I honestly don't know how to start this post or if it will make any sense I do not even get it my self really ...... (I would not call it a panic attack but think anxiety took me out like before I went to parties)
So Back when on Facebook a saw a Halloween Party I was like awesome ... And With it being on a Friday places don't do anything on Thursday and Sat is Nov. I decided that The e-Strip party was where I wanted to be.... I got a costume one day ... Liquor another and drinks another ........
I had everything planned I was going to come home get ready and watch Wrestling till 10 and then leave at 10 and set up the DVR for all this other stuff ...... By The end of the week gets me pretty worn out sometimes it feels so long to me often... So I figured I might not be able to stay to late.........
However (not that persons fault) I knew someone was going who it would be cool to meet and that it would be great to see a bunch of people I have not seen in a long time (sometimes my mind races about things) .... Maybe I have seen some in passing somewhere .... I get home and my cable is out again .... That threw everything off had to call them and get ready and my heart was racing I did not think I felt that bad but watched something on DVR as part of the getting ready... it was really pounding post shower it really was but got together put on costume sat down thought about how I need to shave a bit and then find Camera and batteries
I am not sure how I went out when I sat down I tried to get up but my body would not let me it was still before the time I would have left if cable was working ..... That has happened before (once recently that I can remember hard to explain)
I think Anxiety is what took me out like back before I made it to parties argh I was looking forward to it and let people down........
Oh it gets worse I guess
I have been behind on (e:strip) for some time and I was looking forward to taking pictures and starting here with pictures and trying to keep up (computer is in room where I watch and live tweet not where I watch DVR is one big reason and the mobile site is nice but don't use it enough I like the pictures big I guess ?)
Saturday was going to be a great event at Nietches with Burlesque I was really looking forward to that as well ... Was sitting around first so maybe landlord so I can pay rent and watching some stuff on line and called cable still out .... I did not feel right not allergies not sick really but cough and hard to explain when you feel you are not all there almost zombie like so figured best to not go get anyone sick(crowded bar ) or like fall over and had to go get an antenna so did that got it home set it up and was out in about an hour of watching stuff on line .... Yeah out cold .......
I didn't even get to watch a Halloween movie .......Oh but I did see a special or two like 3 weeks ago I think ...... and have had some candy here and there ................
I am working on Monday and going from there right to Wrestling and I wonder if (cause this has happened in past) when I have a series of events if my body like shuts me down and it is like... Nope we are knocking you out so you will be fresh for this ..... but not sure .....
on a side note I have wanted to post about like MIA festival and Chicken Wing Festival but so many pictures I did not know where to start .....
So need to do a better job keeping up with everyone .....
It could also be that I was debating that stupid online video to much and got into like a little war over it.... That could have lead to extra stress argh
Not sure but sure did get a lot of unwanted sleep this weekend and I'm off Tues and Wends cause I need to take time off from work and day after RAW that will be a long day... I do wonder if my body knowing that picked that event and shut me down on others .... I'm guessing the Anxiety (and way over thinking things letting my mind go where it shouldn't have in days prior ) ARGH
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11/02/2014 18:52 #59541
Sucky Halloween It is my own fault though really ....08/17/2014 18:41 #59313
Parade 8-16.-14Category: photos
08/13/2014 20:04 #59294
iphone and keeping up arghSo I admit I have been having trouble keeping caught up on (e:strip) .... This sounds weird and I'm sure it is but when I post I like to be caught up ... So like back during Infringement festival (Yes I admit I missed a lot of great stuff part of that was location part of that was conflict with sports) and me forgetting about an event... But I did go to 2 events and they where fun ... But at the time I was so behind that I didn't post.... Plus there was the garden walk I saw some fire dancing and this drag burlesque type of show at 9th ward I missed Draglesque at marcello's .... Hoping to post pictures to recap the fair from Sat. on here on Thurs. Now a few things just to vent a bit some thoughts ....
-The iphone is cool and fun and all but oh my gawd it is expensive what the fuck was I thinking I didn't get they add a line charge and Data argh what should have gone through sprint I think argh wow or maybe if I just went to apple store they could have crafted a more suited to me plan argh ......
-iphone is it just it but you can do all this cool stuff (I only know a few things I can't play music or make art videos like in the ads sometimes typing is tough enough or sliding and you wind up some place else ) But Sunday I went to The Fair and the Battery died on my way home.... The battery tech needs to catch up to the smart phones some how... It use to be you could swap them out in the old phones and think Samsung has a new one that you can .....
> That is part of the reason I forget to mobile post on (e:strip) plus with out a zoom that I know of it kinda has to be right in front of you close to be a good shot .... With batteries that don't last the entire day can I really post to multiple sites ???
Also the Robin Williams death hit me harder then it should ? Wrestling was on so that took me out of that funk we will call it.... But it still lingered the next day argh.....
So Hoping I can get back into the habit of reading here and not getting behind ...The Mobile site is great but I don't think my phone sees video on it for some reason oh might be a Safari thing and need to look into uploading video my self .....
I know there is stuff I missed that I wanted to post about but I don't remember what ............
-The iphone is cool and fun and all but oh my gawd it is expensive what the fuck was I thinking I didn't get they add a line charge and Data argh what should have gone through sprint I think argh wow or maybe if I just went to apple store they could have crafted a more suited to me plan argh ......
-iphone is it just it but you can do all this cool stuff (I only know a few things I can't play music or make art videos like in the ads sometimes typing is tough enough or sliding and you wind up some place else ) But Sunday I went to The Fair and the Battery died on my way home.... The battery tech needs to catch up to the smart phones some how... It use to be you could swap them out in the old phones and think Samsung has a new one that you can .....
