favorite teacher(s)?: eh....maloney, marcyanne, V, schewe, walters, waterhouse, halm
187)What is your favorite season(s)?: Didn't I already answer this?
188)Have you ever been out of the U.S?: yeah
189)Have you ever been in a car accident?: a few
190)Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?: no
191)Have you ever been embarrassed in school?: I'm not easliy embarassed
192)Are you a person to start rumor's about someone else?: No
193)Have you ever drank so much,that you blacked out?: "Nicki...what did i do last night, and how did i get home?"
94)Have you ever hooked any one up before?: Yeah
195)Have you ever split a relationship up before?: yeah
196)Have you ever stopped someone from doin something really stupid?: yup
197)Have you ever gotten into a fight with a teacher(s) before?: oy....several times.
198)Are you rude?: I can be
199)Do you think this survey is long?: You think?
200)Have any of the question's been repeated at all during this survey?: Yeah!
201)Is this the longest survey you ever filled out?: No
202)Are you bored filling out this survey?: a bit
203)Roughly how long has it taken you to get this far? Not very long
204)What is your dream car?: one that runs.
205)What is your dream job? anything having to do with theatre.
206)What is your favorite dream?: hmmm
207)What is your favorite cd(s)?: dilate-ani difranco, dizzy up the girl-goos, jagged little pill-alani
s, breakdo
wn-melissa etheridge, tragic kingdom-no doubt
208)Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: yup
209)Do you collect anything?: Yeah
210)Do you get along with your family?: no
211)Who is you favorite family member(s)?: duffy
212)Which family member(s)do you get along with the most?: duffy, tim, mel, mary, barb, sarah, sue
213)Are you an organized person?: no
214)What phrase do you use the most?: "Are you new?" "I'm sayin..."
215)Do you take long showers?: sometimes
216)Do you plan on graduating from highschool?: already did
217)What grade are you in?: hi, we've been here already
218)Are you energetic?: Sometimes
219)Do you get hyper a lot?: yes
220)Do you get hyper from eating chocolate?: nope
221)Do you like hot chocolate?: Yeah
222)Do you have manners?: Yeah
223)Do you put on a front for your boyfriend/girlfriend's parents?: no
224)Do you put on a front for anyone?: aside from job interviews, no.
225)Do you iceskate?: not well
226)Do you rollerskate/rollerblade?: i can still rollerskate well, but rollerblades were never my thing.
227)Do you like the snow?: snow is fun
228)Do you like the beach?: currently my back is peeling like an ripe banana, so, no.
229)Which do you perfer, swimming in a pool or swimming in the ocean?: pool. no salt water.
230)Can you draw well?: not too bad
231)Do you have a lot of exs?: eh
232)Do you have anyone blocked online?: Yes
233)Do you get into a lot of fights?: sometimes
234)Do you run your mouth?: yes...
235)Can you keep secrets?: if they aren't life threatening, then yes.
236)Can people trust you?: thats up to them
237)Do you have cable in your room?: Yes, but not the good cable.
238)Do you speak your mind?: too much
239)Do you watch the Disney channel?: not anymore, really.
240)Do you watch MTV?: eh
241)Do you watch BET?: eh
242)What do you think of Carson Daily?: i can't stand him.
243)Do you like Nelly?: not particularly
244)What do you think of the person that sent this to you?: i think it came from jaime. she rocks.
245)Could you kill the person that made this? No
246.)If you had a gun with one bullet and someone had to die from that bullet or you would be ripped apart by rabid mice pirhanas who would that person be?: Don't give me this power
247)Do you have a lot of self-confidence?: yes
248)Do you cry a lot?: yes
249)Do you cry if you don't get your way?: sometimes. but it has to be a very big me-not-getting-my-way.
250)Are you spoiled?: lord no
251)Are you a brat?: i can be
252)Do you get whatever you want?: No
253)Do you have to work for what you want?: yes
254)Do you listen to sappy songs?: sometimes
255)Do you go into chatrooms a lot?: nope
256)What is your e-mail address? mysticmoon13@aol.com
257.)if you had to amputate one limb, what would it be?: left leg. my uncle just got a new left leg. looks cool.
258)Do you like eeyore? he's alright
259)Do you like cartoons?: Yes.
