i think i said i was gonna hang out with so many people while i was here in blo, but come to find out, i don't really feel like seeing much of anyone.

i am gonna miss tina so much, maybe thats why. i kinda just want to spend pretty much every moment with her. shes so cute and fun! and she likes to talk about fashion. and perez.

its gonna be so sad when i say goodbye, because she is really the last girlfriend i have. i have a few in az, but she is last of the the originals. its so hard to meet people that truly accept you and love you and im freakin gonna miss her.

ps. the weather here sucks which also makes me want to do nothing.


i think the tinster and i are gonna hit the mall today, that is pretty much my fav thing to do with her, shop, or eat chicken pizza, and i think we can do both!!!!!!!

i woke up thinking, dang its hot and humid up in this !@#$%!


our ac is broken for the second time this summer. im pretty sure it cost upwards of 2500 to have it fixed just two weeks ago, not even.

i am shit for real this better be fixed today. because i have lived 21 days w/o sleeping in my own dang bed, and i am not joking around i will threaten someones life if they don't get here.

no ac here in summer is like an eskimo without an igloo. i have to do laundry and pack for my trip and tomorrow is my day off to do that...

very much not happy right now.

i decided to come home from an 11 hr workday and highlight my hair.

i ended up looking like vitamin c, but not in a cute way like (e:hodown) . more like i tried to highlight my hair at home with drugstore dye, and it is somewhat orange and i look like a cheap whore.

luckily i keep around a few different colors just in case, even though i haven't let color touch my hair in two years. why i decided to do it tonight, who knows. my mind was made up. i think i had too much free time at work to read my new issue of elle, and i felt like doing beauty things.

anyway, its 1030, my hair has been rescued, and it now resting in a towel turban while saturated in about half a bottle of conditioner.

this is why i don't color my hair ever.

plus, my hair gets so damn dry out here, i feel sometimes that it might be a fire hazard... i would say the fire danger level is quite high right now. maybe a few weeks with no blow dryer will be a good thing.

i think the result of the color are going to be quite fabulous but this was way too much work.

lipgloss is never like this, a few seconds and boom! shiny colorful lips and it is beneficial for picking up guys and moisturization!

im sitckin with the gloss from now on people.

i am so tired! I've been working since 830 this morning. i worked at the hospital and then left to come here and work at my other job.

i am not sure sure what time the parents will be home, but hopefully before 11. i am not sure i can stay up that late!!!

did you ever get that tired feeling and your eyes just hurt and then you get an awful pounding headache? its like, your body know you need to go to bed and its punishing you for not doing so.

sometimes a whole day at the hospital can be really tough. our census has been really low, and they is actually not much work for me to do, since i handle all of the patients paperwork, appointments, and consults. but, it seems less tiring sometimes when it is busy, maybe because time passes quicker.

also, three patient passed away in the past day. that can be very depressing. especially to see the family, and you get to know that family members when they are there so much. two of the patients that passed seemed to be getting better, and then they just went like that. i saw one of them. i don't know i wanted to see him, but i did, and now i think i am going to have nightmares.

i really think nurses have one of the hardest jobs out there. doctors too, but sometimes i think nurses more so. they spend so much times with the patients and do all of the dirty work, and then when a patient passes, it can be like losing a friend.

i am happy that i am going to be a teacher, and i get to see the development of people, not the digression...

i miss my grandma. :(

when i see all of the older patients, so many of them are so out of it. my granny kinda lost it towards the end, but she still went so gracefully. i remember that last time i talked to her before she got really bad. i was holding her hand and thought she was sleeping, and she squeezed my hand, because she knew somehow that i was crying, even though her eyes were closed as she said, "I am going to be ok sarah."

it just made me cry more. she was so strong. she never complained, and even when she was dying, she was trying to make it easier.

it will be so good to visit her grave. i feel bad about not being at the funeral, but most of my extended family is just way too much for me to handle, and this way i can pay my respects in peace.

i think now is the perfect time to go to blo.

it's going to be really nice to not be in that hospital for a whole week...

i will be in tha dyrty buff....


aug 8th-15th.



that's less than two weeks from now....



:O)