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07/10/2007 21:50 #40043

howdy
Two days down at the new job. So far so good. The attorney I work for is really nice and really patient. He's really understanding about the fact that I'm a little lost and overwhelmed, and he's very willing to help me out when I don't understand something. Let's see how long this lasts, haha. I actually work for 2 attorneys but one of them is leaving the firm on Friday...was it something I said?

yep. thats about all that's new. Europe was awesome. Milan is kind of gross and covered in graffiti but it was neat to go, I don't plan to go back. Madrid I would definitely go back to, it was cool. We didn't get to go out at all, so sometime I want to go with friends so we can go out on the town on a saturday night or something. It would be a great city to go to as a couple.


i love the show Whose Wedding is it Anyway. It makes me want to get married. Not that I didn't want to get married before, but it makes me want to plan a wedding and try on wedding dresses and pick out flowers and stuff. It looks like fun even though I'm sure it would be wicked stressful if you were actually the one getting married.

i can't get over how much this bride's dress and veil do not go together. i can't describe it, but its a hot mess.


06/25/2007 07:46 #39802

this is kind of a "down on myself" entry
So i have to work 7am-3pm every day this week. except friday, when (hopefully) I'll be on a European adventure with my mom and (e:mk).

this leads to a problem for me.

Wednesday night I want to go out...there's this guy I'm interested in and I know where he'll be on Wednesday night, and its in a place that it would be totally normal for me to be there as well. Therefore, I of course plan to be there. Problem: It's like 10 miles away. I have to be up by like 6:30 the next morning. ouch.

The whole process/bullshit of being interested in someone sucks. I have no reason to think he might be interested in me. He's a really nice guy, he's cute, now granted he's a republican (I'm not and yes this does bother me a little because he's super politically conservative) and he's not a guy that I went to college with.

Wouldn't the world be a better place if there was no bullshit? You could just say "Hey! You're cute, funny, smart, single and straight. Hey! I'm all those things too. Let's see where this goes" and if they weren't interested they would say so, no one's feelings would be hurt, and we'd all move on with our lives.

Alas, this is not how we function as a society. Therefore I will be forced to conveniently show up a few places, find random (and few) reasons to send him a message on facebook or post on his wall, occasionally bring up his name in conversations with people who know him better than I do, and basically suffer through that irritating feeling I get in my stomach when I like someone but know nothing will come of it. Becuase, let's face it, it never does.

I have his phone number but only because of facebook events he's invited me to. I don't know if he has mine, we've never officially exchanged them. This is annoying. What I need is more confidence.

Therefore, I constantly psych myself out and convince myself that there's no way any guy could or would like me, especially this guy. I don't think any ever has, other than the couple that I've dated. I just don't think I'm the kind of girl that guys like. What does that mean I think guys like? Couldn't really tell ya, but basically not me. Then what's even worse, if a guy does like me, I'm afraid that once they get to know me better they'll be like "oh man I can do better than this" or that they only like me because they're desperate and have lowered their standards.

If I read these words written by a friend of mine, I'd punch them in the face. But please don't punch me in the face, I've felt this way about myself for....my entire life.

In like every other aspect of my life I'm probably too confident, so I dump all my insecurity in this part of my world.
museumchick - 06/26/07 02:09
I definitely understand about self-doubt and feeling insecure about dating; and like you, I would probably get upset at my friends for feeling that way about themselves. But it would seem to me that many guys would like you and find you appealing. I guess many men often have a lack of confidence; which can be percieved by a girl as being disinterest.
vycious - 06/25/07 22:34
confidence is a must, and i might add- check your insecurities at the door if things start to develop. if there is anything i have learned in the past month, its that love is not for the cowardly or anxietal.
metalpeter - 06/25/07 18:51
What you are saying about how you feal about your self, I admit I often feel that way to and a lot of people have self doubt. I beleive it was Groucho Marks who said "I don't want to be in any club that will have me". Basicly he was saying that he wasn't good enough to be in a special group so any place that had low enough standerds for him to be in wasn't good enough for him"

I say you can maybe solve both your problems. I know it is hard but suck it up and go right up to him and say basicly what you said here about it is to bad that as a society as men and women we have to play those games and do the dance. Now if you get a response that says anything about it being bs or anything. Then you make your move and say something like here is what I wanted to say to you and say what you said. The reason the games work is because both sides decide to play them and do them even thought they don't like them. Hey who knows maybe if you play your cards right you won't have to wake up early cause you will still be up. Ah what ever happens I wish you the best of luck.
jason - 06/25/07 08:59
Anne, the good news is that you're not alone. Most of us think like that at some point.
mk - 06/25/07 08:40
don't worry, i'm going to punch you in the face when you get home. :)

i'm not going to give you some deep meaningful advice because i talk to you like 9 hours a day and that would be stupid. but i'm telling you, our signal at bars is clearly the way to go. clears up a lot of questions and is straight to the point. don't forget to stick out your lips too. that's clearly the sexiest pose ever.

