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04/11/2013 12:47 #57504

Androminion Ridiculousness (Geek Gaming Content)

Safe to say that I have beaten the game. In fairness, I took unfair advantage of the AI's unwillingness to give up and buy the final Province/Colony.

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If anyone wants to guess at my game progression though, here are the end decks for each of us (trashing, sadly, is not accounted for).

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YesThatCasey - 04/12/13 16:27
My theory is that the AI uses a range for their opponents VP, based around their actual VP. If their VP-range is within everyones elses VP-range, then it will end the game in the hopes that it is ahead. However, if the upper-range is below anothers lower-range, then they will play a non-game-ending move in the hopes for a win down the line.
puddlediving - 04/11/13 13:41
Wow. That's averaging better than a colony per turn. I wonder why the AI wouldn't trigger endgame? I've never had an AI avoid it before.

04/08/2013 19:27 #57489

Purity Ring
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03/02/2013 06:32 #57318

What to do...
It's been just over 5 years since Machiko and I ended things. Today was her birthday, and popping on FB to send her a small note turned into a far more emotional event than such a simple gesture should beget.

Each new encounter makes me feel increasingly unable to connect. Five years, a quarter of my adult life, of being alone. Amanda was someone I loved, but as much as I resisted it I still held back because inside I knew that her little Quinn was a piece that I couldn't appreciate as much as she deserved. The growing together, exploring and challenging...I associate these with being human, and this deprivation is taking its toll.

I believe I did the right thing with Machiko. I loved her with all my heart, and still do, but I knew she would always believe that we could have a child, and I could not deny something that I knew she could achieve and thrive at. The justification for this helped me through the wretched emotions I dealt with afterwards.

But less and less do I find myself truly relating to what is happening. A disconnection with reality is something of a fear of mine, and for it to take hold of such a part of my life only amplifies its power over me.

Michaelene recently became both engaged and available to expand our friendship, which was a pretty wonderful potential to realize. Yet with all of this the barriers remain, and my understanding diminishes.

I've always been a relatively independent person, but this is not an intentional extension of that trait. There is something about waking up next to someone and saying 'what should we do today' that dramatically changes my attitude over time, in a way I very much relish. The path out of this is wholly obfuscated.

The one change I've thought of is that I need a roommate on my next move, perhaps even trying to break my lease and expedite this shift. Little things like just hanging out in the afternoon during some generally monotonous activity have a noticeable effect on my state of mind. It seems obvious that there is more that can be done but I find myself at a place of ignorance and apathy; a thoroughly suffocating combination.

I need some help, to the point that I'm not even sure what kind of help to seek. Or perhaps I just need to rant to help diminish this paralysis. I've been able to ignore this much better as of late, but I think this medium might be a good way to get this out and hopefully limit the internal distractions.

Have a good night peeps. I'm glad I stumbled into this place in the world.
metalpeter - 03/03/13 19:23
Not sure what to say.... So here is what I will say... Be glad you know you might need help... As much as I love (e:strip) and everyone I've meet through it... I wonder what would have happened if after that 1st party I didn't go to.. I would have thought and understood I had a problem then ? Assuming you have a job (Sure you do just don't remember what it is or if it say fulltime) look into your benefits and maybe they have something to help... I don't know if it will help me but been to one free session my self (lots of work stress lately).... But I'm no expert and can't say that it could bring up old stuff.. But if you are all ready thinking about stuff from then any ways it might not hurt any thing?
YesThatCasey - 03/03/13 14:03
Appreciated Dave
libertad - 03/02/13 10:32
Sorry you are having a hard time.

02/27/2013 20:07 #57297

6-Years Old and transgender
Having come across an article regarding a 6-year old identified as transgender, I found myself being very critical of the parents in this situation.

There is certainly an amount of admiration towards their openness. However, I find it ridiculous that someone so young is being identified as such. That isn't to say that the person isn't transgender; it just seems (very) premature. I would apply the same reasoning to a child identified as gay, straight, and anything else dealing with sexuality. In fact, the issue (and growing trend) of childrens toys relating to gender demonstrates this pretty well IMO:

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In the same way that we say a child's sex is independent of the toys they play with, the activities and artifacts that the child uses should not be used to determine their sex.

I love that she is able to freely engage in these practices, but there is no need to neatly wrap it up in some package.

Of course, when it comes to bathroom use, that's where this breaks down, and it is of course why the 'controvery' and article came to be. It's something I'll be mulling over, along with the question of when such an identify becomes sensible and healthy (puberty being the most tempting answer, even though mental awareness is the far more important yet immeasureable factor).
metalpeter - 02/27/13 21:38
I agree with you on the age thing... Little kids hate girls and think they are gross so that would mean they are gay... Well until they hit a certain age and things change... So I agree on the puberty as being about the right age....
metalpeter - 02/27/13 21:35
Let me explain... People say they feel like they are born a girl or boy when they are the other gender.. But most times it isn't that it is that the way the feel doesn't fit with the gender roles of our society...
metalpeter - 02/27/13 21:31
I have a slight problem with people who are transgender but it isn't a problem with them it is the problem with the idea... Yes you can be transgender and gay and that sounds odd.....

02/21/2013 16:45 #57273

To This Day
This was a really powerful video for me...



I've been throw into chokes and armbars while training in MMA, been jumped by kids who did not know any better, and yet it is the words I had to deal with during my time at a poverty-striken high school that caused me the most pain.

The creators made such beautiful use of different mediums and storytelling techniques, all while capturing a message that is often ripe for target by those who commit these acts. This seems different to me.