I had a fabulous, fun, and relaxing weekend, where I met new people, made new friends, and became incredibly attracted to a lovely man the second I saw him, which, honestly, has never really happened before. Anyway, I came home with an enormous sense of well-being and peace, which my job has been trying to suck out of me since I walked in the door Monday morning, and I am valiantly resisting. Ah, Brushwood. What a magical place! I can't wait to go back! (And no, for those of you in the know about Brushwood, I DID NOT walk around naked! That's not my scene!) ;)
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08/15/2006 18:00 #35153
Checking in07/21/2006 09:23 #35152
Enjoy!So, that's kind of my new philosophy. Phuck it and Enjoy! I've spent so much of my life being prim and proper and not really taking any chance that I've sort of been letting my life pass me by as I sit in the rocking chair on my front porch working on my latest cross-stitch- like I'm 88 instead of 28! I don't know how good I'm going to be at this whole, new philosophy- totally unchartered territory, afterall- but there's so much to see and do and we never really know, well, anything!
I'm avoiding going to work. I technically start at 11 today but as I finished my 100 ques. exam in 25 minutes, I'm stalling for time. *Sigh* I'm convinced that working does, infact, get in the way of a really nice life. I'd much rather stay in the park, or take a page from our dear (e:ladycroft) and go sailing! (That is the thing that I've decided to learn to do once I get my teaching degree- somehow, someway!)
Fellow (e:peeps), have a peach of a day! And remember to Enjoy!
I'm avoiding going to work. I technically start at 11 today but as I finished my 100 ques. exam in 25 minutes, I'm stalling for time. *Sigh* I'm convinced that working does, infact, get in the way of a really nice life. I'd much rather stay in the park, or take a page from our dear (e:ladycroft) and go sailing! (That is the thing that I've decided to learn to do once I get my teaching degree- somehow, someway!)
Fellow (e:peeps), have a peach of a day! And remember to Enjoy!
trisha - 07/27/06 20:06
hurray! you can DO it! no one knows how good they're going to be at it, but you have unlimited chances! worst case scenario: you make a fool of yourself. FACT: we are all fools in one way or another.
hurray! you can DO it! no one knows how good they're going to be at it, but you have unlimited chances! worst case scenario: you make a fool of yourself. FACT: we are all fools in one way or another.
mrmike - 07/21/06 13:14
With a nod to that philosophy, I got an ice cream sundae at lunch. Bad for me I know, but it did wonders for my outlook.
With a nod to that philosophy, I got an ice cream sundae at lunch. Bad for me I know, but it did wonders for my outlook.
07/18/2006 11:21 #35151
"No Fear" vs. "Great Courage"There is something that I have been pondering lately... the idea that we should have "no fear" and whether or not that is really a good thing?
I am addicted to Dove dark chocolate. On the inside of the little red, foil wrapper there is a little inspirational saying. Last week, I kept coming up with the "Be Fearless" one. While on the surface, it is a wise suggestion as fear is generally what holds individual's back, but when you really think about it, though, it's really a stupid idea. Fear is a very real emotion that does serve a purpose of self preservation. It becomes inhibiting when it kicks in over things like spiders, elevators, the dark, etc... and a person becomes so paralyzed he or she can barely move, think, or save one's self should the situation arise. (Believe it or not, the idea is much clearer and eloquent in my head... and the words I am chusing are not expressing it as I would wish, but I shall press on, regardless...) To have "no fear" is to let go of a very real and necessary physiological response that has helped humanity throughout our evolution. The real answer, in my opinion, is to not have "No Fear" but to have great courage, which is to recognize and acknowledge that the fear is there and then move past it, to do what needs to be done. Maybe I'm full of shit but it's my revelation and I'm sticking to it...
So, I say to all of you live your lives with Great Courage! ;)
I am addicted to Dove dark chocolate. On the inside of the little red, foil wrapper there is a little inspirational saying. Last week, I kept coming up with the "Be Fearless" one. While on the surface, it is a wise suggestion as fear is generally what holds individual's back, but when you really think about it, though, it's really a stupid idea. Fear is a very real emotion that does serve a purpose of self preservation. It becomes inhibiting when it kicks in over things like spiders, elevators, the dark, etc... and a person becomes so paralyzed he or she can barely move, think, or save one's self should the situation arise. (Believe it or not, the idea is much clearer and eloquent in my head... and the words I am chusing are not expressing it as I would wish, but I shall press on, regardless...) To have "no fear" is to let go of a very real and necessary physiological response that has helped humanity throughout our evolution. The real answer, in my opinion, is to not have "No Fear" but to have great courage, which is to recognize and acknowledge that the fear is there and then move past it, to do what needs to be done. Maybe I'm full of shit but it's my revelation and I'm sticking to it...
So, I say to all of you live your lives with Great Courage! ;)
07/16/2006 19:52 #35150
Much BetterSometimes, the best thing to do is to just give in to the Pity Party. Feel bad, cry it out, berate yourself, and then, reality kicks back in and you can say, "I'm an AWESOME person!" and really believe it, because, afterall, it's true.
