I'm not really sure why but been stressed out lately. I think some of it is that there will be some work changes and I kinda wish we would get to them and then I learn and try to figure things out. But then there is that other being alone factor. Do I like being alone yes, well kinda yes. It just seems that recently people have had kids, getting married and going to get married. Am I happy for them yes. but it also seems like life is passing me by or something. Then there is facebook. Yes I like facebook but it is weird to see people from high school with kids and stuff. I'm not saying I want Kids. Then it is also true that it seems like a lot of people I went to school with have interesting or meaning full jobs , own a club, parents own shops and that kind of thing. I don't know oh yeah then there are camera issues and now I need a new one. Then like thursday I was all pumped to watch X games and passed out on it. Argh not really sure what I need. Well maybe I a Suicide Girl or Kat Von D to have drug ridding sex with. Yeah that might work, I don't know. Maybe I need to blare some heavy music of some kind. I don't know really what is going on. Well maybe some of this writing helped we shall see got some more picture stuff to do.
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Stressed lately07/28/2009 20:19 #49403
More Garden WalkCategory: photos
I'm having some issue with posting the pictures to webshots if these aren't enough for anyone I'll mention when I do have them posted there. Well here are some more of the garden walk.
Well that should be plenty for now. With all these multiple sites I thought I should mention one thing. With Facebook I started at the end of the photo album and picked randomly where here I started at the beginning so there shouldn't be any of the same pictures.
Well that should be plenty for now. With all these multiple sites I thought I should mention one thing. With Facebook I started at the end of the photo album and picked randomly where here I started at the beginning so there shouldn't be any of the same pictures.
metalpeter - 07/29/09 20:33
I now have the pictures up on my webshots page. I have no idea what any of the flowers are.
I now have the pictures up on my webshots page. I have no idea what any of the flowers are.
heidi - 07/29/09 01:29
Does anyone know what that crazy silver & purple flower is in picture 25?
Thanks for posting these, (e:metalpeter)!
Does anyone know what that crazy silver & purple flower is in picture 25?
Thanks for posting these, (e:metalpeter)!
07/27/2009 19:51 #49396
Few Garden Walk shotsCategory: photos
I have so many pictures from the Garden Walk that I don't know where to start. But because of time I will post some for now and maybe this will be a few everyday thing? It was a great time it really was even with the flood that killed my camera (well it still takes pictures).
Well that is plenty for now. Oh these aren't up on my webshots page yet. For some reason it and firefox didn't get along so I'll try on Tuesday maybe with Safari and see what happens.
Well that is plenty for now. Oh these aren't up on my webshots page yet. For some reason it and firefox didn't get along so I'll try on Tuesday maybe with Safari and see what happens.
metalpeter - 07/28/09 19:57
Glad you liked them I at least will do one more post.
Glad you liked them I at least will do one more post.
tinypliny - 07/27/09 19:57
So pretty! Thanks so much for sharing. I missed the walk this year...
So pretty! Thanks so much for sharing. I missed the walk this year...
07/24/2009 19:54 #49371
Garden Walk Hoping it is niceCategory: event
Well with Buffalo You never know what the weather will be like, but I hope it is nice for 
the garden walk, both days. Who knows how much I will go to but hoping to get some nice pictures and post them. Ok one other link after I say I wish everyone has a great weekend.
