Yah, I said my happies to Jenks but it slipped my mind that cinco is also Codypomeray's b-day! You know I would have texted you if I was in the country :)
So I just reviewed my journal from this time last year. It's amazing. I remember being that shadow of a person, trapped within myself. I'm not all better, but I am much better. Look at me now for Pete's sake. I'm sitting in a posh hotel in freaking Doha, Qatar!
You really don't know what is around the next corner in your life. You shouldn't take people for granted, you should appreciate each day - shitty or grand, you should take the time to tell someone what they mean to you. It's not all sentimental feelings, I don't do that anymore. I just remember thinking as my plane took off from the Buffalo airport that if I am offered this job (I will take it) I will be away from the things I know here.
I don't get homesick. I adapt very easily to new environments and make friends easily. What I'm really thinking about here is what I will mean to you when I'm gone. Will you think of me at all? Will you forget about me because I'm not around? Will you miss me? Or will life simply carry on as if I had never been there at all? I will return. It will not be 'good-bye'. It will be 'till we meet again'.
Enough of that. Let me tell you my luggage finally arrived tonight! Safe and sound. They found it somewhere in the world and shipped it via Air-France. Qatar Airways says they will reimburse me $100 for the clothes I had to buy. I hope it's true! Tomorrow will be my last day for interviews, then it's time to explore more of Doha. I will also connect with my Aunt and Uncle that just moved here.
Oh! Remember last post how I talked about meeting 3 people that had gone to school in Buffalo? Today I had an interview with all of the RA's, and one of them actually attended Texas A&M Univ- Corpus Christi!!! My God this world really is small! Amazing.
Sleep well my fellow strippers, I shall see you in a few days. I think it is near time for a party. I think the 333 will be hosting one first week of June. Keep your calendars open!
Ciao- LC
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05/07/2007 16:36 #39193
happy birthday codypomeray!Category: potpourri
05/06/2007 15:09 #39177
the doha sagaCategory: travels
I got up this morning, still no bath water. So I took a sponge bath out of the sink. Couldn't wash my hair but I still don't have a comb anyway...
I wrapped my stinky shirt around one of these scented soaps so that it would act as a perfume. It helped a little. I must say I was looking quite stylish in my black suit, grey shirt, white socks and blue crocs. Oh yes, I did.
We checked on my luggage and found out that Paris doesn't actually have it. In fact, it is 'missing' altogether. They can't seem to track it down, even though we live in the modern age of bar codes and scanners. It's entertaining really.
I've been able to make a great impression on everyone regardless of the threads. I made my power point presentation, 15 minutes on the nose! I didn't realize I would be presenting in a high-tech lecture hall, complete with an audience of 20! Yah, can't lie, I was nervous. Then they questioned me for an additional 30 minutes.
I had to take a tour of Education City, walking for many parts of it. Remember, I'm wearing a black polyester suit. It was 106 today. Mmhmm. I sweated like a prostitute in church.
In light of my dissapearing luggage act Kristin took me shopping to find replacements for tomorrow's interviews. She also gave me a pair of flip flops.
We went out to dinner at a place that reminded me so much of Sahara Grill. The instant they opened the door I smelled it. That delicious and sweet scent that only the hookah can produce. Oh yaaaah. I had a new drink, lemonade with mint. Refreshing.
I finally got back to my room around 9pm. The water was on! I'm all clean, have fresh clothes to wear tomorrow and am no longer nervous because that presentation is over. Woot!
The people here are so incredibly friendly!! And if you want to know just how small our world really is...I met not one, not two, but three....THREE people, not Americans, who attended school in Buffalo! :O
Ok, it's 10pm, I am thuroughly exhausted and I have another 8am breakfast meeting. In other words, I'm outie.
Ciao, timika
I wrapped my stinky shirt around one of these scented soaps so that it would act as a perfume. It helped a little. I must say I was looking quite stylish in my black suit, grey shirt, white socks and blue crocs. Oh yes, I did.