06/18/2007 18:00 #39722

good times
So I finally have a grown-up job. i'm a litigation secretary at Lipsitz, Green, Scime, and Cambria. I'll be working as a secretary/assistant for 2 attorneys. I don't really feel that I'm totally qualified for the position, by knowing my education, experience and skills, they stilll hired me. So...sweet. There are some perks, 1 hour for lunch, (unpaid but whatev), full benefits and other stuff. I'll start July 9th. so byebye Urban Valet.

on a not so awesome note, I still haven't received my passport. I filed my application march 27th, and as of today have not yet received it. I called the office and waited on hold FOREVER and some woman took care of things because my trip is within 2 weeks. I will be beyond devastated if I can't go on our trip. I'm sure that I'll be able to, considering I filed my application 12 weeks ago and it was supposed to be to me in 10-12 weeks and it isn't yet. Fortunately it isn't that I received it and accidentally threw it away or anything, it's still at the processing center in New Hampshire. I should've just paid to have it expedited. My friend did and got his like 4 weeks before he expected to.

Any tick, now I get to go shopping for work clothes, how bizoring/ I'm really excited to have nice clothes. I generally dress like crap. haha.
james - 06/19/07 11:41
I don't know what is up with the White House. Threatening that land travel to and from Canada would not require a pass port is not a law. Support for it isn't even close to enough to make this seem like a done deal. There is a huge number of people applying for passports because they think they will need them to get into Canada.

There has been no increase in staffing at processing centers to handle this either. It is just a big headache. And this isn't a Bush-is-stupid sort of deal. It is the panic everyone else is feeling.

I hope you get it soon. Congrats with the new job.
joshua - 06/19/07 09:39
Good firm - a good friend of mine used to work there while she was finishing law school and she had a ton of great things to say about the firm.

One of their clients is Larry Flynt and I have a great story about one of the things she had to do there on behalf of Mr. Flynt.
zobar - 06/18/07 23:01
U.S. citizens with pending passport applications allowed temporary travel flexibility :::link:::

- Z

06/13/2007 12:27 #39637

Living in the early 90s
So (e:mk) and I are all moved in but we are without the internet/cable until Tuesday. booooo. I'm pirating wireless from Spot coffee right now. how enjoyable.

We're planning a 'woohoo we have our sweet new apartment' party for the near future, but our apartment is not huge so it can't be tooo many people, we'll keep ya posted, who knows when it'll be.

The job search continues. I had an interview with an agency today, and I had an email this morning from a woman and another call from an HR manager both who saw my resume on Monster.com. Its looking like Monster.com is the way to go for getting jobs. I had to take this wacky computer skills test. Anne hasn't used Excel in a while and she's pretty sure she didn't do so hot on that section, but she knows she aced the typing and Word tests because she uses those skills on an almost daily basis. Nevertheless despite my probably lackluster performance I got an interview with the office that needs a receptionist. Sweet. Here's hoping by the end of next week I'll have a real job!!!!!

yay! think good thoughts for me!!


joshua - 06/13/07 15:34
Hmm I don't think SPoT has a router - at least they didn't used to. Previously people would steal wireless service from my downstairs neighbor becuase his network was unencrypted - whoops! Now you've made me curious and I'll have to ask the kids that work there. Coincidentally this is why when Jay and I get wireless we're going to encrypt the bejeezus out of it. This ain't a soup kitchen!

Congrats to you and your sister on the move - I hope that you two have a good time living there and good luck with the search!



museumchick - 06/13/07 14:27
I hope things go well with the job search for you. That's awesome about the apartment, though.
fellyconnelly - 06/13/07 13:37
congrats on the move!

06/08/2007 23:18 #39587

mooooving time
So tomorrow's the big day!!!

except for a few clothes and a few odds and ends, and my bike, everything I own is packed up and sitting in my living room. its not that weird actually, i've only been at home since last thursday, and before that I was last at home for about 5 weeks last summer. I'm not emotional about it. My new place is actually closer to my parent's house than my old apartment was.

so a (i thought) good friend of mine told me she couldn't help me move because she had to work all day tomorrow, fine, not a big deal, work is work, I didn't think twice about it.

This was about a week ago, fast forward to this afternoon. I see about 5 facebook wall posts of her asking people if they want to go to the beach tomorrow...excuse me? Even if your work schedule changed and you still didn't want to help, at least call me and say so, don't just ignore me. She sat in her room while I moved all of my stuff out of our old apartment and didn't even offer to help, and I was doing it mostly by myself.
This whole thing just leaves me feeling hurt. I guess its out of sight out of mind. I didn't realize she was such a fair-weather friend. I won't even get into all of the things we've done together and all that. She wouldn't even live in the fucking apartment we shared for a year if I didn't make it happen. She's always been immature and passive aggressive so I don't know why this surprises me. Oh well, I was never 100% sure we'd stay close, I wanted us too and thought we would, but apparently I don't mean as much to her as she did to me. I guess dirty dishes mean more to her than our friendship.

Ok got that out of my system. Together with my 8 year old cousin we created a secret handshake for the apartment, all who enter must learn it.
anyone wants to help: 432 Richmond at about 10:30-11:00am!!! :)

fellyconnelly - 06/09/07 10:47
i would have face book commented her something like this 'hey can i join you at the beach?' and then say nothing else and see what she says. counter passive agressive with passive agressive!
lilho - 06/09/07 09:58
a friend in need is a friend indeed. when you need help or support is when you really learn who your true friends are. i would totally come help, but i have to have a yard sale as i am moving in a few days myself! good luck!