the garden walk, both days. Who knows how much I will go to but hoping to get some nice pictures and post them. Ok one other link after I say I wish everyone has a great weekend. chico - 07/24/09 21:17
Always a laugh with all the people traipsing up and down my block but a good thing for B-lo. Sorry I didn't take the time to stop and say hey just outside the Italian Fest, my apologies. Hope you had a great time. I was surprised that they didn't have zeppoli...fried dough, yes, probably very similar but not the same as they have in NJ and downstate. But I digress. Hope you're doing well and hope to get another chance to catch up sometime soon. - (e:Chico)
Always a laugh with all the people traipsing up and down my block but a good thing for B-lo. Sorry I didn't take the time to stop and say hey just outside the Italian Fest, my apologies. Hope you had a great time. I was surprised that they didn't have zeppoli...fried dough, yes, probably very similar but not the same as they have in NJ and downstate. But I digress. Hope you're doing well and hope to get another chance to catch up sometime soon. - (e:Chico)
07/26/2009 18:45 #49387
The Great Flood that almost Killed himCategory: peterazzi
Yes He was out and about at The Garden Walk when the blowing rain came out of no where. So he thought he was safe until today when he was taking pictures and out of no ware his screen went dead. So he was shooting blind. Hopefully where he got it will fix it for free that may be a Monday or Tuesday task. Well here are a few photos from "The Flood" . It was also a weird weekend since he was propositioned for drugs then the same guys wanted to know if he could help them out, what, you sell drugs help your self out. Then on the way home was told a black lady who he thought was asking to talk to someone behind him that she wanted to know if he wanted his dick sucked and that she swallows. That is something you can't really get on the street unprepared for. He of course said no and ran into a buddy of his it was strange.
So Two Pictures before the flood but during the rain where added
So Two Pictures before the flood but during the rain where added
metalpeter - 07/27/09 19:06
The weird part on top of that is the sun came out after the heavy wind pushed rain as it was still raining. It was very strange. Glad you where inside.
The weird part on top of that is the sun came out after the heavy wind pushed rain as it was still raining. It was very strange. Glad you where inside.
chico - 07/27/09 10:40
Was in K. Gallagher's on Allen during the deluge and watched half the patio furniture get blown over by the high winds. The crazy thing was that an hour or so later, the streets were basically dry and if you didn't witness the storm you'd have no idea that we got dumped on like that.
Was in K. Gallagher's on Allen during the deluge and watched half the patio furniture get blown over by the high winds. The crazy thing was that an hour or so later, the streets were basically dry and if you didn't witness the storm you'd have no idea that we got dumped on like that.
(e:Lauren) That is a really good comment. Kids for me right now, no way I have enough trouble taking care of myself.
(e:Tinypliny) that is a great point also.
I just wanted to add that I don't know if everything is stress alone. Some of it is like a heavyness feeling that I have no idea how to explain. Then there is that kinda down feeling. But not like I don't want to do anything or maybe it is some kind of emotional tiredness I don't know how to explain it.
I feel better right now but I wasn't do so good at price rite. I went to get food and I'm looking at these frozen pizza bite things and am thinking that I need to get these so I'll have something for lunch and then start to remember how getting them just right in the microwave is tough. But I can't spend money on going out to lunch everyday, ARGGGG. But Got home and watched some X games and felt better.
Not sure what I'm going through really but I'm guessing after this weekend I'll be stressed again. I think part of it has to do the fact that I was kinda crushing on someone or how ever you say that but then those feelings what ever they are went away (well mostly they are gone).
It also doesn't help (had a good time) that I went to a weeding reception for someone who is having a kid and there where all kinds of couples there.
It also doesn't help that I'm fucked up. I do need to mention that there is a weeding that I'm really looking forward to going to and I wish those two people all the best, and I don't think that factors into how stressed or what ever I've been going through lately . Then next weekend I'm going to a bachelor Party for a weeding I'm not invited to and that should be fun (don't think I can stay for all of).
Did I mention I don't know what to do about my camera. Maybe I'll make up my mind this weekend. I'm hoping the stressed out ness doesn't come back but I'm guessing the being down or what ever it is will, but let hope not.
Don't worry. I think the alone stress is a lot more manageable that having relationship stress - which is worse because you are constantly afraid of treading on people's toes etc. If you are out today shout out a hi and I will holler back! :D
I have that feeling too...a large majority of the people i knew from highschool are married or have kids or both and im like..uh, did i miss the boat? course, the thought of having kids right now scares the bejesus out of me...so i secretly hope that when they see my facebook they are going... damn, maybe i should have waited.. :)