We checked on my luggage and found out that Paris doesn't actually have it. In fact, it is 'missing' altogether. They can't seem to track it down, even though we live in the modern age of bar codes and scanners. It's entertaining really.
I've been able to make a great impression on everyone regardless of the threads. I made my power point presentation, 15 minutes on the nose! I didn't realize I would be presenting in a high-tech lecture hall, complete with an audience of 20! Yah, can't lie, I was nervous. Then they questioned me for an additional 30 minutes.
I had to take a tour of Education City, walking for many parts of it. Remember, I'm wearing a black polyester suit. It was 106 today. Mmhmm. I sweated like a prostitute in church.
In light of my dissapearing luggage act Kristin took me shopping to find replacements for tomorrow's interviews. She also gave me a pair of flip flops.
We went out to dinner at a place that reminded me so much of Sahara Grill. The instant they opened the door I smelled it. That delicious and sweet scent that only the hookah can produce. Oh yaaaah. I had a new drink, lemonade with mint. Refreshing.
I finally got back to my room around 9pm. The water was on! I'm all clean, have fresh clothes to wear tomorrow and am no longer nervous because that presentation is over. Woot!
The people here are so incredibly friendly!! And if you want to know just how small our world really is...I met not one, not two, but three....THREE people, not Americans, who attended school in Buffalo! :O
Ok, it's 10pm, I am thuroughly exhausted and I have another 8am breakfast meeting. In other words, I'm outie.
Ciao, timika
jenks - 05/06/07 15:51
yeah, last time my luggage was lost, I was like 'well can't you just scan the barcode and know exactly where it is?" and they looked at me like I was crazy. I mean, it seems like they have the technology, why not use it?! So stupid.
yeah, last time my luggage was lost, I was like 'well can't you just scan the barcode and know exactly where it is?" and they looked at me like I was crazy. I mean, it seems like they have the technology, why not use it?! So stupid.
05/05/2007 17:30 #39167
greetings from doha, qatarCategory: travels
This has been the longest travel treck of my life. I have been up for 46 hours, in transit for 25 of those! I landed safely in Doha after a stop in Newark and Paris. My feet are puffed up like Macy's Day Parade balloons. My luggage didn't make it with. It's still in Paris. The next flight doesn't arrive until 7pm tomorrow.
I begin my interviewing at 9am. I had my suit with me, and a change of underware, but no shoes or shirt. So...Kevin and Kristin said, "whatever, you came prepared enough, they'll understand". So, I shall make my power point presentation to the lot of them wearing a stinky shirt that I've been in for 35 hours and my blue crocs. Yesssssss!
Best part is, they hook me up in this sweet hotel. It's beautiful. They gave me a cell phone and laptop, paid for the internet and any room service I want. Only downer thus far is that I was so desperate to take a nice warm shower to relax...and nothing but a tiny trickle came out, then stopped. I called the front desk and they said a water main broke and they are trying to fix it.
THIS is what I call adventuring! At least they have these nice fluffy robes. So I'm walking around in that to at least let my shirt breath. I guess I'll have to sleep in the buff.
I managed to get a tooth care kit but they don't have deoderant. What do I need more right now if I can't take a shower! Ha. I also won't have a comb or any make-up for tomorrow. So I'll have to charm their pants off with my humor and intelligence.
Ok, seriously, it's almost 1am and I have a breakfast meeting at 8am. MUST SLEEP! Oh, and it's averaging about 105 degrees. I'm SO gonna smell funky :)
Ciao, LC
I begin my interviewing at 9am. I had my suit with me, and a change of underware, but no shoes or shirt. So...Kevin and Kristin said, "whatever, you came prepared enough, they'll understand". So, I shall make my power point presentation to the lot of them wearing a stinky shirt that I've been in for 35 hours and my blue crocs. Yesssssss!
