I talked to the boy for a few minutes last night. He called me during a break on the Sabres game. That meant a lot to me. Usually, the hockey game is always a sacred time for him, not to be interrupted by anything. He sounded happy for me when I told him Albany- he was supportive about it.
I wish i could have been able to really talk to him about it as far as us goes. I probably won't have a chance for awhile, because he's so busy with everything. He has to write forty pages worth of papers for college, he has paperwork from his business, all kinds of crazy stuff. Which I understand, and feel bad for him about.
What's hard is that I know there is no possibility for a long distance thing. I didn't have the chance to talk to him about it. One of the first times I ever hungout with him, he had told me that he would never do a long-distance relationship with someone again. He's told me that numerous times since. He had a really bad experience in the past with someone he loved in which he was in a long-distance relationship with. I may want it, but it would be unrealistic of me to think it would even work if he actually wanted it.
I am really happy for all these good things coming up in my life, but the thought of not having him with me hurts so much.
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04/15/2007 08:55 #38896
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04/13/2007 10:39 #38877
VonnegutCategory: books and writing
All time is all time. It does not change. It does not lend itself to warnings or explanations. It simply is. Take it moment by moment, and you will find that we are all, as I've said before, bugs in amber.
Kurt Vonnegut, Slaughterhouse V
My friend sent this to me:
(Thank you guys for all the encouraging comments on the last entry! I really appreciate it).
Kurt Vonnegut, Slaughterhouse V
My friend sent this to me:
(Thank you guys for all the encouraging comments on the last entry! I really appreciate it).
joshua - 04/13/07 15:00
A countercultural icon move along - while I never agreed with his politics I thought that his writing was very unique and certainly captured the spirit of the time better than any other... in particular SH5. RIP Mr. V!
A countercultural icon move along - while I never agreed with his politics I thought that his writing was very unique and certainly captured the spirit of the time better than any other... in particular SH5. RIP Mr. V!
ladycroft - 04/13/07 14:31
Sirens of Titan was my fav
Sirens of Titan was my fav
carolinian - 04/13/07 12:06
On a flight down to North Carolina last year, I sat next to a man who looked strikingly similar to Kurt Vonnegut. I so wanted to ask him if he was who I thought he was, but I was like "jeez, it will be so embarrasing if I'm wrong." In hindsight, I probably should have asked. If I was right it probably would have led to a very interesting conversation.
I guess he didn't get to have his classy suicide by Pall Mall after all.
On a flight down to North Carolina last year, I sat next to a man who looked strikingly similar to Kurt Vonnegut. I so wanted to ask him if he was who I thought he was, but I was like "jeez, it will be so embarrasing if I'm wrong." In hindsight, I probably should have asked. If I was right it probably would have led to a very interesting conversation.
I guess he didn't get to have his classy suicide by Pall Mall after all.
04/12/2007 14:46 #38860
AlbanyCategory: albany
I just got an email today from SUNY Albany. They just offered me a teaching assistantship that opened up. Three years of financial support from the department, plus my tuition is paid for. I also get health insurance. I teach a class or two a semester.
I can't believe it... I'm just shocked. I'm so excited to have the chance to get the doctorate, and to teach. I can't wait.
The hard part is going to be leaving Buffalo. I'm going to miss the city a lot, and especially miss all my friends here. That's the part that makes my heart ache. I'm 24, but I've only ever lived in Jamestown and Buffalo. I'm not leaving Buffalo till the end of the summer, though. I'm going to finish up my thesis, and work at central library for awhile.
Wow, I feel so wierd... but so happy at the same time.
I can't believe it... I'm just shocked. I'm so excited to have the chance to get the doctorate, and to teach. I can't wait.
The hard part is going to be leaving Buffalo. I'm going to miss the city a lot, and especially miss all my friends here. That's the part that makes my heart ache. I'm 24, but I've only ever lived in Jamestown and Buffalo. I'm not leaving Buffalo till the end of the summer, though. I'm going to finish up my thesis, and work at central library for awhile.
Wow, I feel so wierd... but so happy at the same time.
james - 04/13/07 14:51
From a former Albanian:
They have an amazing food coop. Not like our fake one. You will love it.
