so, i love my one job, i really do. i love kids. they a;ways have such a interesting take on everything, and its so great to see them do so many things for the first time and watch their minds grow. plus, they are cute and cuddly, and nothing is better than cute and cuddly!
but, waking up at 5am is no fun. i stayed at the little girl's house whom i work for, because the father is out of town this week, and she can be handful. anyway, its good money, because part of the time, i am sleeping, but my oh my, this all makes me wonder...
1. When if ever will I want kids? I love them, but it is soooo much work, and you have no life outside of them, if you decide to raise a family.
2. When if ever, will I get married? Actually its not a "when", question, because I don't really care right now. But, at the hospital, everyone married with kids, and all they do is bitch! They have no social lives, and they have to work so hard to pay for what their kids wants, and they aren't happy with their husbands. I think you can be happy, but I honestly think it's a ton of work, and few and far between don't end up getting divorced.
I just think many women sell themselves short and are always desperately looking for a man to complete them. I also think, many people don't feel like a "whole" person without someone else. Maybe more so women, and not directed at any women on this site.
Anyway, it could be my bitterness of not being in love, but I no longer look at couples in love and get jealous. I get jealous of people who own Marc Jacobs, and can afford private jets.
I am jealous of people who have drivers, or just don't have a car and can walk everyone. I want to walk everywhere again.
If the asshole British guy calls me again in the middle of the night an wakes me up, I am going to have some words. But, for now, I will just silence his calls. The waiter called me for a date, but I think maybe not.
But I AM thinking, Blo in January! Then maybe NYC, prob both. Ok so, here's what I need to know, since no one ever calls me back! AHEM! (e:paul), do you guys still want to rent a cabin in Alleghany? And, I hate having to communicate through my blog, but sometimes desperate times calls for desperate measures!
I am now going to sleep for two hours before I work a million more hours!
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11/09/2007 10:34 #42057
most work everCategory: work
10/30/2007 02:59 #41880
the new operating system...Category: macbook
who has it, should i get it? is it worth it?
tell me people, tell me!
tell me people, tell me!
jenks - 10/30/07 19:01
I like it... I don't like 'stacks' though- I liked it better the way it was before. Hopefully it's just a matter of getting used to it.
Overall I'm happy with it, but it's not like you absolutely can't live without it, I'd say.
I like it... I don't like 'stacks' though- I liked it better the way it was before. Hopefully it's just a matter of getting used to it.
Overall I'm happy with it, but it's not like you absolutely can't live without it, I'd say.
james - 10/30/07 12:57
I like it.
Jim loves it.
He knows more about these things though to form a better opinion. So I would go with his.
I like it.
Jim loves it.
He knows more about these things though to form a better opinion. So I would go with his.
10/30/2007 02:20 #41879
ive got nothingto say.
havent blogged in a while, but it could be cause my life is so damn boring these days.
work.
school.
sleep.
i feel like there will be something good soon. or i can rely on my massage, paycheck, and dinner plans this weekend!
havent blogged in a while, but it could be cause my life is so damn boring these days.
work.
school.
sleep.
i feel like there will be something good soon. or i can rely on my massage, paycheck, and dinner plans this weekend!
enknot - 10/30/07 12:31
No lil ho, there will be nothing good soon. Not, at least, until you get out of school. I know when I was in school I became this yucky bullion of what ever I was studying. I tried to communicate with humans, but it was difficult since I didn't even know what was on the news cause I had no time. Nope, you don't get your life back until you get a degree. Maybe not even until you get a job with said degree since your school debt will be so steep Sir Edmund Hillary wouldn't go near it. Ok, I'm done ranting.
No lil ho, there will be nothing good soon. Not, at least, until you get out of school. I know when I was in school I became this yucky bullion of what ever I was studying. I tried to communicate with humans, but it was difficult since I didn't even know what was on the news cause I had no time. Nope, you don't get your life back until you get a degree. Maybe not even until you get a job with said degree since your school debt will be so steep Sir Edmund Hillary wouldn't go near it. Ok, I'm done ranting.
10/28/2007 02:24 #41844
sigh!Category: sexy men
[box]we should get married, indeed. we just need to check the prenuptials, then we are all set. i don't consider myself the tragic hero, more likely a picky, independent, being-passionate-about-his-music spoiled only child who hasn't found his match yet. you might call this an awful personality faw. maybe. not. well. anyway.
how do you keep the boys in line? you exude a refreshing sensuality that is quite unique. plus the design. i think you will be good at it.
besides being a happy viola piper, i write (published a book of poetry), drink espresso, love opera, skinnydip in lake zurich in mild summer nights, travel, work in a film club, teach, sing (my everlasting love), dance ballroom, eat fondueduring mid august heat waves, play soccer and read glauser and marquez.
and yes, i need a good cook!
i will serenade you while cooking, though.
