I just had a (e:jenks) moment. There was this woman in my tax class that I joined along with my group partner in the smoking section during the break of this night class. Now i have been an ex-smoker for about 3 years now. It's just that once in a while I miss the comradery of being the social outcasts and being part of a circle of people sharing something.

Needless to say I was just so close to just saying F-it and asking if she had a boyfriend. She is pretty cute. Now I feel like a lame ass saying see you next semester in Audit...

Yea, with my luck she'll tell me on the first day of class that she meet her new boyfriend on Myspace!

Really all I had to do was ask, and the suspense would have been gone. But I saw her on her phone calling someone and I assumed that it was a guy...

I need some game...ARG!

I started off this day with a really surreal dream. It involved my late best friend's widow, the Notorious B.I.G. and myself! I really don't want to explain it as it was needless to say really creepy, disturbing and f'd up !

I took today off of work just to get my head squared away for a test that I'm about to take in a hour. I am just looking around and wondering who the hell are these people around me and what makes them tick? I'm just really curious and bewildered at the same time.

For some reason going to Europe is in my head. Running over the logistics right now and they look pretty good. For some reason Frankfurt is stuck in my mind. Although a friend of mine talked about Denmark the last time I ran into him.

OK I need to get back to what i was doing.

I am pretty convinced that is all I did this weekend. Other than going out on Friday night locally with my "International Businessman" buddy Peter I just slept and slept.

The highlight was going over to a friend's house @ 1am to do no other than sleep. The only stress was running over a bunch of scattered flatrocks on the I-190. It just scared me to think that i may have blown out 2 tires 2 days before I am going in to replace all 4 of my horrible Michelin's.

So this morning when I ended up going to Perkins I ended up running into an old acquaintance of mine Chuck. I have known this guy for all of my life. It was just a bigtime reality check to see his new wife and 4 kids. Yea, he's loaded bigtime but I just feel real old and inadequate on so many weird levels. The biggest being that although I really never wanted any kids back then it is just scary to think that I would have to go through a decade of fun times before they are semi functioning people. If I started now then... I shouldn't go there right now with that train of logic.

But yea I ended up going home at 1Pm and sleeping until 7. Came and studied for my exam on Tuesday and now I'm back to Bed.

Dam S.A.D???

I just really had a weird night last night. My friend Peter and I just stayed out in Lewiston last night. It was a bit out of the ordinary as most of the usual crowd went of the road last night to Broadway Joe's to see the local Radiohead cover band play. They're playing Rochester tonight but I just don't have any motivation or energy to do anything really meaningful at the moment. I just don't know what is wrong me.

Here are a couple of examples of how blah I am at the moment. I was actually thinking of heading up to Alumni Arena to catch the NU/U@B game but ah I know they're going to get smoked by the Bulls. NU still is having those "discipline" problems with some of their players sitting out suspensions. Reggie has his team firing on all cylinders despite losing all those seniors.

I have a Nintendo Wii sitting on my kitchen table. It's just not for me but my boss at work. I obtained one for her as a thank you for letting me get out of town for my Vegas trip in 23 days! Can't wait as it is just filling me head up with anticipation. I actually messaged a guy I used to work with that is living out there on myspace today just to see if he wanted to go out or play some cards when I'm out there.

Now I have to do something with my time tonight.

I was downtown today for a bit. Not usually down during business hours but I had to stop by one HSBC this afternoon. As I was leaving I felt a need to have a nice beverage for the ride home. So I stopped into Spot on Delaware. I'm pretty much a tea drinker, so not having been in a Spot in a while I asked to check out their menu. I decided on a Blackberry Sage and for the 30 seconds I get asked, "Nice Jacket; Do you snowboard or hike?" Now it was about 5PM and the nice weather has clocked out now until March. Before I parked and walked to Spot, I put on my Columbia jacket that I had in my trunk due to the rainy weather. Was he implying that I only wore my jacket because it is the "cool" brand at the moment for winter apparel and I do not partake in any of the activities of the hardcore enthusiasts originally wore the Columbia brand?

Anyway I am starting to see some descent things coming down the pipe for me. Now if I can only keep from being distracted by Vegas in 25 days!