02/04/04 12:51 - ID#22127

lets cut through the bullshit, shall we?

no theatrics, no histrionics, no heroics, please.

after two days of fever-ridden weariness, I've decided I've no time for any more bullshit. i don't want anything disingenuous in my life, be it people or moments. if you share the real you, then i can be the real me. otherwise its a waste of time for everyone. i had a friend, m.f. (real initials, not referring to any cusswords) who wanted to be so nice she did whatever it took to be perceived that way. its not the same as truly being a nice person though. she acted like someone she wasnt and put up with so so much that she prolly didn't want to, and with so much i never would be able to. what is it really all for? and it all felt like a sham. its not for me. the whole deal = the real deal. i am not afraid of the fun, of the awkward, of the raw, of the best, of the less glamourous moments. i hope you are not either.

"
Lies the reason
Faith or treason
Playing a part
End concealing
Try revealing
Open your heart
Dare to feel
Take the chance
Make the deal
"

****
so i was so feverishly unwell i missed the going away gatherings of two long-time buffalonians. but i am looking forward to a reunion of sorts with people who i havent seen or spoken with in a long time. i want to dispel that myth that people come in and out of your life like busboys in a restaurant.

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01/30/04 03:25 - ID#22126

the great paper chase

i'm attempting to declutter, which i havent tried since september. it gets better and easier each time, but still... anything to stop my fate from ending up like the collyer brothers. (http://209.157.64.200/focus/f-news/1008564/posts)

[gb sent me this when it was in the nytimes, but it's no longer available full-text. the place i found it is actually from a post on the free republic site (http://209.157.64.200/), home of the FReepers that Mike Niman wrote about in his artvoice column (http://www.mediastudy.com/articles/av3-13-03.html)]

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01/26/04 12:53 - ID#22125

green gold

oh dear... who knew there was such heavy thievery of avos occurring. it almost reads like an onion article, but its not. (http://www.nytimes.com/2004/01/26/national/26AVOC.html?hp)

(if you care about accolades), angels in america won five golden globes this eve. lotr and lost in translation won three each. oh what fun.

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01/26/04 05:04 - ID#22124

i didn't get to say this before

i am glad to be back in buffalo

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01/30/04 01:51 - ID#22123

thursday night classics

in addition to the buffalo film seminars (see matthew's journal) at the market arcade, is the thursday classics series (http://www.dipsontheatres.com/eventDetail.asp?EventID=14), curated by m. faust, the proprietor of mondo video. more great movies, only $2. next week is the hong kong movie 'the killer' (directed by john woo). you can see for yourself the elegance of shooting with a gun in each hand.

thursday night classics
7 pm at the market arcade

january 22: A Clockwork Orange
January 29: Buffalo 66
February 5: The Killer
February 12: Stroszek
February 19: Harvey
February 26: Repo Man
March 4: Dreams
March 11: Bullitt
March 18: Naked Lunch
March 25: To Live and Die in L.A.
April 1: The Mad Adventures of "Rabbi" Jacobs
April 8: Groundhog Day
April 15: double feature: Gun Girls and The Violent Years
April 22: Once Upon a Time in the West
April 29: Mondo Madness

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01/29/04 06:45 - ID#22122

now, this is real news

ooh, ooh david hasselhoff (http://www.ananova.com/news/story/sm_860540.html?menu=news.quirkies) tx jyl

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01/23/04 04:07 - ID#22121

took her to a movie

i like your smile

but will we ever get past that stage of just smiling at each other?

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01/23/04 02:14 - ID#22120

flicker flicker flicker

5th annual Global Super 8 day (http://www.squeaky.org/events.html)
friday, january 30, 2004
squeaky wheel
175 elmwood avenue

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01/22/04 12:15 - ID#22119

i bid adieu to d'avo

goodbye phoebe. its been grand. time to start the year anew. too bad, it's only fitting, what with auspicous beginnings and good endings to bad stories.

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01/22/04 12:59 - ID#22118

monkey away

just a few minutes to new years. it happens to be not just chinese new year, but also korean new year too. to my parents and ancestors i want to let yall know to fret not, i have cleaned house, dusted to my heart's content, and paid debts. this new year starts with double happiness, hopes for prosperity and fortune, and lots of candy treats. gung hay fat choy. gong xi fa cai. happy and prosperous new year to you. and a very happy birthday to you paul..

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