what gets you excited in life?[/box]
if he is for real. and i think he is. if not, its what my dreams are made of... i need me some of this man! basically all around what sarah wants/needs in a guy! plus the hotness, but i wont post photos because that makes me more crazy than i already am.
and i wonder, how public is this blog, going to google myself right now...
how do you keep the boys in line? you exude a refreshing sensuality that is quite unique. plus the design. i think you will be good at it.
besides being a happy viola piper, i write (published a book of poetry), drink espresso, love opera, skinnydip in lake zurich in mild summer nights, travel, work in a film club, teach, sing (my everlasting love), dance ballroom, eat fondueduring mid august heat waves, play soccer and read glauser and marquez.
and yes, i need a good cook!
i will serenade you while cooking, though.
what gets you excited in life?[/box]
if he is for real. and i think he is. if not, its what my dreams are made of... i need me some of this man! basically all around what sarah wants/needs in a guy! plus the hotness, but i wont post photos because that makes me more crazy than i already am.
and i wonder, how public is this blog, going to google myself right now...
10/25/2007 23:01 #41805
Freakonomics!Category: books
i know, i know, im like three years behind the loop. but, if you are too, and you havent read this, you need too! now!
it blows my mind. and, i of course give credit to (e:hodown), who suggested i use the book the back up my persuasive speech with info from the amazing book.
speech topic: why pro choice is the only choice that makes sense.
and, (e:paul), i am not obsessed with abortion like you might think. ok, maybe a little. but, when i thought about what i am passionate about, this came to mind. i fully believe in the woman's right to choose, and you will too after you read this book.
it blows my mind. and, i of course give credit to (e:hodown), who suggested i use the book the back up my persuasive speech with info from the amazing book.
speech topic: why pro choice is the only choice that makes sense.
and, (e:paul), i am not obsessed with abortion like you might think. ok, maybe a little. but, when i thought about what i am passionate about, this came to mind. i fully believe in the woman's right to choose, and you will too after you read this book.
jenks - 10/27/07 11:14
thanks for the reminder; I've been meaning to read that book for ages. And speaking of "freak"- I have a story to tell you!!!!
thanks for the reminder; I've been meaning to read that book for ages. And speaking of "freak"- I have a story to tell you!!!!
joshua - 10/26/07 09:31
Levitt argues that Roe vs. Wade led directly to reduced crime - well, when 20 million babies got aborted I think perhaps thats a very macabre way of determining how to fight violent crime!
Another argument he makes is that abortion has prevented millions of people from becoming poor and unproductive members of our society. That is a highly, highly dubious assumption to make.
He also suggests that swimming pools are less safe than guns for the average person. He is using the same logic and methodology for his other arguments in the book, by the way.
In a way, using this book to defend abortion would be like using Al Gore's movie to defend the premise of global warming.
Sarah I think you need to realize that opposition to abortion isn't necessarily a religious issue at all. Drew didn't bring it up - you did!
Levitt argues that Roe vs. Wade led directly to reduced crime - well, when 20 million babies got aborted I think perhaps thats a very macabre way of determining how to fight violent crime!
Another argument he makes is that abortion has prevented millions of people from becoming poor and unproductive members of our society. That is a highly, highly dubious assumption to make.
He also suggests that swimming pools are less safe than guns for the average person. He is using the same logic and methodology for his other arguments in the book, by the way.
In a way, using this book to defend abortion would be like using Al Gore's movie to defend the premise of global warming.
Sarah I think you need to realize that opposition to abortion isn't necessarily a religious issue at all. Drew didn't bring it up - you did!
jason - 10/26/07 08:52
I'm happy you found something you are passionate about. Me, I'm Pro-Choice broadly speaking, but support a total ban on PBA procedures like Dilation and Extraction.
The thing about that chapter is that it is so controversial, and not just because of the subject matter. Some time ago, many different economists saw fatal flaws in Levitt's analysis, and of course Levitt dug his heels in and defended his analysis, like a good little academic. Of course, the media attention, his celebrity, along with the desires of retailers around the world to sell the book, won the day.
In the end, Levitt's case became weaker and weaker when put up to scrutiny, but it isn't 100% debunked. I think you should check out some of the competing arguments as part of your research, if not to at least understand what the opposite opinion is - you could possibly come up with a stronger paper.
But, at least his methods and the data are open, for the purpose of debate, and are not a joke - which is something you definitely cannot say for other media-trumped reports people read (think Lancet and Iraq).
I'm happy you found something you are passionate about. Me, I'm Pro-Choice broadly speaking, but support a total ban on PBA procedures like Dilation and Extraction.
The thing about that chapter is that it is so controversial, and not just because of the subject matter. Some time ago, many different economists saw fatal flaws in Levitt's analysis, and of course Levitt dug his heels in and defended his analysis, like a good little academic. Of course, the media attention, his celebrity, along with the desires of retailers around the world to sell the book, won the day.
In the end, Levitt's case became weaker and weaker when put up to scrutiny, but it isn't 100% debunked. I think you should check out some of the competing arguments as part of your research, if not to at least understand what the opposite opinion is - you could possibly come up with a stronger paper.