I do think, though, that when an optimist hits the doldrums, we can get into a deeper depression than the most dedicated pessimist. The trick is, though that rather than dwelling there interminably, we dust ourselves off and smile and say, "What a beautiful day!" and move on from there. At least, that's what I do because, Magically, everything works out for the best in the end. So very Panglossian, and so very, very true. Ciao! :)
I do think, though, that when an optimist hits the doldrums, we can get into a deeper depression than the most dedicated pessimist. The trick is, though that rather than dwelling there interminably, we dust ourselves off and smile and say, "What a beautiful day!" and move on from there. At least, that's what I do because, Magically, everything works out for the best in the end. So very Panglossian, and so very, very true. Ciao! :)
ajay - 07/17/06 00:25
You are a beautiful person. I met you only once, and I still remember your golden curls. :)
You are a beautiful person. I met you only once, and I still remember your golden curls. :)
mrmike - 07/16/06 22:35
Thanks, I needed that -- basically did what you prescribed, but to it from somebody's perspective makes it that much more effective. Bring on Monday, I'm ready
Thanks, I needed that -- basically did what you prescribed, but to it from somebody's perspective makes it that much more effective. Bring on Monday, I'm ready
jenks - 07/16/06 20:00
What a great attitude. :) And you're totally right. It DOES all work out. All these things that are so devastating at the moment- end up not being a big deal. And even if they do- if we remind ourselves of all the other great stuff around- good friends, a beautiful day, a good nap... suddenly things are bright again.
What a great attitude. :) And you're totally right. It DOES all work out. All these things that are so devastating at the moment- end up not being a big deal. And even if they do- if we remind ourselves of all the other great stuff around- good friends, a beautiful day, a good nap... suddenly things are bright again.
07/15/2006 12:53 #35149
slapped down againOkay, so I venture outside myself- finally- actually work up the nerve to ask out a very cute boy- which took me a month and a half from the time I decided to do it to the time I actually did- and, of course, it comes back to slap me in the face! My timing is so horrible, had I asked him when I originally realized that I should very much like to date him, he would have been still single, but as I procrastinated- AGAIN- he has since run into his ex-girlfriend and they're trying to work things out. ARGH! He's such a decent and honest and delicious guy OF COURSE he would have a girlfriend! (although I keep going to spell it "girlfiend". I think my subconcious is trying to say how I REALLY feel about the whole thing!) I kick myself for doing it, for saying to him that I really like him because now the truth is just out there, hanging in limbo, as always happens to me when I decide to take a chance on telling someone how I feel and once again, it really SUCKS! People always say, "What have you got to loose?" to which my answer is, "My self-respect". Have I lost my self respect- well, no- and I was- I AM rather proud of the fact that I did have the courage to do it but I don't feel any better for it. Immediately after I asked him, I asked myself "what the hell have I done?" I'm not going to lie, I so very badly wanted it to go in the other direction- for him to be single and be interested in me back, and had this ex- girlfriend not shown back up, I really think it would have.
I always say that I have no luck, but that is not true. I am a very fortunate person in a lot of ways, but where I have no luck is with the opposite sex and that stings. *sigh* I'll nurse back from this. I always do. I comfort myself with the fact that he really is a decent fellow and at least had the respect for me to be honest with me. That doesn't happen very often.
I always say that I have no luck, but that is not true. I am a very fortunate person in a lot of ways, but where I have no luck is with the opposite sex and that stings. *sigh* I'll nurse back from this. I always do. I comfort myself with the fact that he really is a decent fellow and at least had the respect for me to be honest with me. That doesn't happen very often.
ajay - 07/17/06 00:24
'tis better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all (with apologies to some old dude who's prolly spinning in his grave).
So what you said you liked him? Hold your head high, because this little thing ("I like you") is very hard for most people to say even in a relationship. You should be proud of yourself that you had the courage to take this step.
Sometimes, things just don't go our way. Remember: Babe Ruth hit so many home runs, but he also struck out a lot.
'tis better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all (with apologies to some old dude who's prolly spinning in his grave).
So what you said you liked him? Hold your head high, because this little thing ("I like you") is very hard for most people to say even in a relationship. You should be proud of yourself that you had the courage to take this step.
Sometimes, things just don't go our way. Remember: Babe Ruth hit so many home runs, but he also struck out a lot.
metalpeter - 07/15/06 19:17
Belive me I get that often it is tough to get up the courage to tell someone how you feal about them. That fear of rejection and or exception is tough. Sometimes the fear of well what if they like me back and is this what I really want can be a factor to. Don't beat your self to much about putting your fealings out there. He may not have had fealing for you or he may not have been ready yet. Or You could be dating him and then when the ex re showed up he could have picked her over you, us guys can be like that sometimes. Just try to use this as a positive and not a negative, i know that is verry hard to do.
Belive me I get that often it is tough to get up the courage to tell someone how you feal about them. That fear of rejection and or exception is tough. Sometimes the fear of well what if they like me back and is this what I really want can be a factor to. Don't beat your self to much about putting your fealings out there. He may not have had fealing for you or he may not have been ready yet. Or You could be dating him and then when the ex re showed up he could have picked her over you, us guys can be like that sometimes. Just try to use this as a positive and not a negative, i know that is verry hard to do.
paul - 07/15/06 14:46
I think you must make it more complicated than it is. Perhaps, you think about it all very much and internalize all the options too long. Like you were saying about how if you had jumped on it, he would have been single. Frankly, you are just way to cute, responsible, and intelligent to not have a boyfriend.
I think you must make it more complicated than it is. Perhaps, you think about it all very much and internalize all the options too long. Like you were saying about how if you had jumped on it, he would have been single. Frankly, you are just way to cute, responsible, and intelligent to not have a boyfriend.
uh oh, you went to brushwood? we're you with the claremont people?