Since local College Basketball started back up again that phrase popped back into my head. It is used when your home team is blowing out the opponent and basically you're up by so much that you are re enforcing the thoughts of the school you are playing that you just want to get out of your gym a.s.a.p. and the game being played is just a formality.

I feel that way right now with being in a relationship or lack of one. Right now it feels like the 2nd half of a game of which I'm not going to win. If you don't have someone under contract for Thanksgiving the odds of finding someone between then and X-mas and New Years is quite difficult. There is that brief time in January between New Years and V-Day but that's about it until the snow melts.

All of thing was triggered when I realized that I had a match.com subscription that was coming due soon and you can guess what I did [cancellation]

I guess this also fits into the "OMG I'm 30!" thread as well. It's not that I am a whiney boy crying he's alone. Believe me I am quite content right now as opposed to being married to somone that was really negative for me. I consider myself lucky to only have ark ward conversation remaining after that fiasco.

Do I seem myself with someone someday, Yes. Actually to be honest I am actually grateful that I'm a guy at this point of my life. It just seems that as I got older the possibilities are better as opposed to say 10 years ago. I think I may have gotten more attractive with age, plus a guy my age seems more appealing if you're looking for the marriage sort of thing.

A co-worker of mine is 4 month pregnant. It did bring up the thought that if I did get a "I'm Late" phone call I think I would freak. Then again although the bio clock isn't as bad for guys I am starting to wonder if not now then when?

I voted yesterday and I must say the one thing I love about elections in NY State is the fact that you can vote for the same candidate on a different party line. What used to be an "Independent" until the Independence Party came into being; Now I guess I'm a "No Party" person I suppose. So given my parental backround I have the ability to vote for a Democrat without actually voting on that party's line (Catholic Guilt I suppose) I love the pseudo 3rd party line!

The GW speech really irked me this afternoon. We all remember that Rolling Stone Article
So whe he spoke about "Bi-Partisanship" I almost lost my lunch. That hasn't been the case at all in Washington this century at all! Now all of a sudden he wants to be friends! You're Jesus Freaks moved the country so far right I only hope that at least for the first year the Dems do their best to laydown the payback.

On another note I find this pic to be priceless: That is pretty much every snot nosed brat kid in Clarence watching the results with their parents. I am so glad Santorum got his ass handed to him.

It was a wonderful day outside and I spent 4 prime hours of it sleeping it away.

Now I am getting afraid of the darkness screwing with my head. Soon enough I will be waking up in the dark to go to work and coming home in the darkness.

I think i need to purchase a Lightbox soon, URG!!!

Or doing something to pump up my mood.

I almost have my final paper wrapped up for my one MBA Class. So soon enough I'll be able to have some free time once again on weekends. I would go nuts tomorrow night but I switched with someone at work so they could go to the Bills game on Sunday. Ironically enough my Dad tells me last night that he has 4 tickets for the Jim Kelly Club. After the game against NE I just about have lost all desire to watch NFL football. They have almost broke me.



It's right now I'm in a really "chill" place mentally. The kind of mood where I'm mentally loose and content. I was talking to my Ex last night and she added that over the last few years I may actually be the most happiest I have been. This was after she was looking over at pictures of me from years past. In some ways I have to actually agree with her.


In some ways the good relationship we have had lately scares me. It's just I know my lack of track record of getting anyone around here to be in total commitment with at a high level. The bad part is if by some stupid reason we get back together I totally know that the same B.S. will happen again and the fallout will be so much worse than before. I'm glad to have a great friendship with her, but I just have to be firm in keeping the line. I've had success in keeping things separated especially during my little escapades. The trouble would come in when I would be feeling guilty when I would be out with other people. It's so hard sometimes.

After "wasting a weekend" I actually feel a bit refreshed. My body thanks me for not abusing it. I did manage to do a couple of things in regards to school. Plus my final project in my MBA class isn't going to be as bad as initially thought. Hopefully I'll polish it off tomorrow.

Although I did enjoy sleeping and doing not much of anything I just feel "that time of year" coming on. It'll be dark before 5 now with being back on standard time. I just can feel the chemicals changing in my brain in about 2 weeks from all of the darkness that we are going to be abundantly surrounded by.

There is an upside. The winter months bring the two great pastimes into play, drinking and sex. Since you have to have someone with you in your bed to keep you warm in the winter.

I came across an album cover from the guy from Deep Purple Ian Gillan. I didn't know he recorded his last release a double album here in Buffalo. It's just after looking at it reminded me of the fun times that can happen in winter and it just came over me. Yea it was the thoughts of sex and drinking but it's that building that is his "Inn" that maybe did it for me and not winter itself.





Nothing like a little "Smoke of the Water"