Best part is, they hook me up in this sweet hotel. It's beautiful. They gave me a cell phone and laptop, paid for the internet and any room service I want. Only downer thus far is that I was so desperate to take a nice warm shower to relax...and nothing but a tiny trickle came out, then stopped. I called the front desk and they said a water main broke and they are trying to fix it.
THIS is what I call adventuring! At least they have these nice fluffy robes. So I'm walking around in that to at least let my shirt breath. I guess I'll have to sleep in the buff.
I managed to get a tooth care kit but they don't have deoderant. What do I need more right now if I can't take a shower! Ha. I also won't have a comb or any make-up for tomorrow. So I'll have to charm their pants off with my humor and intelligence.
Ok, seriously, it's almost 1am and I have a breakfast meeting at 8am. MUST SLEEP! Oh, and it's averaging about 105 degrees. I'm SO gonna smell funky :)
Ciao, LC
theecarey - 05/06/07 11:25
omg, i am imagining your interview outfit! crocks! thats hilarious. if you didnt have your suit, would you have been interviewing in green sweats? lol
you'll do just fine with your humor, intelligence and upbeat adventuring attitude. As long as they have the same..
oh, and nose plugs ;)
omg, i am imagining your interview outfit! crocks! thats hilarious. if you didnt have your suit, would you have been interviewing in green sweats? lol
you'll do just fine with your humor, intelligence and upbeat adventuring attitude. As long as they have the same..
oh, and nose plugs ;)
jenks - 05/06/07 10:01
Good luck!! I didn't realize you were going so soon!
Good luck!! I didn't realize you were going so soon!
metalpeter - 05/05/07 17:38
Since it sounds like you are crunched for time you may not read this in time but I wish you luck, unless that is unlucky and then what ever the lucky term is for an interview. I can't imagine that heat or being up for that long. That being said I'm sure you will give a great presentation and make a great case.
Since it sounds like you are crunched for time you may not read this in time but I wish you luck, unless that is unlucky and then what ever the lucky term is for an interview. I can't imagine that heat or being up for that long. That being said I'm sure you will give a great presentation and make a great case.
05/02/2007 12:41 #39128
fuck you charlieCategory: dreams
I woke up sweaty and full of anxiety. I had tears in my eyes. I had a bad dream. Not like the nightmares I had recently, but it was bad. It was chock full of betrayal by people I love. Holy chipmunks on crack Batman, it was that awful! It opened a well of emotions I hoped would remain closed. Why?
I had coffee with (e:Joshua) recently and somehow our topic of conversation turned to relationships. Issues of trust, betrayal, abandonment, cheating, lying, fighting, living together...you name it, it was discussed. I brought up stories of people I hadn't thought about in yeeeeeeears.
The things I wish I had the confidence to say back then. I was only 22, what did I know? He cheated on me, only I caught him with the latest flavor. There were 4 more previous to her. What was the point of being in a relationship for 3 years if you really just wanted to NOT be in one?
What I expressed to Josh was the reasoning that if you live in constant fear that your significant other is unfaithful, you have nothing. I never thought about those things because I had to base our relationship on trust and friendship; I was in it 110%.
Paul! I really do hope your marriage is working out and that she is the 'something better' that came along.
Paul and I were also together for 3 years. We were a great team. We never argued but were able to disagree peacefully. One day, out of nowhere, I get "I'm just a guy in my 20's - what if something better comes along?" But, there was already someone new, not 'what if'. Ouch.
I really struggled with this one. On one hand I was completely and utterly humiliated because he basically told me I was just a pleasantry on his journey to true happiness. On the other, although really shitty, he was honest. As it turned out he pursued his new fancy to no avail. 6 months later he came back with, "I made a mistake".
This was incredibly difficult to hear. However, I had come to accept our separation without tears. It was just too little too late. Almost every girl I know would have taken him back. They would take him back because they would feel triumphant. It's easy to go back to what you know, where you felt safe, where you once felt loved. I couldn't take him back because I realized however lame the reason sounded to me, it was reason enough. It ended because it was time for it to end. I was 26.