Diners: so many diners! near washington and Lark. These are the kind of places that inspired Hopper.
Lark st: A new bar opens every month. A bar closes every month. There is a constant rotation of neat little dives. There is a wine bar in a cellar store front. It will look like a hole in the wall but their wine list is top notch, the music is great, and did I mention the wine list?
NYC and Montreal are not that far away. Stalk Leonard Cohen, I know you want to.
The museum in North Adams, MA is about 40 minutes away and is the best little MOMA you never heard of.
To get the feel for Albany, rent to movie Ironweed. Jack Nicolson, Glen Close, and Tom Waits play drunk, homeless people in Albany during the great depression. It is based off a novel of the same name by Albany's own William Kenedy. The movie is a little somber, but it is a great cultural relic in understanding Albany.
Say hello to my old home for me.
From a former Albanian:
They have an amazing food coop. Not like our fake one. You will love it.
Diners: so many diners! near washington and Lark. These are the kind of places that inspired Hopper.
Lark st: A new bar opens every month. A bar closes every month. There is a constant rotation of neat little dives. There is a wine bar in a cellar store front. It will look like a hole in the wall but their wine list is top notch, the music is great, and did I mention the wine list?
NYC and Montreal are not that far away. Stalk Leonard Cohen, I know you want to.
The museum in North Adams, MA is about 40 minutes away and is the best little MOMA you never heard of.
To get the feel for Albany, rent to movie Ironweed. Jack Nicolson, Glen Close, and Tom Waits play drunk, homeless people in Albany during the great depression. It is based off a novel of the same name by Albany's own William Kenedy. The movie is a little somber, but it is a great cultural relic in understanding Albany.
Say hello to my old home for me.
ladycroft - 04/13/07 14:35
yay- hurray for you! what i like to say to most people on an upcoming move, don't view it as leaving anything or anyone behind; view it as finding something and someone new! life is an adventure, have fun with it!
yay- hurray for you! what i like to say to most people on an upcoming move, don't view it as leaving anything or anyone behind; view it as finding something and someone new! life is an adventure, have fun with it!
leetee - 04/13/07 13:25
Coolness. And congrats. I hope it is everything you want it to be and more! I am sure you will do well!! Don't forget to keep in touch with us here! :O)
Coolness. And congrats. I hope it is everything you want it to be and more! I am sure you will do well!! Don't forget to keep in touch with us here! :O)
chico - 04/12/07 22:21
Congratulations! And good luck.
I have a friend who teaches in the Political Science department at SUNY Albany -- if you like I can reach out to him for advice to someone who is moving to Albany for grad school. :)
Congratulations! And good luck.
I have a friend who teaches in the Political Science department at SUNY Albany -- if you like I can reach out to him for advice to someone who is moving to Albany for grad school. :)
mike - 04/12/07 19:22
Congratulations!
Congratulations!
anne - 04/12/07 18:48
Congratulations! Albany has some nice things to offer. Try to get to the Adirondacks sometime, they are simply amazing. Not THAT close...maybe an hour and a half, two hours...but worth the trip, if you like that stuff, and even if you don't.
Congratulations! Albany has some nice things to offer. Try to get to the Adirondacks sometime, they are simply amazing. Not THAT close...maybe an hour and a half, two hours...but worth the trip, if you like that stuff, and even if you don't.
matthew - 04/12/07 15:58
Congrats!
Congrats!
carolinian - 04/12/07 15:41
Knock'em dead.
Knock'em dead.
theecarey - 04/12/07 15:01
Thats seems to be an awesome deal! congrats!
and Albany is still close enough for your friends to come see you or you can venture out to B-lo whenever you have free time ;)
Thats seems to be an awesome deal! congrats!
and Albany is still close enough for your friends to come see you or you can venture out to B-lo whenever you have free time ;)
jason - 04/12/07 14:50
Well done, (e:Museumchick). It sounds like too good of a deal to pass up. Sounds like it leaves you pretty much able to focus on your work and your teaching.
Well done, (e:Museumchick). It sounds like too good of a deal to pass up. Sounds like it leaves you pretty much able to focus on your work and your teaching.
