Working at the quit line make me want to smoke so much. It is torture. I haven't had strong cigarette cravings like this in so long. Why does hearing people hack up a lung from smoking for so many years make me want to smoke?
I sort of know the answer:
1) This is a return to my old smoking environment. (The call center)
2) Smokers are stressful.
3) I'm not used to being inactive and without windows to outside environment. (I'm used to very high physical demand over the last 7 years)
4) People are smoking as they are calling us.
5) I'm still and always will be an addict.
6) I need to apply the techniques the quit line recommends such as having a plan for the situations in which my addiction is triggered. I also need to recognize what triggers my own cravings.
7) Talking about smoking reminds me of how much I loved cigarettes even though they made me so unhappy.
8) I'm dealing with multiple changes at once.
9) It makes me nervous that parts of my job is a real challenge for me. The bilingual calls are really freaking me out. Even though I know I can do it, I also know that I have difficulties in this area. It is a lot of pressure.
10) Cigarettes are a stimulant and I really could use that to get through listening to 8 hours of other people talk on the phone (I'm still in training).
I swear
(e:drew), I had no intention of doing a top ten list. It was probably the most therapeutic thing I could have done and now I will recommend it to my clients.
Global warming can only be good news for Western New York, unless of course we find ourselves knee-deep in lake erie.
That is, until the rest of the world gets really screwed up and all humanity dies.
But there might be a really good window of a couple decades where we become a prime place to live.
We should go back in time to 1903 to ask how they handled global warming.
Yay for global warming!! ;)
I was so drunkenly happy with all that heat today afternoon. Hope winter never turns up at Buffalo's doorstep!