So I have made some mistakes in my day and done some senseless things. Sometimes I am really stupid and don't realize or care enough to realize what is going on. But this latest which I will not divulge here really takes the cake. It really makes me wonder how really irresponsible I am. I hope there are no lifetime repurcusions!! Why Why Why do I do these things? Sadly, drinking wasn't even involved in this latest fiasco!

Went out last night with (e:paul), (e:terry) and (e:matt). Now I have a question ,well comment/question. There was totally this hot bartender but how can you tell if a bartender is actually interested in you. Like they work for tips and your business so like they have to be nice and stuff cuz they want your money. So generally I would never even think about a bartender cuz it just seems to easy to be thinking they are interested, really they juts want your money. Last night I feel like really there was maybe potential though, they were getting me cheap drinks (like $1 or free which was def was not the price when i had the other bartenders) but then of course in return I gave bigger tips so that confuses eveyrthing but it still ended up bein to my advantage (or (e:paul)'s advantage as he kinda bankroleld the evening cuz I didn't really have money, haha). Of course I don't know how to flirt and am super dupa shy so I didn't really do anything about it but just what do you guys think? How can you tell the line between actual interest and them just wanting to get your money?

So did everyone else see in this week's artvoice that our (E:strip) creator (e:paul) is going to be featured at the artvoice geekmeet or something like that. How great to be related to a local celeb even if it is in a geekmeet celeb kinda way.

I think it is calling my name....oh wait it is

I think Eva Peron is one of my favorite people in history. She is really what i wasnt to be i think. Like not really a politician but like sorta a leader of the revolution. And more importantly she gets lots of fancy clothes and goes to lots of parties. And people chant her name and carry her picutre in poster size. I think I could live with that. Ok so all I really know about her is from the musical Evita but I feel like hta tmust cover the importnat parts. Well I also have a book that has some of her writings.

What I really lik eabout her, well the musical version of her at least is she makes me think of two things I like to think about.
1. Like how she helped raise money for the poor and help them out but also smuggles the money to make herself fabulous. Like i always think about that with charity events and stuff , like wow what a waste of mney to make it so crazy cool when why doesn't all that money just go to the charity but then i think well if there want all the fanciness then no money would go to the charity. You got to be ostentatious to get the dough.

2. Ther is a line in one of the songs that is like "Better to win while admitting your sin than to lose with a halo" I guess it is really a does the end justify the means type of thing. I think like sure she may have been part of kidnapping and slaughtering dissidents but hey she made people have a slightly better life right? or at least have one dream come true through her foundation.

I guess there is one more too. 3. Like solving little problems when there are much bigger problems. She sent people on vacations and stuff and did little things for them instead of promising to like cure the world of war and stuff. LIke is it better to accept maybe little but achievalbe things or should you focus eveyrhting on the big almost impossible things.

I'll leave you with this, "They need to adore me, so Christian Dior me"