04/10/2007 18:58 #38841
Rust BeltCategory: buffalo
Oh, I forgot to mention that I stopped into Rust Belt Books today. I had never been there before. It's really awesome! A lot of great used books at good prices. It seems to have some unique kinds of books that you wouldn't normally find elsewhere.
04/10/2007 18:50 #38840
workingCategory: life, work
I went on two job interviews today, and they both went well. I was hired at the first job I went to, which was a telemarketing job. It pays decent, but not something I really want to do all that much. Still, it's good to have it as an option.
The second job interview was at central library, for a part-time assistant position. That's the job I am still waiting to hear about, and the one I hope I can get (I'm not really sure if I will be hired, though). It pays a little less than the telemarketing job, but it has more opportunities for advancement and promotion. I might be able to get promoted to work as an assistant with local history/archives. Plus, I just think it would be fun to work in the library.
Both positions would start at the beginning of May, so I am going to use the next couple of weeks to crunch down on finishing up my thesis as much as possible.
I was rejected at the doctoral program at UB. I think what I am going to do is defer admission to the SUNY Albany program for a semester or maybe a year, save up some money to live on and reapply for an assistantship, and then possibly go. Or maybe apply to UB law for next year. I'm interested a lot in different facets of activist law, as well as cultural and intellectual property law.
So that's my version of a boring update:).
The second job interview was at central library, for a part-time assistant position. That's the job I am still waiting to hear about, and the one I hope I can get (I'm not really sure if I will be hired, though). It pays a little less than the telemarketing job, but it has more opportunities for advancement and promotion. I might be able to get promoted to work as an assistant with local history/archives. Plus, I just think it would be fun to work in the library.
Both positions would start at the beginning of May, so I am going to use the next couple of weeks to crunch down on finishing up my thesis as much as possible.
I was rejected at the doctoral program at UB. I think what I am going to do is defer admission to the SUNY Albany program for a semester or maybe a year, save up some money to live on and reapply for an assistantship, and then possibly go. Or maybe apply to UB law for next year. I'm interested a lot in different facets of activist law, as well as cultural and intellectual property law.
So that's my version of a boring update:).
imk2 - 04/11/07 10:52
i used to work at the central library as a lowly librarian (trainee), which is the same as a librarian, but pays less. i can fill you in on some gossip and politics. i'm not sure about advancement there. there are librarians there that have not advanced from the lowest position in 10 years. i'm not sure if thats the case for other positions. but let me know if you want to chat.
i used to work at the central library as a lowly librarian (trainee), which is the same as a librarian, but pays less. i can fill you in on some gossip and politics. i'm not sure about advancement there. there are librarians there that have not advanced from the lowest position in 10 years. i'm not sure if thats the case for other positions. but let me know if you want to chat.
carolinian - 04/10/07 19:09
Congrats on getting the telemarketing job. You may not have the same opportunities as the library, but don't write off the experience you'll gain tenaciously confronting the spectre of rejection on a daily basis trying to convince people that your viewpoint is the right one (it's even more challenging when the viewpoint isn't your own and you know firsthand that it's BS).
As for UB, it's their loss. You're probably doing the right thing by spending some time saving up money and "casting your net wide" and looking other schools.
Congrats on getting the telemarketing job. You may not have the same opportunities as the library, but don't write off the experience you'll gain tenaciously confronting the spectre of rejection on a daily basis trying to convince people that your viewpoint is the right one (it's even more challenging when the viewpoint isn't your own and you know firsthand that it's BS).
As for UB, it's their loss. You're probably doing the right thing by spending some time saving up money and "casting your net wide" and looking other schools.
I've been there myself.
Several times.
With the same person.
In the last year.
What sucks most about LDR's is that it always ends up being this "damned if you do, damned if you don't" situation. If you stay, you can't meet your own needs, and if you leave, you lose the thing you love most. If it goes well, people can still be friends and maybe there's hope for something in the future when there's no longer any distance between them. When LDR's don't go well, you've got the person who stays feeling shocked and hurt that the other is leaving and the person who leaves feeling extremely guilty that they're leaving the other person. It sounds like things are going as they best can for you, and you're lucky to have the person who's staying being as accepting as they are of your need to leave.