Now that you've read about my two longest relationships, let us get back to the well of emotions unearthed in my sleep last night. I dreamed that everyone I knew, all of my friends, the distant ones as well as the close ones, betrayed me in some form or another. I felt so isolated, so alone. I had no one to talk to.
I had coffee with (e:Joshua) recently and somehow our topic of conversation turned to relationships. Issues of trust, betrayal, abandonment, cheating, lying, fighting, living together...you name it, it was discussed. I brought up stories of people I hadn't thought about in yeeeeeeears.
The things I wish I had the confidence to say back then. I was only 22, what did I know? He cheated on me, only I caught him with the latest flavor. There were 4 more previous to her. What was the point of being in a relationship for 3 years if you really just wanted to NOT be in one?
What I expressed to Josh was the reasoning that if you live in constant fear that your significant other is unfaithful, you have nothing. I never thought about those things because I had to base our relationship on trust and friendship; I was in it 110%.
Paul! I really do hope your marriage is working out and that she is the 'something better' that came along.
Paul and I were also together for 3 years. We were a great team. We never argued but were able to disagree peacefully. One day, out of nowhere, I get "I'm just a guy in my 20's - what if something better comes along?" But, there was already someone new, not 'what if'. Ouch.
I really struggled with this one. On one hand I was completely and utterly humiliated because he basically told me I was just a pleasantry on his journey to true happiness. On the other, although really shitty, he was honest. As it turned out he pursued his new fancy to no avail. 6 months later he came back with, "I made a mistake".
This was incredibly difficult to hear. However, I had come to accept our separation without tears. It was just too little too late. Almost every girl I know would have taken him back. They would take him back because they would feel triumphant. It's easy to go back to what you know, where you felt safe, where you once felt loved. I couldn't take him back because I realized however lame the reason sounded to me, it was reason enough. It ended because it was time for it to end. I was 26.
Now that you've read about my two longest relationships, let us get back to the well of emotions unearthed in my sleep last night. I dreamed that everyone I knew, all of my friends, the distant ones as well as the close ones, betrayed me in some form or another. I felt so isolated, so alone. I had no one to talk to.
metalpeter - 05/02/07 19:29
That sounds like one odd dream and a bit distrubing. Being betrayed is an awefull feeling and tough to deal with I can't imagine it in a dream. It is imporant to remember the past and to try an learn from things that have happendend. But at the same time it isn't good to dwell in it. It is very esay to dwell in self pitty and not do anything but sprial downward in self hate. I don't know why it happendend. I could guess that with thinking about the interview coming up and that you may get the job that the huge change that would be stired something up. It could even be that if you mind makes you think of your friends in a negative way then it makes moving onto something else less of a conflict or easier. Some people believe that there are things that the mind deals with as you sleep as a way to sort things out. When you wake up your concious mind picks up on that.
That sounds like one odd dream and a bit distrubing. Being betrayed is an awefull feeling and tough to deal with I can't imagine it in a dream. It is imporant to remember the past and to try an learn from things that have happendend. But at the same time it isn't good to dwell in it. It is very esay to dwell in self pitty and not do anything but sprial downward in self hate. I don't know why it happendend. I could guess that with thinking about the interview coming up and that you may get the job that the huge change that would be stired something up. It could even be that if you mind makes you think of your friends in a negative way then it makes moving onto something else less of a conflict or easier. Some people believe that there are things that the mind deals with as you sleep as a way to sort things out. When you wake up your concious mind picks up on that.
joshua - 05/02/07 16:15
Thats spiteful - I respect that. =P
Thats spiteful - I respect that. =P
mastermindkg - 05/02/07 16:03
Haha! I love shy guys. They are the most observant and when they actually choose to speak it's typically something very interesting. But we erh- had a very (very) good sex life. He is a prude cause no one else would and hopefully no one else will. :D
Haha! I love shy guys. They are the most observant and when they actually choose to speak it's typically something very interesting. But we erh- had a very (very) good sex life. He is a prude cause no one else would and hopefully no one else will. :D
joshua - 05/02/07 15:25
Wow, haha. I don't think I've ever seen or heard of a girl referring to a guy, ex or otherwise, as a prude.
