When I was in grade school we tried to wear green on St. Patrick's Day, If we didn't we would get pinched. I wonder if y'all did that evilness up here? Keith did not. He gave me cornbeef and made me think of that stuff.
When I was three I went to an amusement park with my Mom and a lot of people from church. A tornado went through the park that night. I remember wondering where my brother was and being scared that he would be crushed by a tree but I thought the storm was exciting. We went into a souvenir shop to wait out the storm a bit. I was standing by a sunglasses rack. My cousin, Josh, who was two years old at the time, saved me from kidnappers there. OK, that part has to be bullshit, you know? So I think that's my oldest fantasy.
Josh joined the air force a few years ago. I wrote him a letter telling him how crazy and stupid I think that is and he never wrote me back. He does mechanical work on planes. He recently married a girl from Louisiana and she'll be having a baby if a few months I reckon.
I had scary dreams last night or actually today. It's tidy in here. I wish I had a little money and I would invite people over for food and drinks. I've never done much entertaining in this apartment. I feel like I should do a little this summer because pretty soon I'll move in with Soyeon and that will be different. It'll be our space then, not just my space. I've had my own space for a long time but I think Soyeon will be a good roommate for me. We'll help each other keep our heads on straight.
The job hunt, yes, I'll start up again tomorrow. I hate that the weather is so cold. It's fucking May, for christ sake!
Ah well, at least music is beautiful no matter the temperature.

my house is clean. stop on by sometime.

how complicated sometimes, Lordy, Lordy, Lordy, what the fuck is going on here? I got drunk Thursday, I got drunk Friday, and now Saturday night is approaching and I'm sure to show my face at the astronaut party. I've never in my life so I may as well this time.
My big sister refuses to talk to me. I wonder if its because I offered to do an act of violence for her but then chickened out? I just get scared of big guys sometimes. I made the offer to sporadically. I needed to form a posse to get my back first but by the time I did that Soyeon had disappeared. A little slap wouldn't hurt a big jerk like that anyway, I guess if I had done it in the crowd he might have had a momentary loss of pride.
I love my oldest sister. I reckon she needs a break from me. I get worries. Human beings are so delicate. I'm one of the lest delicate humans that I know. Then I pair up with people and I get afraid that I can destroy them by being insensitive and stupid. Damn it, I'm a little kid.