I can't believe the summer is gone, september is almost gone too. I do enjoy the fall but I don't think I'm alone in saying that the cold weather is not one of the most fun things in the world for me. I look forward to Pumpkin Picking and halloween and thanksgiving and the turkey trot among other things. Recording, playing open mics, the John Lennon tribute show at Nietsche's. Christmas and sledding most especially, but I dunno, it feels like sometimes life is moving too fast and I'm not doing enough of what makes me feel good, like I'm just letting it slip by and it seems like most other people I'm around feel the same way. I'm thankful to be alive and not to constantly be suffereing but someone I talked to said that there is a difference between living and surviving. I'd like to do both. I'm not some thrill seeker but I do want to surprise myself now and again. I don't want to look back and see certain years blending together, i'd rather each year had some routine to it but also a lot of new changes, not necessarily bad ones. SO much can and does change in a yearbut is the change profound or just dstraction? Maybe it 's just being too close to it now or trying to figure it all out whil eit's happening that bothers me from time to time but it feels real to me so what more can i say? :)