> That is part of the reason I forget to mobile post on (e:strip) plus with out a zoom that I know of it kinda has to be right in front of you close to be a good shot .... With batteries that don't last the entire day can I really post to multiple sites ???
Also the Robin Williams death hit me harder then it should ? Wrestling was on so that took me out of that funk we will call it.... But it still lingered the next day argh.....
So Hoping I can get back into the habit of reading here and not getting behind ...The Mobile site is great but I don't think my phone sees video on it for some reason oh might be a Safari thing and need to look into uploading video my self .....
I know there is stuff I missed that I wanted to post about but I don't remember what ............
07/19/2014 14:35 #59214
Italian fest 2014Category: photos
So tried some stuff I haven't before gelato was good and melted like ice cream the deep fried pizza was good took a couple of bites to get to pizza but good also had some smoothies and not that they are puppets maybe should have watched that show.
metalpeter - 07/20/14 23:23
The Fair is all ways great and that was an amazing time it really was .....
The Fair is all ways great and that was an amazing time it really was .....
tinypliny - 07/19/14 21:46
I have never actually been to this festival. But I do remember have a super awesome time with you (e:thecarey) and (e:Vincent) at the fairgrounds. :-)
I have never actually been to this festival. But I do remember have a super awesome time with you (e:thecarey) and (e:Vincent) at the fairgrounds. :-)
metalpeter - 07/19/14 21:27
Well it is Sunday as well :) I didn't stay to long but it was fun when I was there :) I have so much to learn on my phone by the time I learn it all it will be time to turn to exchange it for like 2 numbers higher on it :) HA but I do like the mobile posting just have to remember to do it .....
Well it is Sunday as well :) I didn't stay to long but it was fun when I was there :) I have so much to learn on my phone by the time I learn it all it will be time to turn to exchange it for like 2 numbers higher on it :) HA but I do like the mobile posting just have to remember to do it .....
joe - 07/19/14 17:52
I cant believe we missed The Italian Festival. so much greasy food.
Glad you're mobile now.
I cant believe we missed The Italian Festival. so much greasy food.
Glad you're mobile now.
metalpeter - 07/19/14 14:36
Not sure why it posted pictures twice????????
Not sure why it posted pictures twice????????
08/14/2014 19:50 #59297
Erie County fair day of the Wallenda WalkCategory: photos
What I think is so great about The Fair as we call it round here is that there is stuff for everyone .. You could go see all the animals or go on all the rides go to the places they have music I go for the shows... Not to mention the Grand Stand stuff Tonight is an event I haven't been to in a long time Ultimate Night of Destruction They have like the Bus demolition derby and like figure 8 racing maybe a couple monster trucks (that use to be its own show) think it is tonight ... Last night was lady Antebellum I thought about going but don't know their music well enough .... Maybe someone goes just to try food they normally wouldn't try or the midway stuff .... I'll try to give a good sampling and then at the end the Walk ... It sounds odd but I've only seen him walk on TV so with out commentary it seemed strange ..... I didn't stay for Laser Light show or Fireworks I could have but getting home on a Sunday post 11PM is walking so.......
It was Veterans Day at the Fair they go in for free and there was a parade in grandstand so I just put up a few pix ....
Ok I need to explain the walk I guess Nik got lifted up in a lift thing to the wire near the front of the fair grounds close Firehouse building and then walked the wire kinda over the midway area and then into the grand stand area ... Now once he was out of rang blocked by a building I moved to the left a bit and got some more shots there is one that looks like he is standing on the building.... Now the thing is in some spots he is quite far away so he is small now all the way zoomed some shots are close up but then from where I was you lose that he is over the Fair you kinda needed a different angle but I got some .. Where like you would get rides in front or behind him but I hope that makes it more clear ....
It was Veterans Day at the Fair they go in for free and there was a parade in grandstand so I just put up a few pix ....
Ok I need to explain the walk I guess Nik got lifted up in a lift thing to the wire near the front of the fair grounds close Firehouse building and then walked the wire kinda over the midway area and then into the grand stand area ... Now once he was out of rang blocked by a building I moved to the left a bit and got some more shots there is one that looks like he is standing on the building.... Now the thing is in some spots he is quite far away so he is small now all the way zoomed some shots are close up but then from where I was you lose that he is over the Fair you kinda needed a different angle but I got some .. Where like you would get rides in front or behind him but I hope that makes it more clear ....
metalpeter - 08/15/14 18:56
I am not sure where but I have heard it called that as well.... And it makes a lot of sense to call it that when in a different county ... It was fun glad you like the pictures
I am not sure where but I have heard it called that as well.... And it makes a lot of sense to call it that when in a different county ... It was fun glad you like the pictures
ExBuffalonian - 08/15/14 14:19
Thanks for sharing these great pictures. They brought back lots of memories of "The Fair." Though, when I was a kid growing up in Allegany County, we called it The Hamburg Fair.
Thanks for sharing these great pictures. They brought back lots of memories of "The Fair." Though, when I was a kid growing up in Allegany County, we called it The Hamburg Fair.
Thanks, I felt welcome .... Yeah I thought I was past it (or maybe I just didn't have anything that caused it recently ) ....but also by the end of the week I am pretty worn out sometimes but it varies .... I think it was the combo (but there has been a lot of stress at work as well) at least for me ... We aren't at the point of the year yet that bothers me but we are close so maybe that is a factor as well .....
Sorry you missed it. There will always be next year! Anxiety sucks. You are always welcome at our parties.