My oh so attractive and painful lobster red back has now turned into a maze of peeling skin. It is so itchy and gross. On a better note (e:amanda) is back in town and ready to go out and party so hopefully some hardcore fun this week, or at least cheap beer at the Deuce!
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Peely MCPeels08/18/2005 00:22 #28870
Sooo ItchyMy sunburn back is now one big itchy mess!!! I seriously have never felt so crazy in my life. I don't know what to do to make it stop. I have been using lotion and lidocaine and aloe and blowing a fan on it and put my back in the freezer and ice and water and everything. I get a few minutes of relief yhere and hthere and then back to the complete itch. (e:maureen) seems to be liek half a day ahead of me in her sunburn stage and her itching isn't as bad anyjmore. SO hopefully only 12 mor ehours of this!! AHHH Any suggestions?
08/17/2005 00:11 #28869
ArtvoiceI just wrote Artvoice an e-mail telling them about this site hoping to get it mentioned in an article. I tried to call hteir news tip line but it was closed and no answering machine, how weird is that? I will try calling again tomorw!
P.S. Thhanks everyoen for your comments on my last journal, I am gonna try and suck it up and just go for it, if any kind of opportunity arises.
P.S. Thhanks everyoen for your comments on my last journal, I am gonna try and suck it up and just go for it, if any kind of opportunity arises.
amanda - 08/17/05 16:10
walaboooo. dont be sad. i miss you!!!!!!! and as soon as i come back we are headin out for some super veggie pitas and can def go out drinking. u know u never have to ask me twice! ;)
walaboooo. dont be sad. i miss you!!!!!!! and as soon as i come back we are headin out for some super veggie pitas and can def go out drinking. u know u never have to ask me twice! ;)
08/16/2005 00:48 #28868
So UpsetI've never hated myself or my life more than I do right now. It is not like a my whole life sucks thing just one part that sucks enough for all of it. I seriously hate myself. Like why can I not to such a simple thing as go up to someone and say hey, how are you, what are you up to. Something simple liek that to someone i have already talked to many times before. seriously how did I ruin this one? Ok i didn't ruin it yet but like if nothing happens it is all my own fault. Like it sees like there is such a simple solution and that what i have to do is so simple. WHy am i so afraid of rejection. No i don't' even think it is that, i could deal with the rejection, i already assuem the rejection, it is the actual act of trying to make any kind of cotnact that freaks me out for some reason. I have to get over it! I don't want to be alone for life, I don't' think?
And all I wanted to do was go drink a lot tonight and forget about it, but alas, noone would go out drinking with me. I wish (e:amanda) was in town and not in miami right now, she is always up for drowning our troubles in alcohol. Seriously I am so upset with myself and to top it all off i am completely sunburn. See (e:maureen)'s journal for proof. It hurts so baaaad! I have never been sunburned like this in my life.
And all I wanted to do was go drink a lot tonight and forget about it, but alas, noone would go out drinking with me. I wish (e:amanda) was in town and not in miami right now, she is always up for drowning our troubles in alcohol. Seriously I am so upset with myself and to top it all off i am completely sunburn. See (e:maureen)'s journal for proof. It hurts so baaaad! I have never been sunburned like this in my life.
lilho - 08/16/05 14:20
lets look at it this way: you rock! look mike, life sucks, alot, but thats what makes life that much sweeter when things are good. you'll meeet somebody, just put all your eggs in one basket, theres alot of people who really care about.
p.s. i was just dumped for the second time. im pretty heartbroken, mad, confused, sleepless, etc. so, call me and we can cry together.
lets look at it this way: you rock! look mike, life sucks, alot, but thats what makes life that much sweeter when things are good. you'll meeet somebody, just put all your eggs in one basket, theres alot of people who really care about.
p.s. i was just dumped for the second time. im pretty heartbroken, mad, confused, sleepless, etc. so, call me and we can cry together.
ladycroft - 08/16/05 12:38
We've all been rejected, and we have all had to reject someone. It's only a small pin prick. Don't psych yourself up for a mallet to the head!
We've all been rejected, and we have all had to reject someone. It's only a small pin prick. Don't psych yourself up for a mallet to the head!
jason - 08/16/05 11:17
Mike, you have to "man up" and face your fears. Talking to people is easy, you definitely can go and introduce yourself to someone. A simple hello won't result in your demise, I promise. You just have to be yourself and also be interested in what the other person has to say. It's something you can practice. Every guy knows rejection is a big part of life but if you want something you have to be willing to take the risks. Good luck!
Mike, you have to "man up" and face your fears. Talking to people is easy, you definitely can go and introduce yourself to someone. A simple hello won't result in your demise, I promise. You just have to be yourself and also be interested in what the other person has to say. It's something you can practice. Every guy knows rejection is a big part of life but if you want something you have to be willing to take the risks. Good luck!
judy - 08/16/05 09:43
Mike, Don't u know that u have absolutely no control over those kind of feelings? Not to push drugs or anything like that but, try Prozac or Paxil. They work. The difference between hate & love, dark & light, contentment or misery.
Mike, Don't u know that u have absolutely no control over those kind of feelings? Not to push drugs or anything like that but, try Prozac or Paxil. They work. The difference between hate & love, dark & light, contentment or misery.
leetee - 08/16/05 07:40
The possibility of rejection is a hard fear to face for all of us. Know you aren't alone in that. Don't hate yourself.. for that, or anything!
The possibility of rejection is a hard fear to face for all of us. Know you aren't alone in that. Don't hate yourself.. for that, or anything!
maureen - 08/16/05 01:02
Mike, do NOT hate yourself, ever, for anything. talking to people is hard, especially if you don't know them well. it takes time to work up to things...it will happen.
Mike, do NOT hate yourself, ever, for anything. talking to people is hard, especially if you don't know them well. it takes time to work up to things...it will happen.
08/14/2005 23:50 #28867
InitiativeI've been told i need to start showing some initiative in getting things I want. I can't let things just pass me by any longer. In theory that is a good idea but we'll see if I can actually do it. If only I had a little more confidence I could go and knock on that door.....
Mike I so know what you are talking about. It's like P. Diddy was carrying on for Biggie and Tupac, but now I realize no one can fill the hole they left. RIP Biggie...