But, at least his methods and the data are open, for the purpose of debate, and are not a joke - which is something you definitely cannot say for other media-trumped reports people read (think Lancet and Iraq).
drew - 10/26/07 00:03
I've got no problem with the case that you make in your comment (well, not many, at least), but from what I remember of freakonomics, their work says somethings different.
And, just to make things clear, I did not make any statement (here) about religion.
I've got no problem with the case that you make in your comment (well, not many, at least), but from what I remember of freakonomics, their work says somethings different.
And, just to make things clear, I did not make any statement (here) about religion.
lilho - 10/25/07 23:52
i disagree. i use it to back up my opinion, because, if i were to get pregnant, along with many other women who are single and not prepared for the emotional, psychological, and social hardship a child brings. it is not fair for unwanted children to be born. look at how many there already are. it would not be right to force me, to bring a child into this world that i might end up resenting, and have my child continue on this cycle. if you take a look at what happened in romania, you will recognize the effect forcing people to procreate causes. and lets face it, some people just shouldnt be parents, but doe that mean they should have to pay for making a mistake man of us make? should they not be allowed to enjoy sex? no, people should be educated about birth control, and sex, and the responsibility sexual activity brings. but, they should also have the option to choose what they want to do with their own bodies. we cannot make this a religious issue, which so many people do. religion does not belong in politics.
i disagree. i use it to back up my opinion, because, if i were to get pregnant, along with many other women who are single and not prepared for the emotional, psychological, and social hardship a child brings. it is not fair for unwanted children to be born. look at how many there already are. it would not be right to force me, to bring a child into this world that i might end up resenting, and have my child continue on this cycle. if you take a look at what happened in romania, you will recognize the effect forcing people to procreate causes. and lets face it, some people just shouldnt be parents, but doe that mean they should have to pay for making a mistake man of us make? should they not be allowed to enjoy sex? no, people should be educated about birth control, and sex, and the responsibility sexual activity brings. but, they should also have the option to choose what they want to do with their own bodies. we cannot make this a religious issue, which so many people do. religion does not belong in politics.
drew - 10/25/07 23:17
I loved this book, but I don't think you want to use it as a pro-abortion argument, because it points out that most of the abortions are performed on "undesireds," who are more likely to commit crimes. This book argues that abortion reduces crime, but at the same time, it makes an abortion look a lot like genocide.
I loved this book, but I don't think you want to use it as a pro-abortion argument, because it points out that most of the abortions are performed on "undesireds," who are more likely to commit crimes. This book argues that abortion reduces crime, but at the same time, it makes an abortion look a lot like genocide.
(e:drew) has some excellent points below-- one should be happy THAT they have/are/do things, not BECAUSE.
And so many people seem to think that an internal problem (i.e., their lack of happiness with themselves or their world) is going to be solved by an external change (getting married, having children, buying a Lear jet).
The people I envy are the ones who seem to enjoy their lives and whatever they do to make their livings.
I'm under some pressure to get married-- (e:zobar) and I have been living together for over five years now. But what would getting married do? The tax breaks aren't that great and neither of us has good health insurance anyway. I shocked my mother when I said the only reason I'd get married was for insurance or legal purposes, but it's true.
I *would* like an excuse to throw the biggest party of my life-- that would be fun-- but I don't really need an excuse to blow fifteen grand. That's the single biggest obstacle in my mind to having this otherwise-unnecessary ceremony and party.
Sigh. It's such a blast living in a society that's undergone so much recent high-speed change that our shared rituals have become meaningless. But I'm not sad that marriage doesn't mean "what it used to"-- what it used to be was primarily a legal contract, and anyone who says differently is selling something-- but I am a bit conflicted over the whole thing.
My thoughts on your comments about marriage and what makes you jealous: EXACTLY. That's how I feel. All the women I work with are the same way. If they're happy its because they're divorced and dating or divorced and just have their kids to worry about. When I saw Devil Wears Prada I really wanted her to go for the life of glamour and fame and forget the boy.
I don't think its so much the marriage as the people in it. Too many people are unhappy, and some think that a job will do it, others think that a person will do it, and others think money will do it. My guess is that the guys at (e:jason)'s work didn't love life before they get married ('cause then why would they have done so?), but now that they are married the wife is a convienient person to blame.
And some people find happiness when they get married or get the private jet or whatever, but I maintain that they are few and far between, and mostly pretending.
For the record, I am happy (at least much of the time) THAT I am married, but not BECAUSE I am married. Likewise, I am happy that I have a car and a house and some other stuff, but not BECAUSE of those things.
Every once in a while I get jealous of people that have more money, but once I get to know them I tend to lose my jealousy.
Yeah. Almost to a man the older guys I talk to tell me never to get married. I wouldn't say they are out and out miserable but they're unhappy enough to tell me not to make the same mistake!