04/20/05 09:31 - ID#32895

awww hell

so, by the records kept here at the (e:strip)... it has been closer to ayear since i been here than from what whatever it is i been doin in the real world. Im not all that surprised...the past year have had about enough action for four or five years and through either exceptionally poor time management or an abundance of *shit* to do I am entirely weary....I am going to the doctor about it tomorrow: an appointment made on 4/20 in the hope of procuring some drug to relieve all my woes when alls i really need is a week off, and some sunshine and....well, you know. maybe some good company, but, not if it interrupts my sleeping. No, really... it sucks. Things are not finishing horribly well with school (whowasisaid 'all things must end poorly else they'd go on forever'? - had a tack on my past month or two) which has resulted in some strange brain fart, lethargic woes that make a pain in my stomach every morning and need for a couple of hours of thought drifting guilt heavy sleep...but...hell...if the doc wants to give me something for anxiety or for "pep" i would gladly take it. I'd take braincandy at this point just to go back to my happy place. I dunno what the next few days hold but from what i can guess i am not really looking forward to them. I hope all is well [or better] for all those out there in this chilly region...too all a good noose... i mean night...no, i meant noose.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

06/29/04 11:24 - ID#32894

in need of

who or what [referencing possible entities] designs sales that require the purchase of another item not on sale? I suppose it to be some new wave [or old wave - i'm not very observant these past 26 years] marketing ploy to get you in beyond the sales rack. i kind of like the idea, but, if these things are done with firm intent why not really up the ante and put things willy nilly throughout the store. my reference is to chocolate bars and marshmallows being on sale at target. Clearly, they are placed side by side...begging you to take them home [and then outside - safety first] and make s'mores...but wait. ALACK! BY JOVE- we need graham crackers and off we trundle for these crackers made of graham [wha?]. So. why not put them next to the intensely satisfying cheap DVD rack? graham crackers? you ask the associate. Oh yeh. they are over there... between life of brian and the collected episodes of pinky and the brain [which, btw, if this exists, someone please lemme know]. Great. and if you need any tothpaste, it's in the rack with the digital cameras. thanks red shirted helpful person in khaki slacks. there should be a campaign to have a "team" dress in red and khaki and infiltrate the target subsystem.. just give it a whirl and see how long till someone puts you to work. go fold the panties. here, carry this, where are the graham crackers? ha ha - see how that wraps back around? you think it's easy but its not. i never cared for s'mores the cereal or the microwave treat. It was always easier to start a fire, burn the shit out of the marshmallows and stick it into a chocolate contained in graham sandwich. Plus, then you have a fire. and that kicks ass.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

06/25/04 01:23 - ID#32893

re.stanleymilgram seephillip zimbardo

read holly's quotation of milgram. There is video footage of the study out there somewhere.. dono if it be online or no...should also check out zimbardo's prison study (also with video). really changes your mind about the capability of managing individuality in a group and the limits of eprsonal responsibility. Great but in a horrific...oh fuck kind of way. Which needs a word of its own. a negativized great.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

04/02/04 11:33 - ID#32892

to go out or stay in (for dinner)

i once read that the easiest way to understand the difference between a liberal and a conservative is to monitor whether they choose to eat out or to stay home and cook. this being a borderline novel way to (re)examine one's social-political position in life i partook. then i decided there are better things to do, like cook some food or go out and eat some. last night the decision was to stay home for the evening meal. Then we had a grease fire that brought three big fire trucks to our apartment. gentlepersons one and all...live a little...go out for dinner. as we no longer have a functioning stove i know i will...

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/19/04 09:50 - ID#32891

whose world do i live in?

from time to time it stops matterring and i get the semi-familiar sense that i can do what i want. Like open a "business" that has making money at the sustenance or a little better level as a goal but a minor one. Just enough to maintain and slowly grow but never to a level that i can not maintain or i have people wanting to buy me out or expand...etc... what of it if it makes zero sense to 99 percent of the population... they can have their world just let me have mine. i want business model reform. had a lot more top say before i got here. oh well

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/12/04 10:52 - ID#32890

if in't that i t'was

an egg mcmuffin i rekkin my favorite body part t'would be my jiggly, slimy, but firm and covertly edible egg material midsection. I would say to the mcdonald land personage who shaped me, make sure that i glisten but don't drip with the beef tallow. Yes, yes, a little more over by my "yolk".. oh. it feels so good, now slap me with a piece of "ham" and rub me with that nooked and crannied mcmuffin. sometimes, when the days get slow i sit and think about how ronald fought the queen in 1974 over who had really brought this delectable bread product to its' proclaimed height. Other days i just wait around under the heat lamps....anticipating fate.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/06/04 01:26 - ID#32889

stewart, martha

am i really to care, let alone feel redeemed as a little person... because a billionaire pays a million and a half for fucking over thousands. That is as if i would be asked to pay 50cents when i forget to pay the meter. unless, of course, she goes to jail...then i would be happy.. Maybe someone would choke her with her own fur...

too bad the enron crew are all in bed with the bush empire. would be nice to see them burn for their crimes. pay a 1000000000 of their annual income in remunerations since they miss out on taxes...

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/06/04 01:14 - ID#32888

bush - politics -2008

emily - that is really great. I peed myself twice.

That said... i am ready to work towards the conversion of the apathetic and those unable to disbelieve what they are told. It is kind of sad. I have been so disgusted for so long that i just want to vote the fucker out. My four-year by four-year political agenda looks like this: 2004- unity against bush 2008- the great push left 2012 - convincing people that it remains important for the majority to vote regardless of lames madison (and in spite of) so we do not allow the great push right to occur. in the meantime i plan to tel personal or potentially personal stories and to find ways to rock the boat. I am giving my dad a copy of "dude where's my country" to inspire a less sanctified world view in the sticks. I recomend this to everyone with relations in the sticks...

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/05/04 11:12 - ID#32887

guppies

I should like some day to have a pond that i stock with guppies. Actually iw oudl but stock a single few pairs of guppies and allow guppie-nature to take its' course. I can imagine water being so displaced by their magnitude after a few weeks that going swimming in the pond would be a sensorial delight, overloading mayhap, but delightful. Following the assumption through that a zillion little wiggling squirming moving reproducing hungry fish bodies up against the flesh would feel pleasurable and not displeasing or awkward or uncomfortable. At some point they might turn into people-eaters from limited resources and then i would have casualties on my head but i would post a small sign that said: "danger, hungry guppies...they'll bite your fuckin'head off man!" and be free from any guilt, if not, liability. In the meantime, i may post that sign near ponds just to alleviate myself of guilt...which would be nice, but, i hate signage.. in general...though a collection of surreal instructions cropping up might be a nice distraction until the man co-opts the surreal and then we are in real trouble. Though it might make for some strange returns in antiquated attire because when the surreal is bought and sold the normal would become...well. the new mode de resistance. Whose got my heady cravat and knickers.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

02/29/04 10:35 - ID#32886

generalism

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