Maybe I'm different, but I want it all day every day. You'd never know though because I am shy. I'm not defending your ex by ANY stretch, but if you wouldn't mind could you cut some slack for the shy guys? Hehe.
Wow, haha. I don't think I've ever seen or heard of a girl referring to a guy, ex or otherwise, as a prude.
Maybe I'm different, but I want it all day every day. You'd never know though because I am shy. I'm not defending your ex by ANY stretch, but if you wouldn't mind could you cut some slack for the shy guys? Hehe.
mastermindkg - 05/02/07 15:06
I was with someone long term and we broke up in Feb, pretty much the same reasons. (Because he's a prude who got lucky with me, thought he could find someone else) W.E, I wish him the best of luck- what else can you do?
You are confident enough to say "no" to something you feel is right, I'm probably too codependent and emotionally needed to reject something like that.
Be glad that you don't feel that way when you're not dreaming. As I do all the time.
You're about to take on a journey that very few people get the opportunity to experience. If you were with someone it would have altered that in someway. So there is so much to come for you, who knows who you'll meet or in what country you'll end up next.
No company would invest money to fly you out to turn you down. ;)
I was with someone long term and we broke up in Feb, pretty much the same reasons. (Because he's a prude who got lucky with me, thought he could find someone else) W.E, I wish him the best of luck- what else can you do?
You are confident enough to say "no" to something you feel is right, I'm probably too codependent and emotionally needed to reject something like that.
Be glad that you don't feel that way when you're not dreaming. As I do all the time.
You're about to take on a journey that very few people get the opportunity to experience. If you were with someone it would have altered that in someway. So there is so much to come for you, who knows who you'll meet or in what country you'll end up next.
No company would invest money to fly you out to turn you down. ;)
ladycroft - 05/02/07 14:09
no worries, i'm not stewing. i forgot all about it until this dream. i'm not jaded and i don't hate men :)
no worries, i'm not stewing. i forgot all about it until this dream. i'm not jaded and i don't hate men :)
joshua - 05/02/07 13:28
Wow... sorry to bring it up! It was an innocent and casual conversation but I didn't realize that you'd be stewing on that stuff.
Ultimately the only thing that matters is what you learn from the experience, but the pitfall shows when somebody ends up being jaded because of something they went through. I always thought that you'd be better off forgetting about that stuff rather than persecuting an entire sex because of a bad experience.
Wow... sorry to bring it up! It was an innocent and casual conversation but I didn't realize that you'd be stewing on that stuff.
Ultimately the only thing that matters is what you learn from the experience, but the pitfall shows when somebody ends up being jaded because of something they went through. I always thought that you'd be better off forgetting about that stuff rather than persecuting an entire sex because of a bad experience.
05/01/2007 12:46 #39118
answers to your questions imk2Category: potpourri
Imk2 asked a lot of good questions in response to my last post. So, here are your answers:
when are you leaving? - I don't know yet. They are in the process of getting me an electronic visa, then they will solidify my plane tickets.
how are they flying you there? - on a big plane i hope :)
which airline? - most likely the cheapest deal
coach or first class? - I am pretty confident it's coach
how long will they keep you there for the interview? - 3 days
will they be putting you up in a hotel? - yes
if so, which hotel? - don't know yet
will they be providing any food? - yes, they will be taking me out to lunches and dinners every day
will they pay moving expenses, like for the flight, if you get offered the job? - i think so, but not 100% sure
what is the cost of living there like? - real estate is very expensive, but other costs of living are lower than the states
will you be living in an apartment that you have to find on your own, or will you be living on campus? - on campus
how long is the contract for? - 1 year but they hope to have me for 2 or 3
will you get vacation time, and if so how much? - yes. muslim holidays plus vacation plus christian holidays
do they pay for flights back home at all? - yes, one round trip ticket home per year
how much are the flights anyway? - around $1,700 right now
make sure you take tons of pictures - will do!
