Full of a wide range of emotions that I can't really pinpoint. Finals week for starters and to be honest I don't know where that is going to go. I have an open book compressive exam tomorrow and I have no clue on what or where to study.

A friend of mine that is getting laid off from the SBA has come up with an interesting business plan and I'm doing my best to make sure I can put a couple extra bucks in my pocket.

I'm totally anxious about Las Vegas.

It's not that i need to get laid but currently I have that raw energy similar to it that could be quenched by breaking out of my comfort zone and taking a gamble. The feeling of your stomach dropping down to the floor a la roller coaster style is something I wish I could have at the moment. It's just that finding it at the moment is a bit ambiguous.

It's just that need for an endorphin rush. I could get it by landing a new job, hooking up with a hot woman or betting $10000 and winning.

Oh, and I have Howie Day's "She Says" stuck in my head at the moment. Why I don't know!

It was a blast. Although I did not stay as long as I wished leaving last night really gave my spirit a lift. Meeting PMT's roomie Anna was quite interesting. I really found her frank perspective on things very refreshing and quite interesting. (e:metapeter) and (e:jenks) very nice pictures as always.

While I'm still stuck at work and hearing emotionally deflated players coming down from the tournament telling me about how they were sucked out of $580 dollars on a bad beat in the tourney I have to thank (e:lilho) for giving me that small lift last night. Believe me it has been a while and my day has gone quite well despite the circumstances of being here on a Sunday. it makes up for the Hardware blowoff ;-) J/K It's always good to clarify that you're not somone else? :-)hee hee

All I can say is the vibe that I had leaving and even into today was just one positive glow and it's not from any scandalous thing either. It was just good people and great energy from a great party for a good guy that is getting a bit closer to us old foggies on other side of a that milestone...ISH!!! That was a funny sign.


To more nights like that in the future.

I just had a (e:jenks) moment. There was this woman in my tax class that I joined along with my group partner in the smoking section during the break of this night class. Now i have been an ex-smoker for about 3 years now. It's just that once in a while I miss the comradery of being the social outcasts and being part of a circle of people sharing something.

Needless to say I was just so close to just saying F-it and asking if she had a boyfriend. She is pretty cute. Now I feel like a lame ass saying see you next semester in Audit...

Yea, with my luck she'll tell me on the first day of class that she meet her new boyfriend on Myspace!

Really all I had to do was ask, and the suspense would have been gone. But I saw her on her phone calling someone and I assumed that it was a guy...

I need some game...ARG!

I started off this day with a really surreal dream. It involved my late best friend's widow, the Notorious B.I.G. and myself! I really don't want to explain it as it was needless to say really creepy, disturbing and f'd up !

I took today off of work just to get my head squared away for a test that I'm about to take in a hour. I am just looking around and wondering who the hell are these people around me and what makes them tick? I'm just really curious and bewildered at the same time.

For some reason going to Europe is in my head. Running over the logistics right now and they look pretty good. For some reason Frankfurt is stuck in my mind. Although a friend of mine talked about Denmark the last time I ran into him.

OK I need to get back to what i was doing.

I am pretty convinced that is all I did this weekend. Other than going out on Friday night locally with my "International Businessman" buddy Peter I just slept and slept.

The highlight was going over to a friend's house @ 1am to do no other than sleep. The only stress was running over a bunch of scattered flatrocks on the I-190. It just scared me to think that i may have blown out 2 tires 2 days before I am going in to replace all 4 of my horrible Michelin's.

So this morning when I ended up going to Perkins I ended up running into an old acquaintance of mine Chuck. I have known this guy for all of my life. It was just a bigtime reality check to see his new wife and 4 kids. Yea, he's loaded bigtime but I just feel real old and inadequate on so many weird levels. The biggest being that although I really never wanted any kids back then it is just scary to think that I would have to go through a decade of fun times before they are semi functioning people. If I started now then... I shouldn't go there right now with that train of logic.

But yea I ended up going home at 1Pm and sleeping until 7. Came and studied for my exam on Tuesday and now I'm back to Bed.

Dam S.A.D???