so i had this awful tonsilitis. and i had it while i was still w/o ac/ kinda homeless and had to work 12 hrs everyday. well, the meds i took gave my major stomach issues.

i was reduced to eating... toast and sprite and bananas for 8 days. so i was done with that on friday. i went out friday night and had little fun. i was the dd, not one ounce of alcohol, not one.

i ate healthy today, and not even that much, and i come home from work and what do i get???? more stomach issues!!!!!!!!!!! wtf???!!!

i went to church today... because i wanted to. i think i just feel like going to church. i didn't do anything bad or anything, but i just wanted to go. and this is how god rewards me? not fair.

also, it seems many men are trying to hollr at me and the one that i actually like, has not contacted me in four days. now, to a woman that is a lifetime, to a man maybe not.

i think this calls for a massive brownie sundae, even though i will probably be sick ten minutes later...

and i am reverting back to the "shopping for labels, not shopping for love", attitude.

so, still no ac. day 19. i want to sleep in my bed. 19 days of not sleeping in my bed has resulted in several strained back muscles. for real my back is messed up.

i also got tonsilitis over the weekend from god know what. maybe from working 80 hours last week and not getting proper sleep. and the anitbiotic i am on prevents me from eating food. otherwise its some major stomach issues. so its like bananas and crackers until saturday. i learned the lesson the hard way yesterday at the movies, nough said.

finally found the courage to quit my one job...phew.

im making a lot of money, but im somehow always broke. this could be because i spend way too much money on clothes...

and gas is killing me., everything is so spread out here, so i end up spending about 70 a week on gas. thats 280 a month, byebye extra cash...

but i am also in the process of paying of my stupid car which is like over 1000 a month, so i can get it paid off before school starts, so i wont have to worry.

then when i am done paying off the car, i can move on to credit card debt. why i ever got one i don't know. i am go to pay it all off and then get one to pay for gas and pay it off right away to build credit. thats what they say i should do...

i miss buffalo and all of my friend so much right now, i think maybe the most since I've been here. i love it here, but i just need to reconnect with the old sarah and all of buffalo's loveliness. i also miss my sister a ton and this is the longest i have gone without seeing her i think since i was 16 or something crazy like that.

its not right.

quess i will just have to continue working millions of hours so i can make these dreams of trips come true.

if the ac is not fixed by friday, the mom and i are headed to a resort for some major r&R. please god, let it be fixed!!!!!!!!!!!!

i have realised how cool it is to have a lil sis. my cousin is the same age dif as (e:hodown) and i and it's great. she is so cute and pretty and fun, and gives me backrubs when i say. oh the joys!

of no ac at home.

10 more days to go.

poor mom, its either 4000 to fix it now or 1500 to wait for a part to come in. i miss you comfy pillow top mattress!!!!

at least my auntie lives so close and doesn't care that i am staying with her.

why is it that there a million boys, and the one i really like, i don't think its gonna work out with. im going to just let it be, and whatever appens happens. im not gonna chase someone down.

i will quit my one job today. no human should have to work 70+ hours in a week. it makes one do weird things like breakdown and cry at work...

my lil cousin just came back from her trip to ny. i missed her so much. she's like the little sis i never had but now do. i always wanted one, but i used to hate her when she was little. now she is the coolest. i feel like i am giving back a bit. my sis is the best, and now i have a younger one to do what i say and spoil them!

ok, (e:peeps), have a good weekend....

my homesickness has come to a peak and i shall return to the drty buff within the next 3 months... get ready. ;)

1 week of no ac at home. i am an official refugee from the heat.

fu-gee la la la.

the guest bedroom at my aunt's is still hot. and the bedd feel like there is a slab of rock in them. they are laso twin size. which means child size to me.

but they do have a sweet house and give me good wine and food.

my mom and sister think i like ghetto guys. they are kinda right.

not so much ghetto, but a little bad. the nice ones never measure up.


next week i will:

make my way home

start a new book

work about 70 hours

so, if you google my name, and click on images, you get all sorts of not appropriate results. umm, i was foolish and wasn't thinking, wow one day, i will want to be a teacher, and that's not a good idea.

if i contact google, will they take it down? or should i change career choices yet again?

umm our air conditioner is broken. luckily i was out and didn't sleep at home last night, but now i am here, and it's hot as hell in this biznatch.

someone needs to come fix this now!!!!!!!!!!!

i think i am just going to sit in the pool until someone can come....