when are you leaving? - I don't know yet. They are in the process of getting me an electronic visa, then they will solidify my plane tickets.
how are they flying you there? - on a big plane i hope :)
which airline? - most likely the cheapest deal
coach or first class? - I am pretty confident it's coach
how long will they keep you there for the interview? - 3 days
will they be putting you up in a hotel? - yes
if so, which hotel? - don't know yet
will they be providing any food? - yes, they will be taking me out to lunches and dinners every day
will they pay moving expenses, like for the flight, if you get offered the job? - i think so, but not 100% sure
what is the cost of living there like? - real estate is very expensive, but other costs of living are lower than the states
will you be living in an apartment that you have to find on your own, or will you be living on campus? - on campus
how long is the contract for? - 1 year but they hope to have me for 2 or 3
will you get vacation time, and if so how much? - yes. muslim holidays plus vacation plus christian holidays
do they pay for flights back home at all? - yes, one round trip ticket home per year
how much are the flights anyway? - around $1,700 right now
make sure you take tons of pictures - will do!
museumchick - 05/02/07 10:45
What a great opportunity! I hope you'll have a wonderful interview and trip!
What a great opportunity! I hope you'll have a wonderful interview and trip!
mrmike - 05/01/07 13:50
Sounds awesome!
Sounds awesome!
mastermindkg - 05/01/07 13:03
Yep, I have hookah! Up for it? It's from Egypt. I'm sure you'll be doing plenty of that in Qatar. I heard they are wicked cheap in the middle east. And I paid a pretty penny for mine.
Yep, I have hookah! Up for it? It's from Egypt. I'm sure you'll be doing plenty of that in Qatar. I heard they are wicked cheap in the middle east. And I paid a pretty penny for mine.
Well, as the first peep I 'officially' met, I guess I HAVE to remember you. ;)
The thing about goodbyes is- just b/c you don't see someone every day doesn't mean they are any less of a friend, etc- just takes a little more effort to see each other. But staying in touch is awfully easy with all of our technology. I have friends I haven't actually SEEN in YEARS- but I know we could just pick up right where we left off. So yeah, leaving is always a little sad- but you're right. It's "see you later", not "good bye."
Ok, rambling. But good luck with the interviews. Opportunity of a lifetime, I'm sure.
And you have an aunt and uncle in Qatar?! How random!! [oh and the place i was thinking of the other day is Dubai. Is that nearby?]
amen to no drama!
thanks peter :) you really made me smile. i'm glad i finally got you to come out of hiding and join the clan.
ladycroft who?
kidding.
we's got a bottle of that A word to crack open. I'll do my homework and find da suga cubes, yeah!
First of all to answer your (I belive questions kinda to your self) questions. I will think of you, and will remember you. You are two much of an awesome chic (ok bad languge but not sure how else to say it) to forget. I will admit missing someone is a fealing that I don't really have or understand (Part of it is being a single child for so long and why else other then I'm a little fucked up not sure of). In terms of caring on as usaul I probalby keep living the same life and not much will change. That assumes that you wind up leaving. However you did change one thing and maybe two when I meet you. I was able to go to (e:strip) parties and to be honest I'm guessing with out going to the parties I may have wound up leaving the site but who knows.
Glad you finaly got you bags. It is hard to believe that they get lost so much. It would be interesting to have a percentage in terms of how many bags get lost or delayed getting to where they are supposed to.
I think the last thing I wanted to say was a party in june sounds like a great time. Hopefully I will be free and the Camera will be working and firing lot of shots and they will come out great and everyone will have a good time and there will be no drama. So hopefully the party will be great.