I've been feeling really down lately. lack of sun, lack of exercise. too much partying, and drinking.

anyway, i have firmly made the decision to join the gym tomorrow nght. (e:enknot) will be going to, unless he decides to be a pussy and not come.

i am really set on just concentrating on school, work, and being healthy. maybe with a little crazy fun in between. maybe.

no more of this worrying about boys, and whatnot. its really just not worth it. it seems that so far, what i get and what i put out( no pun intended), do not weight equally. i tend to give too much of myself, and trust too freely.

perhaps (e:brit), i shall take you up on your bet. being single for a good while seems pleasing at the moment...

p.s. i will departing to nyc for a short holiday next month. so excited!

i am going to do it, but i want you all to know. im not fucking happy. to make me wear some slutty ass pajamas, when i have like $1000 worth of lovely new clothing waiting im my closet.

instead i will wear stupid fucking slutty something, because thats what paul wants. happy birthday.

my number one least fav thing: people who can't return phone calls.

1. 2: any sort of costume party.

happy to report that i am having a freaking amazing time here in Arizona. its cool because things are so good here, and are going to be even better when i get home, minus the fact that my car is having major issues.

so far, when i return, my sis will come, (e:paul) is turning 30!, and i have some hot dates ligned up. its gonna be the shit ya'll!

plus im super excited to get back to work and school, who would've ever thought.

i have indeed purchased some major cute clothing items, and will be in fashion!


p.s. i like the pajama theme, but i really don't like pajamas, and since mine consist of little to no clothing, i will opt for a pretty new dress, and something sexy instead. sorry (e:paul)!

p.s. to (e:paul), i can't get you the iphone for your birthday, but if there is anything you want/need from sedona, arizona, tempe, let me know...

i forgot my camera stuff, and havent set up the wifi, but i will post pics as soon as i get home!

i have arrived. im safely at home with my favorite momma ho, and only momma ho. she bought flowers for my room. too cute.

basically this vaca is gonna rock, and i will posting pics...


i do miss ya'll back home, and we shall plan a bday bash for (e:paul)'s 30th! or something.



night all. sleep well, i know i will!

i just may take the (e:brit)'s adivce and go into hiding for a while. im tired, of everything.

vacation should be a good time! and im really thinking i just can't take life anymore w/o the sun...