260)Who is your favorite cartoon character?: bugs, mickey, buttercup
261)Do you get in trouble a lot?: sometimes
262)Have you ever gotten in trouble with the cops before?: err...
263)What time is it now?: 12:17
264)Have you ever lied to a cop?: yes
265)Have you ever been in love?: Yeah
266)Have you ever been in love so much it made you cry?: yes
267)Have you ever cryed over someone?: Yeah
268)Do you have a lot of trustworthy friends?: Some
269)Are you a trustworthy person?: Yes
270)Do you wear a lot of jewlery?:no
271)What kind of jewlery do you wear?: Silver, or beaded. NEVER gold.
272)Do you have any birth marks?: a couple.
273)Is your belly button, an innie or an outie?: Innie
274)Whats your favorite icecream?: coffee bean, oreo
275)Whats your favorite day?: friday, saturday
276)Whats your favorite thing to do on the weekend?: Hang out with friends, sleep, go places
277)Do you like cherry coke?: ocassionally
278)Do you like sprite?: no
279)Do you know what
moutain dew do
es to your body?: yes
280)Do you like cherries?: yup
281)Do you like strawberries?: yeah
282)Do you like kool-aid?: yeah
283)Whats your favorites kool-aid flavor?: red
284)Whats your favorite snapple flavor?: strawberry kiwi, peach iced tea
285)Do you like pie?: not so much
286)Do you like getting dirty?: no particulalrly. wait, what is your definition of dirty?
287)Do you like iced tea?: Yes
288)Have you seen "Scary Movie" yet?: Yes
289)If you have, then what is your favorite part of the movie?: I saw it 3 years ago....almost 4.....I have no flipping clue
290)Wheres your favorite place to vacation?: NYC, montreal, massachutesettes
291)If you had the chance, would you move out of your hometown?: Probably.
292)Do you like reading books?: Yeah
293)Do you like reading magazines?: Yeah
294)Do you believe in fate?: Yeah
295)Do you believe in Love at First Sight?: i do. i can prove it, too.
296)Do you play video games?: i do, but kevin says im not allowed too because they bring out my violent side. i think he's just tired of getting his ass kicked at mortal combat.
297)Have you ever streaked?: Nope
298)Have you ever skipped school?: yup
299)Have you ever been skinny dipping?: once
300)Do you believe in yourself?: more than people think i do.

Had rehearsal today.
If you have never had to sit thru choreographing 2 sex scenes (one male/female, one male/male) I don't suggest you ever do it, unless you're really into that kind of thing.
There are only so many ways to make that look convincing with out it actually being...convincing.
Other than that it wasn't so bad, but I wish it was over. This is the first show I have ever done where i wished it was over. I don't know why, but when I work with Colloquial I always feel like everybody kinda hates me. I thought at first it was because they had all done a show together before and knew each other or something, but I am on my 4th show with the company and it isn't much better. The cast is good, and for the most part talkative and nice...but I don't know...
I think it may have soemthing to do with "The Dark Time," as we call it. This is the first show i have really worked on (without acting) since that time.
Or, of course, I am completely paranoid and crazy like I usually am...

Tomorrow night Jaime, Andy, Steve and I are going to this gallery show that James' friends work is in, and I intend to spend my day at home doing nothing...ok that's not true I can't do nothing. I might paint Bernie's playhouse. She wants it to be beige. What kid likes beige?? But she does want it to have flowers and stuff painted on it, so I do get some creative liscense. Molly wanted to help paint it, but me and Mol and a can of paint never turns out right, so I guess I'll have to do it myself. Beth said something about stopping by with Dolores, too...I don't know. All I kno is that i have no money and no rehearsal and thus no reason to leave the house.
Saturday....rehearsal. Lots of rehearsal...
Sunday...MY BIRTHDAY! Which means I will be wearing black all day, ignoring phone calls from Nick, and going to dinner with people who will be on their very best behavior since they are aware of the doom that comes with each birthday. I swear, it is always the worst day of the year for me. Something bad always happens...and it's usually nicks fault. (So he is not invited to dinner. Ha.)
This play has completely swamped my head...I can't get the floorshow sequence out of my mind, and I have been singing "Sweet Transvestite" all night.
I think I'll go to bed now, and hopefully fall asleep, as opposed to popping RHPS into the VCR and watching it for the hundreth time.